YOU FUCKING IDIOTS, YOU STILL WANT TO LOCK ME UP ? (IN PRISON OR IN MENTAL HOSPITAL ?) -- IN SPITE OF EVERYTHING YOU'VE HAD ALREADY LEARNED

FROM DAVID CHUA CHUAN SEAH
TO BOTH SAFTI MILITARY OFFICERS (1972)
AND MSD OFFICERS/PERSONNEL (1976) :

ABOUT MY IMPENDING OR
COMING ARREST, DETENTION, TRIAL, SENTENCING, CONVICTION
AND IMPRISONMENT -- CONDUCTED BY A KANGAROO-COURT WITH
A LITTLE HELP FROM "HONOURABLE" AND "GENTLEMANLY" COURT OFFICIALS,
LAWYERS, JUDGES AND
ALL THOSE WHO WOULD BE
DULY INVOLVED IN MY STRANGE "CRIMINAL" (WHAT ELSE CAN
THE PUBLIC EXPECT?) CASE :

AM I GOING TO CONTINUE
LIVING, WORKING AND PLAYING
IN A NIGHTMARISH WORLD,
OR WILL IT BE SWEETNESS AND LIGHT
FROM NOW ONWARDS --
RIGHT FROM THE MOMENT OF
MY IMPENDING ARREST
BY THOSE "HONOURABLE"
AND "GENTLEMANLY" LAW
ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS?

INTERESTING QUESTION :
BUT, DEAREST SIRS (AND MADAMS), PLEASE, ON WHAT GROUNDS -- CERTAINLY AND SURELY -- MAY I HUMBLY, HONESTLY, RESPECTFULLY, AND TRULY ASK ?

MY OWN HIGHLY IMAGINATIVE
AND SELECTIVE REPLY :

ON THE GROUND THAT I AM "INSANE" ?

OR THAT I AM A "CRIMINAL" ?

OR WHAT ELSE? A "SEXUAL PERVERT"? A

DISGUSTING "EXHIBITIONIST"?

A "THIEF"? AN IMMODEST

AND OUTRAGEOUS "MOLESTER"?

YES, WHAT ELSE -- YOU MORONIC BASTARDS!

DO YOU HONESTLY THINK

THAT YOU CAN

PROVE YOUR ALLEGATION OR

CHARGE? (YES, ESPECIALLY IN A

KANGAROO COURT OF LAW !)


MY CHALLENGES TO THOSE WHO ARE OUT TO ARREST (MEANING: INSULT) ME -- AS THEY HAVE BEEN DOING SO, SINCE 1972 (THE YEAR OF MY UNWELCOMED, UNDESIRABLE, UNDESIRED AND NON-ACCEPTABLE IMPLANTATION BY SAFTI MILITARY AUTHORITIES):


FIRSTLY, YOU CAN'T SIMPLY DISMISS MY VALID CONCERNS !

