[DEFINITIVE & UNCOMPROMISED] : THE LONG, LONG, LONG NIGHTMARE : THE HISTORY OF MY 36 YEARS AS A "POLITICAL INFANTILIST" -- ON PAPER ! (1972 - 2008)

THE LONG AND BIG PUBLIC

MASQUERADE -- AS AN "AGENT"

(OR "EMPLOYEE") OF

THE SINGAPORE GOVERNMENT --

BUT ONLY ON PAPER !


ADVICE TO THOSE WHO ARE INVOLVED :

NOW IS THE MOMENT FOR YOU ALL

SURVEILLANCE OFFICERS

TO ACT, THINK, DECIDE AND DO --

AS I SAY AND PLEASE ! WHY?


THESE ARE MY REASONS :


(1) I've Had Enough (Of Such Scenario-Thinking and Story-Telling);


(2) It's Time For Me To Be Real, Realistic and Tough !



(3) IT'S TIME FOR THE MILITARY TOP BRASS,

WORKING IN SAFTI IN 1972, TO ADMIT, CONFESS, APOLOGIZE

AND BE CONTRITE NOW -- IF

THEY STILL HAVE ANY SEMBLANCE OF HONOUR, SELF-

RESPECT AND DECENCY !!!


Readers of my entire series of postings in my 3 blogs : especially http://thenon-romanticloverandwriter.blogspot.com/ -- which is the most currently active and constantly updated blog now -- and also the more familiar and bitter articles in : http://afighterandalovertoo.blogspot.com/ , will now be the first to know the TRUTH about why there are so many discrepancies, contradictions, inconsistencies and illogicalities in the many accounts which I've had given to readers of these blogs about myself and my life in the past 36 years or so.

I've had enough ! (as the title of this entry indicates) : announcing my entry into the world of "above-ground" or "on-the-ground" professional writing (and blogging), beginning from many months back (IN THE YEAR 2008), and which has given me so much power as a no-longer-underground thinking writer! It's time, yes, for me to be TOUGH -- and disclose, passionately and with a renewed sense of immediacy and urgency (for I am no longer still young), the reasons for my inexplicable and unjustifiable EMOTIONAL sufferings, HUMILIATION and INTELLECTUAL impoverishment THROUGHOUT MORE THAN 36 years now.

I have recounted then in my blog entries, including the latest ones -- my plight and predicament as a near-candidate for CONSIDERATION and, eventually, PUBLIC HIGHLIGHTING -- BY THE INTERNATIONAL HUMAN RIGHTS ORGANISATIONS -- OF MY BASIC HUMAN RIGHTS (PARTICULARLY THOSE OF MINE AS A MAN) BEING MORONICALLY AND IDIOTICALLY ABUSED BY THE FUCKING SINGAPORE GOVERNMENT! As someone WHO IS CLEARLY AND EVIDENTLY TARGETTED by the local INTELLIGENCE and SECURITY authorities (in a case of human rights abuses), and as one who indomitably and forcefully resists all attempts by the security and intelligence authorities to force one into a position of ZERO (so that one would have no other alternatives but to accept the sole and undivided leadership of the Singapore Government), I will forever insist on finding out the truth behind or underneath our highly compromised and, expectedly, very commercially successful print-media "writers"! Considering the quality, strength, range and standard of my, so far, electronically published writings, as reflected in my numerous blog articles or essays; and keeping in mind the psychological and emotional "long-sufferings" (and also physical loneliness, socially isolation, and love-starved and yet unmarried status and lifestyle -- but certainly not of a man who is totally sexually deprived or frustrated) of a man who has had plenty of long-time and varied experiences patronizing adult female prostitutes, especially those wonderful Chinese girls working in Geylang); and, lastly, viewing his less than "model citizen" status, and also considering the relentless and merciless pressure applied by the "good" and "able" (but certainly NOT caring) surveillance authorities, for far too long now, it is not difficult to understand now why I have sunk or descended into my lowest level of inhuman and pitiful existence -- even as a stubbornly thrifty consumer! That is why I have been seeking -- oh, goodness! gracious! -- public FINANCIAL assistance from the Singapore Government -- in such a humiliating way, at more than 55 years of age, and hence, as a thinking Senior Citizen who, no less than any other "highly qualified" professionals in the same trade, business, art, or activity, and probably encountering the same financial problems as mine, could have been so motivated enough by his own causes, principles, ideas, values, goals and beliefs, to go in search of ladies of the morning, afternoon and night, in order to satisfy his basic sexual needs, as a still-vigorous horny man, with the greatest of ease! So why has he become so poor?