1. YOU MUST TAKE STEPS TO RESOLVE BOTH MY DOMESTIC AND PUBLIC PROBLEMS -- CREATED BY YOU PEOPLE IN THE FIRST PLACE !
2. THE CRUX OF BOTH MY DOMESTIC AND PUBLIC PROBLEM -- AS AN INDIVIDUALIST AND OPPOSITIONIST WRITER WHO HAS BEEN TRYING UNSUCCESSFULLY TO EARN A LIVING AS -- YES, PRECISELY -- A PROFESSIONAL WRITER -- LIES IN THE QUESTIONABLE CONDUCT OF ALL YOU PEOPLE, WHOSE EGOS ARE SO BIG AND WHO ARE NOT HELD ACCOUNTABLE IN ANY WAY -- NOT EVEN TO THE PAP LEADERSHIP, WHOSE MEMBERS' NAMES AND AUTHORITATIVE AND OFFICIAL POSITIONS YOU PEOPLE HAVE BEEN USING TO JUSTIFY YOUR CRUEL AND INHUMANE TREATMENT OF MYSELF (PRETENDING, ESPECIALLY TO ACT UNDER THEIR INSTRUCTIONS AND DIRECTIONS -- OFFICIAL OR OTHERWISE) -- FOR YOUR OWN NARCISSISTIC MISDEMEANOURS !
3. YOU PEOPLE CARE ONLY ABOUT WHAT YOUR SUPERIORS (THE PAP AND GOVERNMENT LEADERS) -- WHO ARE NOT EXACTLY AND CLEARLY AWARE OF YOUR ILLEGAL ACTIONS, GRAVE MISDEEDS AND SEVERE MISDEMEANOURS -- THINK OF YOU !
4. YOU PEOPLE HAVE LITTLE OR NO -- AT LEAST NOT TRULY GENUINE OR BONA FIDE -- CONCERNS ABOUT AND SYMPATHY FOR THE PLIGHT AND PREDICAMENT OF THOSE ORDINARY PEOPLE WHO ARE VICTIMIZED AS RESISTING AND REBELLIOUS IMPLANTEES -- LIKE YOURS TRULY, DAVID CHUA CHUAN SEAH !
5. YOU PEOPLE HAVE TRIED SO FAR TO SOLVE YOUR EXPECTED DIFFICULTIES -- DIDN'T YOU PEOPLE FIRST FORESEE SUCH ("UNEXPECTED") NEGATIVE AND LIFE-DESTROYING OUTCOMES AND CONSEQUENCES OF WHAT YOU PEOPLE HAD DECIDED AND ACTED UPON, WHEN YOU PEOPLE (MORONICALLY) IMPLANTED ME IN 1972 (WHEN I WAS JUST SERVING TWO-AND-A-HALF YEARS OF NATIONAL SERVICE IN THE SAF AS AN IDEALISTIC AND INEXPERIENCED YOUNG SOLDIER, TRYING TO MAKE SENSE OF THE UNWILLING ROLE OR PART I WAS COMPELLED -- BY THE LAWS OF THE COUNTRY -- TO PERFORM, IN A FORBIDDING MILIEU AND IN AN AWKWARD ENVIRONMENT WHICH REMINDED ME, DAILY AND CONSTANTLY, THAT I WAS CLEARLY UNFIT TO BE IN ? NO? YES, WHY DIDN'T YOU PEOPLE LOOK AHEAD INTO THE FUTURE, YES, INTO THE KIND OF PERSON I WOULD BECOME , AND INTO THE KIND OF LIFE I WOULD BE LEADING -- AFTER I HAD LEFT THE SINGAPORE ARMED FORCES, UPON COMPLETION OF MY OFFICIALLY-SPECIFIED TERM OF TWO-AND-A-HALF YEARS OF NATIONAL SERVICE!) -- BY PLANNING TO SEND ME INTO (A) PRISON, OR TO (B) MENTAL HOSPITAL. IT IS AN ACT, A DECISION, A PLAN THAT IS NOT ONLY THUGGISH (REMINISCENT OF THE SOVIET-ERA STYLE OF PUTTING DISSIDENTS IN MENTAL HOSPITALS; BUT ALSO, IRONICALLY, AN ACT THAT WILL LEAD TO MORE GRIEVANCES ON MY PART AND SOW THE BAD SEEDS OF DISCORD -- IN A COUNTRY THAT WISHES TO BUILD A MORE HARMONIOUS SOCIETY, OF CITIZENS LIVING TOGETHER AND SHOWING RESPECT FOR ONE ANOTHER! [TELL ME, HOW CAN YOU REALLY EXPECT ME -- SUCH AN INTELLIGENT AND LIFE-AFFIRMING HUMAN BEING, A HARDWORKING AND AMBITIOUS WRITER (NOT MERELY PUBLISHED BLOGGER!), AN AMOROUS MAN WITH, FREQUENTLY, URGENT SEXUAL NEEDS THAT MUST BE SATISFIED, AND LASTLY, AN UNAMBIGUOUSLY, BASICALLY AND ESSENTIALLY LAW-ABIDING CITIZEN (UNTIL YOUR KANGAROO COURT WILL PROVE OTHERWISE!, I AM SURE!) -- YES, IN ALL SINCERITY AND HUMILITY, AND IN GOOD FAITH, HOW CAN YOU ACTUALLY, REALLY AND IN NO UNCERTAIN TERMS, EXPECT ME TO RESPECT YOU PEOPLE -- AFTER SUCH A PERIOD OF IMPRISONMENT, THE EXPECTED OUTCOME OF A TRAIN OF EVENTS THAT WILL BEGIN FROM THIS MOMENT -- SHOULD I EVER RELINQUISH MY RIGHT TO FIGHT LIKE I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN CAPABLE OF DOING -- AT THE HIGHEST LEVEL OF MY BEING (UNLESS YOU PEOPLE ARE GOING TO CHEAT, YOU MORONIC BASTARDS!]
6. IN SINGAPORE, LET US SIMPLY BLAME OUR UNFREE (AND MAINLY COWARDLY AND MONEY-OBSESSED) PRESS OR MASS MEDIA FOR THE NON-TRANSPARENT AND NON-ACCOUNTABLE BEHAVIOUR AND ACTIONS AND ACTIVITIES OF THESE SECRETIVE, DEVIOUS AND GREEDY SURVEILLANCE AUTHORITIES (GOVERNMENTAL INTELLIGENCE AND SECURITY OFFICERS AND AGENTS)! THE PRESS -- WILL THEY REPORT ON MY CASE, SHOULD I ACTUALLY BECOME A DEFENDANT IN COURT -- FAIRLY, ACCURATELY, HONESTLY AND WITHOUT BIG EGOS TO DEFEND THEMSELVES (AGAINST ME?).
7. YOU MUST TRY TO SECURE OUR NATIONAL DEFENCE AND SECURITY, AND ALSO MAINTAIN AND PROMOTE THE HARMONY AND MUTUAL TRUST AMONG OUR CITIZENS IN OUR DEMOCRATIC SOCIETY -- WITH SPECIAL REGARD TO OUR NATIONAL PLEDGE -- WHILE PROTECTING THE SAME CITIZENS' CIVIL LIBERTIES AND THEIR PRIVACY !
8. AND, FRIENDS AND SUPPORTERS, BROTHERS AND SISTERS, AND FELLOW CITIZENS GENERALLY, WHAT --YES, WHAT? (IN GOD'S NAME?) -- IS THE WHOLE POINT OF IT ALL ? (YES, I MEAN, ALL THESE MORONIC ATTEMPTS TO CONTROL -- AND TO EXERT THEIR (THE PAP GOVERNMENT'S) MORONIC AUTHORITY AND POWER OVER -- OUR CITIZENS ? IS IT TO PROVE, DEAREST ONES, THAT THEY (THE PAP BASTARDS) ARE SUPERIOR TO DEAR OLD ME, FINALLY, AFTER ALL THESE CRAZY YEARS (MORE THAN 36!) ? THAT THEY ARE SO CRAZY -- YES, STILL SO CRAZY AFTER ALL THESE MORONIC YEARS, TO EVEN WANT TO BE NUMBER ONE ?)
9. BUT WHAT -- AH, YES ! -- SUCH POLITICAL INFANTILISTS, THESE PAP LEADERS REALLY ARE, AFTER ALL ! (ALL INTELLIGENCE AND SECURITY -- BUT NO WISDOM AT ALL! REALLY AND TRULY PATHETIC! AND SAD!)
10. THE DAYS WHEN MPs VOTED, WITHOUT A DIVISION, ON MATTERS OF IMPORTANCE -- TO OUR SENSE OF FAIRPLAY AND JUSTICE AND RESPECT FOR FREEDOM AND HUMAN RIGHTS -- ARE OVER! tHIS IS ESPECIALLY SO, NOW THAT NOTHING EVER GETS DEBATED, OR VOTED ON, WITH A BACKGROUND OF ALMOST COMPLETE PUBLIC INDIFFERENCE (OR, WORST STILL, OF COWARDLY OR ELSE STUNNED SILENCE FROM THE MPs THEMSELVES!)
11. WHAT I AM (NOW), WAS (THEN), HAVE BEEN (SO FAR), HAD BEEN (FOR TOO LONG NOW), AND PROBABLY STILL WILL BE (IN THE FUTURE) MUST BE ANSWERED, EXACTLY, WITH REFERENCE TO : (I) THE HISTORICAL REALITY; AND (B) THE HISTORICAL TRUTH -- CONSIDERING AND CONCERNING MY PRESENT STATUS AND MY FUTURE PROSPECT -- AS A MAN, HUMAN BEING, CITIZEN AND WRITER!

[DEFINITIVE & UNCOMPROMISED] : THE LONG, LONG, LONG NIGHTMARE : THE HISTORY OF MY 36 YEARS AS A "POLITICAL INFANTILIST" -- ON PAPER ! (1972 - 2008)

THE LONG AND BIG PUBLIC

MASQUERADE -- AS AN "AGENT"

(OR "EMPLOYEE") OF

THE SINGAPORE GOVERNMENT --

BUT ONLY ON PAPER !


ADVICE TO THOSE WHO ARE INVOLVED :

NOW IS THE MOMENT FOR YOU ALL

SURVEILLANCE OFFICERS

TO ACT, THINK, DECIDE AND DO --

AS I SAY AND PLEASE ! WHY?


THESE ARE MY REASONS :


(1) I've Had Enough (Of Such Scenario-Thinking and Story-Telling);


(2) It's Time For Me To Be Real, Realistic and Tough !



(3) IT'S TIME FOR THE MILITARY TOP BRASS,

WORKING IN SAFTI IN 1972, TO ADMIT, CONFESS, APOLOGIZE

AND BE CONTRITE NOW -- IF

THEY STILL HAVE ANY SEMBLANCE OF HONOUR, SELF-

RESPECT AND DECENCY !!!


Readers of my entire series of postings in my 3 blogs : especially http://thenon-romanticloverandwriter.blogspot.com/ -- which is the most currently active and constantly updated blog now -- and also the more familiar and bitter articles in : http://afighterandalovertoo.blogspot.com/ , will now be the first to know the TRUTH about why there are so many discrepancies, contradictions, inconsistencies and illogicalities in the many accounts which I've had given to readers of these blogs about myself and my life in the past 36 years or so.

I've had enough ! (as the title of this entry indicates) : announcing my entry into the world of "above-ground" or "on-the-ground" professional writing (and blogging), beginning from many months back (IN THE YEAR 2008), and which has given me so much power as a no-longer-underground thinking writer! It's time, yes, for me to be TOUGH -- and disclose, passionately and with a renewed sense of immediacy and urgency (for I am no longer still young), the reasons for my inexplicable and unjustifiable EMOTIONAL sufferings, HUMILIATION and INTELLECTUAL impoverishment THROUGHOUT MORE THAN 36 years now.

I have recounted then in my blog entries, including the latest ones -- my plight and predicament as a near-candidate for CONSIDERATION and, eventually, PUBLIC HIGHLIGHTING -- BY THE INTERNATIONAL HUMAN RIGHTS ORGANISATIONS -- OF MY BASIC HUMAN RIGHTS (PARTICULARLY THOSE OF MINE AS A MAN) BEING MORONICALLY AND IDIOTICALLY ABUSED BY THE FUCKING SINGAPORE GOVERNMENT! As someone WHO IS CLEARLY AND EVIDENTLY TARGETTED by the local INTELLIGENCE and SECURITY authorities (in a case of human rights abuses), and as one who indomitably and forcefully resists all attempts by the security and intelligence authorities to force one into a position of ZERO (so that one would have no other alternatives but to accept the sole and undivided leadership of the Singapore Government), I will forever insist on finding out the truth behind or underneath our highly compromised and, expectedly, very commercially successful print-media "writers"! Considering the quality, strength, range and standard of my, so far, electronically published writings, as reflected in my numerous blog articles or essays; and keeping in mind the psychological and emotional "long-sufferings" (and also physical loneliness, socially isolation, and love-starved and yet unmarried status and lifestyle -- but certainly not of a man who is totally sexually deprived or frustrated) of a man who has had plenty of long-time and varied experiences patronizing adult female prostitutes, especially those wonderful Chinese girls working in Geylang); and, lastly, viewing his less than "model citizen" status, and also considering the relentless and merciless pressure applied by the "good" and "able" (but certainly NOT caring) surveillance authorities, for far too long now, it is not difficult to understand now why I have sunk or descended into my lowest level of inhuman and pitiful existence -- even as a stubbornly thrifty consumer! That is why I have been seeking -- oh, goodness! gracious! -- public FINANCIAL assistance from the Singapore Government -- in such a humiliating way, at more than 55 years of age, and hence, as a thinking Senior Citizen who, no less than any other "highly qualified" professionals in the same trade, business, art, or activity, and probably encountering the same financial problems as mine, could have been so motivated enough by his own causes, principles, ideas, values, goals and beliefs, to go in search of ladies of the morning, afternoon and night, in order to satisfy his basic sexual needs, as a still-vigorous horny man, with the greatest of ease! So why has he become so poor?