The whole issue of my plight is centred around this question: Why am I -- or, why have I become -- so politically "untouchable", so financially unrewarded, and professionally unsuccessful as a WRITER? WHO are the people responsible for inducing in me such "untouchability", such "incapacity", such lack of intellectual excellence, such lack of assuredness in personal and professional achievements? Why have I become so unsuccessful -- as a writer of serious, quality essays, articles and books?

UNVEILLING THE PUBLIC MASQUERADE -- AND THE COVER-UP ( ADOPTED OR CONSTRUCTED BY THE EX-OFFICERS IN THE OLD MILITARY SECURITY DEPARTMENT (1976) -- AND THEIR SUPPORT OF, AND ASSISTANCE TO, THESE FUCKING SAFTI MILITARY OFFICERS (THE TOP BRASS) WHO MADE THE ERRONEOUS DECISION TO "IMPLANT" ME IN 1972, AFTER I HAD GONE AWOL AND LATER RETURNED TO "KILO" COMPANY (SAFTI), WHERE I WAS UNDERGOING SECTION LEADER TRAINING:


OF PAPER CERTIFICATES, PAPER DOCUMENTS,

AND OTHER PAPER "EVIDENCES" ON

MY SUPPOSED "INCAPABILITY"

TO WORK AS A PROFESSINAL WRITER :


MILITARY SECURITY DEPARTMENT (MINDEF), in 1976, is a partner in supporting and in covering up this crime of "implanting" me (COMMITTED in 1972 BY SAFTI MILITARY AUTHORITIES). I was directed to seek medical attention by my Officer Commanding, KILO COMPANY and was warded at the Medical Centre in SAFTI for clinical observation by military doctors. I have had disclosed my personal reasons for going AWOL in many of my previous blog entries. But I have yet, up until now, yes -- at this particular moment in time [readers, please be patient and calm : just read on, and hopefully if my mother is blessing me now, and while I am trying very hard to remember -- yes, to locate with accuracy and detail and honesty -- the nature of the missing pieces to this huge puzzling aspect of my troubled and disturbed life (resulting from the crucial life-changing "implantation" of my being, as an enlisted but reluctant and ill-adapted soldier who had gone AWOL in the year 1972); and also, its effects on, and implications for, my dull and boring and unhappy life in the last 36 years or so. What, and who, had influenced and even determined -- in mostly negative, destructive and undesired ways -- the course of my life so far -- including all the petty-minded and cruel violations of, and disrespect for, my human rights! Hence, it is not difficult now to understand all the bizarre outcomes, unexpected "loony" behaviour and dismal (and moronic and idiotic) consequences of almost all of my attempts to realizel my cherished goals and ambitions -- as a man, human being, citizen and, still, UNPUBLISHED (though not electronically, in the Internet) writer of PRINTED BOOKS)!

Surveillance Officers: We Don't Express Ourselves -- We Only React and Respond!

Intrusive, Disrespectful and

Upsetting

Surveillance and Control

by Intelligence and Security

Officers

of the PAP Government




Personal Testimony of A Citizen and Witness :

My Private and Public Life Has Been Turned Upside Down by the PAP Government. It Uses Images and Voices From People I Know Closely (Or Am Familiar or Acquainted With -- Such As Family Members, Friends, Ex-colleagues and Ex-classmates and Relatives) -- In Order To Control and Turn Me Into, By Turns An Enforcement/Security Agent and By Others An Obedient Subject. I Have Become One, After More Than 36 Years As A Reluctant, Poor, Unfortunate and Helpless (and Sexually Frustrated and Deprived -- Not to Mention Socially Unhappy and Love-starved) Victim of Governmental Manipulation and Control. These Surveillance Officers All Try To Exert Maximum Control Over My Own Mind, Heart, Soul and Body -- With the Practised Cunning, Determined Intention and Long-term Plan (For Such Implementation of the Deliberate Use of Often Illogical and Misleading Words, Images, Messages, Suggestions, Hints and Many Other Tricks and Methods of Communication -- Including, Quite Often, Downright Abusive Verbal Communication Techniques)!


Yes, instead of presenting and identifying themselves -- seriously, openly and clearly -- in order to respectfully and honestly make their own intentions known, and to express their own needs and desires, these surveillance officers (both male and female, whether separately and individually or as a combined unit), just contribute to my perturbation as a man, human being, citizen and writer!