The whole issue of my plight is centred around this question: Why am I -- or, why have I become -- so politically "untouchable", so financially unrewarded, and professionally unsuccessful as a WRITER? WHO are the people responsible for inducing in me such "untouchability", such "incapacity", such lack of intellectual excellence, such lack of assuredness in personal and professional achievements? Why have I become so unsuccessful -- as a writer of serious, quality essays, articles and books?

UNVEILLING THE PUBLIC MASQUERADE -- AND THE COVER-UP ( ADOPTED OR CONSTRUCTED BY THE EX-OFFICERS IN THE OLD MILITARY SECURITY DEPARTMENT (1976) -- AND THEIR SUPPORT OF, AND ASSISTANCE TO, THESE FUCKING SAFTI MILITARY OFFICERS (THE TOP BRASS) WHO MADE THE ERRONEOUS DECISION TO "IMPLANT" ME IN 1972, AFTER I HAD GONE AWOL AND LATER RETURNED TO "KILO" COMPANY (SAFTI), WHERE I WAS UNDERGOING SECTION LEADER TRAINING:


OF PAPER CERTIFICATES, PAPER DOCUMENTS,

AND OTHER PAPER "EVIDENCES" ON

MY SUPPOSED "INCAPABILITY"

TO WORK AS A PROFESSINAL WRITER :


MILITARY SECURITY DEPARTMENT (MINDEF), in 1976, is a partner in supporting and in covering up this crime of "implanting" me (COMMITTED in 1972 BY SAFTI MILITARY AUTHORITIES). I was directed to seek medical attention by my Officer Commanding, KILO COMPANY and was warded at the Medical Centre in SAFTI for clinical observation by military doctors. I have had disclosed my personal reasons for going AWOL in many of my previous blog entries. But I have yet, up until now, yes -- at this particular moment in time [readers, please be patient and calm : just read on, and hopefully if my mother is blessing me now, and while I am trying very hard to remember -- yes, to locate with accuracy and detail and honesty -- the nature of the missing pieces to this huge puzzling aspect of my troubled and disturbed life (resulting from the crucial life-changing "implantation" of my being, as an enlisted but reluctant and ill-adapted soldier who had gone AWOL in the year 1972); and also, its effects on, and implications for, my dull and boring and unhappy life in the last 36 years or so. What, and who, had influenced and even determined -- in mostly negative, destructive and undesired ways -- the course of my life so far -- including all the petty-minded and cruel violations of, and disrespect for, my human rights! Hence, it is not difficult now to understand all the bizarre outcomes, unexpected "loony" behaviour and dismal (and moronic and idiotic) consequences of almost all of my attempts to realizel my cherished goals and ambitions -- as a man, human being, citizen and, still, UNPUBLISHED (though not electronically, in the Internet) writer of PRINTED BOOKS)!

A SELF-RELIANT & SELF-EDUCATED WRITER AT WORK -- ASKING QUESTIONS & REFLECTING ON LIFE IN THE POSTMODERN AGE -- AS AN UNREPENTANT INDIVIDUALIST

SIX KEY ISSUES FOR CONSIDERATION BY

THE CITIZENS OF THE BRAVE NEW WORLD

OF POSTMODERNISM, GLOBALIZATION,

BIOPOLITICS, AND THE USE OF SURVEILLANCE

TECHNOLOGIES BY CORPORATE AND

GOVERNMENT AGENCIES -- AND THE RESULTANT

AND DISTURBING LOSS OF PRIVACY

INTRODUCTION :

My professional aim as a writer in this postmodern age is to be an honest user of words, phrases and sentences -- with, hopefully, class, skill, style and distinction -- and expressed in an authorial voice of reason and passion, power and inspiration. (I would have wanted to be, also, a moderate and balanced writer -- except that, as a thinker on the world, national and personal issues that concern me, in one way or another, I am unable to maintain and to express what used to be expected from such an ideal or model thinker -- in other words, one of moderation and balance in his thinking! Why this has to be so must be studied and examined by those intelligent, careful and politically aware professionals and citizens among us -- with regard to what has happened in our modern world, through such developments as postmodernism, globalization, biopolitics and the employment of surveillance technologies and techniques by both national governments and large powerful corporations.)

CHAPTER ONE :

WITHOUT FINANCIAL ASSISTANCE FROM N.W.C.D.C. : FACING A TERRIBLE "DEATH"? (A "POLITICAL" CHALLENGE TO MY POWER AS A THINKING AND STUBBORN WRITER!)

You've been secretly provoking me all these past 36 years -- in public and and in private -- leading me to adopt questionable behavioural practices and to commit, repeatedly, destructive and self-destructive acts in my externally induced and prompted irrational responses to such deliberate provocations!

Will I, yes, "die" a terrible "death" -- now that you are provoking me in such non-secretive ways and manners? (In, perhaps, 3 months" time?)



CHAPTER TWO :

MY 36 YEARS OF LIFE AND TIMES AS AN UNDERGROUND SOCIO-POLITICAL WRITER (1972 - 2008)


Besides provoking me in a calculated and calculative manner, ex-MSD officers and now, also SAFTI's former top-ranking officers (in 1976 and 1972), have still NOT been DISCLOSING (OR REVEALING) the SCIENTIFIC nature and basis -- with the provision of vital FACTS and DETAILS -- concerning my "implantation" in 1972 by SAFTI's military authorities [with its resultant and detestable consequence or outcome : i.e., my UNDESIRED and UNWANTED ability, as an "implantee", to receive (or to "hear", in other words) voice communications (or simply, "voices") -- and also, conversely, to transmit my own voice (or voice communications) to those who are "controlling" or "monitoring" me as surveillance officers or agents (using modern surveillance technologies and techniques)]! SUCH AN UNDESIRABLE AND UNDESIRED ABILITY -- TO ME, AT LEAST, PERSONALLY -- HAS THUS RENDERED ME AS SHOWING ONE OF THE MOST PROMINENT CLINICAL OR MEDICAL SYMPTOMS -- i.e., AUDITORY HALLUCINATIONS -- SUFFERED BY THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN STRICKEN BY THIS MODERN-DAY SCIENTIFIC AND TECHNOLOGICAL "MENTAL DISEASE" -- NAMELY, "SCHIZOPHRENIA"!

Yes, a full, genuine and proper account of such a technological and scientific (and "schizophrenic") way of human communication -- and its relation to modern reality -- will enable me, as a "victim" myself of such technological and scientific "schizophrenia", to seek a proper and full compensation from the authorities -- for such an act of "implantation", which was never consented to willingly by me more than 36 years ago -- in 1972!



CHAPTER THREE :

OPEN LETTER OF APPEAL TO MY HOST OF SUPPORTERS, HELPERS, SYMPATHIZERS, FRIENDS, ADMIRERS AND DEFENDERS


Do you care enough about my -- especially FINANCIAL -- plight and predicament?

Do you wish to share your your wealth with me?

Do you wish to bond with me -- as a fellow man, human being, citizen and professional?

This is a good case -- as good as it can get -- to see how caring, dynamic and cohesive our community leaders and representatives really are!

Do you treat me as a partner in the community?

Do you build a community for ALL -- or only for some?

How do you propose to enhance the quality of my life if you can only offer 3 months' supply of Food Vouchers to me -- each month's allotment to worth only S$30.00 (for buying only essential groceries)? Dear Sirs, I need cash -- SIMPLY!



CHAPTER FOUR :

MY NEED FOR (ENOUGH) MONEY AND PENETRATIVE SEXUAL INTERCOURSE (WITH, OBVIOUSLY, WOMEN AND GIRLS -- PHYSICALLY DESIRABLE ONES, THAT IS!)


I need, at least, an amount of $600.oo in my monthly income now -- AS RENT given to me monthly by my loyal tenants -- in order to be able to live meaningfully and productively and also to be able to satisfy my sexual needs as a man, with the help of prostitutes!

Am I being irresponsible and morally contemptible -- and financially unsound? But, dear readers, I only need to have enough money to pay for the sexual services of a Chinese prostitute from Geylang at least once a month! (How more brutally frank and natural -- and normal -- do you want me to be, girls?)

I will always, truly and humbly, remain as an AMOROUS self-trained and self-educated writer and intellectual -- till I am physically incapable of being so!



CHAPTER FIVE :

MY POLITICAL AWAKENING AT AGE 55 (IN THE YEAR 2008)


I'm turning in a new direction now -- politically -- in response to my own current plight and predicament. All through the past 36 years, I've been trying to be MODERATE and BALANCED in my thinking on politics.

Now, I'm changing -- because my own circumstances have been changing! I'm turning more towards the left -- and thus becoming a 21st century libertarian and a liberal -- with a penetrative, imaginative, observant, perspicuous and coherent mind!

It is no small measure of success on my part, as a reluctant and unhappy "implantee", with my highest educational level at pre-university 2, to say humbly and respectfully, in acknowledgment of my sincere gratitude towards the N.W.C.D.C. officers, who had been attending attentively to my urgent request and prompt application for FINANCIAL assistance, "Thank you very much!"

They have the power to solve my FINANCIAL predicament (with all its causes and consequences -- personal and public, private and official, bizarre and normal -- that I, as a discerning thinker, know how to separate those who have been responsible, as my detractors, enemies and agent provocateurs, for my plight and predicament -- yes, from those who, as my helpers, supporters, admirers, friends and defenders, have been reading, eagerly and productively, all my explanations of, and explorations into important current issues and events that are affecting my life -- in my numerous, regularly updated and very active postings in my 3 well-established and influential blogs.

Yes, I'll continue to confirm, daily, that my more than 36-year-old private and public struggles -- including my POLITICAL struggle [as reflected in my more than 45 posted comments in the SDP website -- http://www.yoursdp.org/ ] -- against being reduced to a mere robotic SUBJECT by the governmental authorities (through their proxies, the surveillance agents or officers) -- and in facing all problems of food and cash insufficiency; and further, in confronting all kinds of relentless official mental and emotional pressures applied on me -- have NOT all been in vain!

I will persist in my writer's endeavour; I will insist on my right to write --and to express myself as freely as I please; and I will strive to write as fully, clearly, rationally (but with my self-determined liberty to defend myself against mean, unjustified and nasty -- not to mention pompous --remarks or criticisms by my resorting, skillfully, to sarcastic retorts). Yes, I will attempt to write powerfully, passionately and courageously --without contradicting my own thinking and behaviour!


CHAPTER SIX :

MY FUTURE AND POSITION IN THE INTERNATIONAL COMMUNITY OF WRITERS AND BLOGGERS

I'll turn this very moment (on a perfectly ordinary weekday night like this -- 0n 29.04.2009, Wednesday, 9.13 pm) into one that will decide my future as a writer. All I need now is a braver, more assertive, bolder and more emphatic on-line or internet presence -- namely, a LOUD, DISTINCT, CLEAR AND LOGICAL establishment of my undeniable authorial voice -- and a constant striving to ensure that my voice -- a careful and intelligent one -- will be a voice that would be listened to by those who matter!

Yes, it will be a heart-felt, honest, and diligently practised voice; and one that is constantly speaking up on issues that matter!

I won't, for the present moment, be that particularly bothered about having my writings published in PRINTED formats. As long as my essays or articles are NOT COLLECTED and PUBLISHED via THE PRINTED MEDIA or INDUSTRY, I will remain intellectually and professionally unfulfilled and dissatisfied. I will still be an unhappily committed writer of socio-psychological-cultural-political essays!

This is WHAT I REALLY AM, with all my powers and strengths and abilities -- as well as my undeniable blemishes, ugliness, defects, and weaknesses. I WANT TO BE ACCEPTED, RECOGNISED, ACKNOWLEDGED AND REGARDED -- internationally, by intelligent, careful, diligent, and creative members of such a writers', readers' and intellectuals' community -- as a writer who matters!

I want to be eventually applauded and acclaimed for being able to achieve my goals and ambitions as precisely such a writer (yes, a writer who matters!) -- unapologetically!

AN HONEST VOICE IN POSTMODERN SINGAPORE (AT THIS CRUCIAL MOMENT IN HIS "LOONY" TIME AND LIFE AS AN UNHAPPY AND RELUCTANT "IMPLANTEE" SINCE 1972

ON A SICK GOVERNMENT DEPARTMENT

(MILITARY SECURITY DEPARTMENT),

COVERING UP FOR THE GRAVE, SEVERE

AND INEXCUSABLE MISDEEDS

OF SOME COMPLETELY SICK TOP-RANKING

MILITARY OFFICERS,

WORKING IN SINGAPORE ARMED FORCES

TRAINING INSTITUTE (SAFTI)

IN THAT PIVOTAL -- TO THE AUTHOR

OF THIS ESSAY -- YEAR : 1972


CONTENTS:

CHAPTER ONE : TELECOMMUNICATION EQUIPMENT AND DEVICES : AS USED CONSTANTLY BY OFFICERS FROM INTELLIGENCE AND SECURITY GOVERNMENT DEPARTMENTS, IN THEIR CONSTANT USE OF SURVEILLANCE TECHNOLOGIES AND TECHNIQUES, WITH THE AVOWED "DEFENSIBLE" PURPOSE OF CONTROLLING "IMPLANTEES" FOR, PURPORTEDLY OR PRESUMABLY, NATIONAL PURPOSES


CHAPTER TWO : THE USE OF CREATIVE DEFENCES -- SUCH AS THE USE OF RADIO AMPLIFICATION DEVICES -- BY SUFFERING, PRESSURIZED AND VICTIMIZED "IMPLANTEES", IN THEIR ATTEMPTS TO WARD OFF SUCH RELENTLESS PERSONAL ATTACKS OR INVASIONS OR VIOLATIONS OF THEIR HUMAN RIGHTS -- INCLUDING THE RIGHT TO ONE'S OWN PRIVATE MOMENTS -- TO DESTABILIZE AND TO "DESTROY" THE UNWELCOME, INSULTING AND DISRESPECTFUL EFFORTS BY GOVERNMENTAL SURVEILLANCE OFFICERS, WHO WANT TO CONTROL THESE ALMOST HELPLESS AND UNFORTUNATE "IMPLANTEES" -- AGAINST THEIR OWN INDIVIDUAL INTENTIONS, NEEDS, PRINCIPLES, BELIEFS AND AIMS (AS, YES!, ADMITTEDLY -- FOR MANY STILL !) PITIFULLY INNOCENT, UNKNOWING AND UNINFORMED CITIZENS, HUMAN BEINGS, MEN AND WOMEN, AND PROFESSIONALS (OR WORKERS)

MY STUNNING, CHARMING, BEAUTIFUL, DYNAMIC, LOVELY AND ANGELIC WOMEN -- NEEDING VERY FEW WORDS TO DESCRIBE THEM ..... OR MYSELF!

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Letter To The Prime Minister of Singpore : On The Predictable Official Response To My Application For Financial Assistance

URGENT ATTENTION NEEDED

FROM THE PRIME MINISTER

OF SINGAPORE

[BRIGADIER-GENERAL (BG) LEE HSIEN LOONG] :


The Prime Minister,
Prime Minister's Office,
Istana,
Orchard Road,
Singapore 238823.
(Attention: Mr Lee Hsien Loong)

c.c. to : Minister for Law; and the President of Singapore

Dear Prime Minister,

Re: Top Secret Project, Headed by Former MSD Officer, Mr Tan Hong Huat (with the rank of Captain in 1976; and now, of Retired Colonel, in 2009)

I'm a prisoner of the expectations of the former Military Security Department (MSD), where I once worked at, for about 10 months (between Dec. 1975 and Oct. 1976).

Do they not realize that I'm just as aware of the practical realities of their "scenario thinking" -- as they themselves are, controlling me, an ex-MSD clerical officer in its Registry -- from the time I left MSD all these past 36 years or so ago?

But I'm not prepared to accept any unfair outcome and consequence of having to conform to the requirements of their -- especially, political "scenario thinking" in practice. I'm not going to be a puppet, a pawn, or a figurehead! I'm also, neither a worshipper nor an idolizer!

Their "scenarios" are often contradictory and paradoxical, don't they realize?

Sir, I'm a realistic man (in spite of my basic idealism) : I, too, am aware of the dilemmas, realities, ambiguities, tensions and uncertainties that lie at the bottom of all our attempts at communicating with one another -- to find a good settlement to our problem --one which resulted from my unwilling implantation in 1972 (an unhappy event whose related details and involved decision-making by those military officers at SAFTI at that time in 1972 and whose decision to implant me have all yet to be EXPLAINED, in full and with clarity, to me in this significant year 2009. What exactly do you mean when you make me (or prompt me to) claim or say that I'm an "implantee"? What is an implantee?

Sir, my whole life from now onwards depends on whether or not I am going to receive detailed information concerning my implantation in 1972 -- which I had never consented to in the first place!

I am not a "both/and" thinker, please! I'm an "either/or" thinker, Sir! I don't accept that "both/and" thinking is the only way to make hard (political) decisions that will lead to the solution of my problem -- which is not merely financial in nature. Sir, you should know!

Please avail me of your insights and wisdom -- honed from years of political leadership. I'll be glad to learn from you.

I apologize for causing you much irritation, hurt, frustration, anger, and immense annoyance with my disparaging and disrespectful remarks and responses to your handling of State affairs and issues -- in my comments posted in my blogs and those in SDP website (namely, and respectively: http://afighterandalovertoo.blogspot.com/ and http://www.yoursdp.org/ ).

But I just don't like pomposity in a person -- especially in a person with an official position with so much unusually (or automatically) -- and speedily -- conferred autocratic POWER over all others -- be they subordinates or the commom people!

And I prefer to confront realities -- not illusions (yes, including "conspiracies", "scenarios" and "crises"), as manufactured and concocted by your hardworking former MSD officers and other related personnel from the Singapore Government! And aren't those just mere propaganda? Oh, the sordidness of opportunist politics -- with all its political maneuvering, harassment, manipulation and manhandling I'm too intelligent and too careful a thinker and observer to let myself be insulted and misled in this infantile manner. On the ground that my own destiny will be taken charge of by "madmen" and "madwomen" who use security and intelligence officers against me (a "barbarian")? It all goes back to the years of LKY, who ran a one-man show -- tooautocratic to allow Cabinet overnment to flourish! Well, LKY is very effective -- especially when it comes to matters of the economy! And he doesn't care about "popularity"!

Please, Sir, don't panic! We have a large mutual database -- your kind, officially, and that of my own version, based on my own intellectual framework and experiences.

Sir, please make use of our mutual knowledge, experiences. and even our imagination to serve as guides to the solution of my (and our) problem -- which requires and demands our collaboration.

We should try to ensure that the possible is not only probable but also achievable!

I WANT (as the lead singer in A ROCK GROUP CALLED "QUEEN" ONCE SANG) TO BE FREE! SIR, ARE YOU LISTENING WITH YOUR HEART, MIND, SOUL AND BODY TO MY HUMBLE AND EVEN DESPERATE PLEA to you for help -- for your intervention in my case, a TOP SECRET PROJECT THAT HAS INVOLVED SO MANY PEOPLE FOR THE LAST 36 YEARS AND INCURRED SO MUCH EXPENSES! (AND PRODUCED SO MUCH PAIN, ANGER, HURT AND SORROW IN SO MANY PEOPLE!)

Let us, Sir, put a FINAL and CONCLUSIVE cover to this open-ended issue, which has been leading me, especially, as a "victimized" and reluctant "government employee" or "agent", for the past 36 years, to a point, my lowest point!, where I could not survive even as a humble but, to put it simply, talented citizen and writer/blogger (a position and point in my life where I have to suffer the humiliation of seeking FINANCIAL assistance from the Singapore Government, who always insists on people being SELF-RELIANT, a quality that I myself subscribe to but which I am unable to practise in reality, for the majority of the past 36 years of my life as an unhappy and reluctant implantee of the OFTEN BARBARIC Singapore Government)!

Sir, please ask the Military Security Department officials and officers (the former ones, namely --with whom I was working between Dec 1975 and Oct 1976) for information and for their coooperation and initiative in our attempt to come to a final understanding/resolution/solution of this thorny problem!

Thank you, Sir!

Yours truly,

DAVID CHUA CHUAN SEAH
(An Orderly And Coherent Mind,
& A Humble One To Boot!)

BLOGS/WEBSITES: http://afighterandalovertoo.blogspot.com/
http://thenon-romanticloverandwriter.blogspot.com
http://trainofmypresence.blogspot.com
http://wholecity.blogspot.com

E-mail: chua.chuanseah4@gmail.com


ADDENDUM ONE

(TO THE EX-MSD OFFICERS) :

1. EVERYONE ENGAGED IN OUR COLLABORATIVE EFFORT OR VENTURE SHOULD HONESTLY MEAN EXACTLY WHAT HE OR SHE SAYS;
2. MY OWN PREDICAMENT IS, AFTER ALL, NOT GOING TO LEAD ME INTO A SITUATION WHERE I'D BE SENTENCED TO LIFE-IMPRISONMENT OR DEATH;
3. SINCE 1972, I'VE FACED THE MERETRICIOUS, THE MERCENARY, AND THE WISED-UP TRICKS AND HANDIWORKS OF PEOPLE WHO ARE OUT TO EXPLOIT MY WEAKNESSES;
4. I'LL DEFY SERIOUS AND BELIEVABLE THREATS TO MY LIFE IN ORDER TO KEEP MY FREE THINKING AND FREE EXPRESSING ALIVE;
5. TO ACCUSE ME, MOST AMAZINGLY OF ALL, OF WRITING FOR MONEY, IS TRULY INSULTING! WHAT NEXT?;
6. WILL YOU, SIR (HEAD OF TOP SECRET EX-MSD PROJECT), NOW RENEGE ON OUR MUTUAL (UNSPOKEN AND UNACKNOWLEDGED) AGREEMENT -- BASED ON OUR AIMS AND INTERESTS (ESPECIALLY ON OUR "CONTRACTUIAL OBLIGATIONS") TO HELP ME BRING OUT -- AT LEAST ONCE -- A PRINTED AND PUBLISHED (NOT ELECTRONICALLY VIA THE INTERNET) BOOK OF COLLECTED ESSAYS OF MINE, WRITTEN AS THEY SHOULD BE, BY A "SPY" (LIKE ME!) -- ACTING IN THE ROLE OF A WRITER?

PLEASE, I HAVE NEVER TRIED TO IMPRESS PEOPLE WITH MY USE OF IRONY. (I AM NOT EVEN SURE WHAT IT MEANS!) I AM, HOWEVER, AWARE THAT I'VE A LITERAL MENTALITY. (AND I'LL LIKE TO REMIND MILITARY SECURITY DEPARTMENT OFFICERS (BOTH CURRENT AND FORMER ONES) THAT I'M A LITERAL-MINDED MAN, HUMAN BEING, CITIZEN AND WRITER;

SO, PLEASE SIRS, DON'T ACCUSE ME OF SUPPORTING OR OF PROMOTING "WESTERN CULTURAL COLONIALISM" OR "WESTERN FORMS OF CONDESCENSION" TOWARDS OUR PEOPLE. NO, I'M NOT DOING ANYTHING OF THAT SORT!

LASTLY, I WANT TO DECLARE THAT, AS A WRITER, I'M JUST TRYING TO EXPRESS MY LEARNING AND EDUCATION -- WHICH, I AM CLAIMING, HAS BENEFITED MUCH FROM THE (SOMETIMES UNFAIRLY, SUPERFICIALLY, AND FLIPPANTLY DISMISSED) WESTERN INTELLECTUAL TRADITION.

Thank You!

From : David Chua Chuan Seah

(Blogger/Writer)

30.11.08 (10.50 am), Sunday

3.5.09 (12.48 pm), Sunday (Date, Time & Day of This Updated Document/Letter)

THE FUTURE IS OURS : AS DISSENTING VOICES OF CONSCIENCE

Fighting Words of Wisdom

and Experience:

Internet Fighters At Work!

1. We can do what other (unaware and unknowing) activists and politicians can't do here -- specifically, by precisely NOT becoming political figureheads! We just want real, genuine, effective and substantial results -- not mere cosmetic, concocted, manufactured and "in-house" changes!
2. We stand back when we should have intervened, and we intervene when we should NOT! Why the "ineptitude"? (Or "dishonesty"?)
3. We have absolutely NO evidence of our so-called "continual", "continuing", "continuous", "continued", "contagious", "confining" and "comfortable" utilization (or, yes!, USAGE) of the VITAL Internet Services which are provided by STARHUB, the Internet Service Provider!
4. Logically, from one of our leading dissident blogger's (David Chua Chuan Seah's) viewpoint, what has STARHUB, the I.S.P., got to do with his present plight and predicament as a FINANCIALLY destitute writer/blogger?
5. Perhaps this is the truth: Had he been able -- intelligently, ardently, ingeniously, bravely, honestly, eloquently, confidently, learnedly, sensitively, critically and thoughtfully -- to use the I.S.P.'s useful and "vitalistic" services all these years, he might have become, probably, "terminally ill"! [Or, immensely happy, satisfied and very successful -- especially sexually -- as a man, human being, citizen and writer (of serious, quality essays and books)!]
6. On our way to our destination, we'll make many stop-overs and detours; yet, we'll still arrive there! That's how confident and resourceful we are!
7. We have many supporters and defenders, friends ands admirers, interested helpers and aggrieved, victimised citizens!
8. We, the dissident bloggers, oppositionist writers and individualists do NOT fear our detractors and enemies, yes! -- including the dishonest, inept and corrupted spies!
9. The line between success and failure for us is, at the very highest level, so thin that any mistake on our part -- or any miscalculation (as if we are based entirely on "calculation"!) on our part -- would be a total disaster for all our hard work, and a total defeat for all our hopes!
10. We'll always attempt to DISRUPT -- yes!, ABRUPTLY -- their (method of) operation and control, which is to influence our mind in every way possible (and in their favour!) -- by employing all kinds of effective gadgets, equioment, devices and inventions -- in order to suddenly shock, stun, surprise and alarm them!
11. Can the one and only great "loony" but high-spirited individualist Mr David Chua Chuan Seah take on -- with resourcefulness, practised confidence and diligence -- the immense challenge of successfully countering the ill-effects of attempts made by compromised members of the Surveillance Team (from both "in-house" loyalists and invited contributors) to impose threats on their victims (the suspected subversives of the Singapore Establishment)?
12. Yes, he can! He already did! So far! He promises our sympathizers, supporters, friends, admirers, interested readers and helpers, defenders, and aggrieved and victimized citizens: He will not disappoint you! After all, he neither claims to be, nor poses as the last civilised man in this postmodern Singapore! (Oh, Singapore!)