Yes, these human monitors, censors, spies, agents, snoopers and controllers -- with the help of the latest and the most advanced scientific equipment and technological inventions and electronic/electrical products -- have been, day-in and day-out, second-after-second, minute-after-minute, hour-after-hour, day-after-day, week-after-week, month-after-month, year-afer-year, WORKING (real hard indeed!) to disturb me!

They have been insulting me -- my intelligence and my respect for myself; they have been controlling me -- to hide their own inadequacies and hang-ups. They have been expressing their grievances and complaints; they have been humiliating me -- while I am taking a shower, changing clothes, urinating, shitting, masturbating, and fucking women (and there were, and will still be, plenty of such women in my life as a resistant and dissident citizen)! They have been issuing "challenges" to me, knowingly or not; they have been pretending to be what they are not (and never will be!); they want to impress upon me that they are likely "winners", that they can achieve victories (moral?, intellectual?, what else?), that they can obtain "permanent" (sexual, especially) satisfasction, enjoyment, pleasure and success!

These surveillance officers (men and women) want to please themselves (in so many different ways that are -- secretively or not -- best known only to themselves); they want to react or to respond (to my expressions and self-expressions); yes, they want to ejaculate (how many times per week?); to avenge their "sufferings" (caused by me?) -- by making me suffer in turn. They want to avenge Lee Kuan Yew's humiliation under my deliberate, insulting and provocative verbal dismissiveness; and to avenge themselves on me -- their long-time (but long-suffering) nemesis! They want to punish me for daring to insult their modesty, saintliness, prudery, prudishness, holiness, religiousity, purity, perfection, infallibility, uprightness, goodness, ability and everything worth their while to mention (in support of their "feel-good" factor: yes, to feel "good", "able", etc., etc., etc.).

But, dear fellow citizens and readers, these surveillance officers NEVER want to admit to their own mistakes; they NEVER want to -- thus and accordingly -- CORRECT or REMEDY their own grave mistakes!

Instead, they choose to EXPLOIT such mistakes of theirs -- committed from the highest level of governmental authority to the lowest level of official subordination -- and turn them to their own advantage (and to gain farther advantages of whatever kinds) -- ALL IN THEIR OWN FAVOUR!

Finally, a word of reminder to these conformists who lack (STRONG) minds of their own: How can they continue to insult me, repeatedly -- and to "take me on" in things or subjects which I CAN commandeer? (and, further, in areas where I am the absolute and undeniable MASTER and COMMANDER -- the COMMANDANT, in effect?)!

I am a self-confident blogger, dissident, writer, manly lover, and, unarguably, a unique and original human being. I, namely: David Chua Chuan Seah, can never be "helped" to "enjoy" myself by these surveillance officers when their only motive for such "help" is to APPEASE their own guilt-ridden complex! For, as a writer, I must be asked (and be FULLY respected for my sincere and honest reply) : What are my own intentions? Are they noble and magnanimous? Or debased, degrading and abusive?

AND THIS IS MY REPLY : It is time for these surveillance officers to find out whether or not I am a liar (a pathological one?), a "mental defective", a "psychopath", or ... (what else?, you idiots!).

ADDENDUM:

This is my request: Do not exploit my weaknesses (e.g. for women and girls), including my soft-heartedness, my obsession with good hygiene, comfort, my meticulousness, my confidence, my resourcefulness, my urge to get close to women and girls (again!, but why not? : what, really or exactly, can I do, Sir?).

Please do not take advantage of my ignorance about many scientific facts, matters, inventions and technological advances -- whose knowledge or awareness of many people simply take for granted.

Please do not exploit my "stubborness"; please do not abuse my humility. Please do not corrupt and contaminate my precious thoughts (which are many indeed!) and also my few, perhaps too few indeed -- but nonetheless sensitive (sometimes very much so !) feelings!

That is all.

A Thinking Senior Citizen In A New World

Of Electronic Surveillance, Postmodernism and Globalization -- In The Life of Singaporeans

I'm getting poorer and poorer in my finances. But I'm becoming richer and richer in my mind. As my recent and latest blog entries/posts have shown, I'm also acquiring more and more power in my writing! In my love/sex/social life, I've achieved greater potency in my fucking of women. Yes, I'm more and more in almost complete control of my own life -- as a man, human being, citizen and writer/blogger! I'm in ascendancy!

And why am I in such a glorious state of mind, heart, soul and body? Well, it is simple: I'm becoming more and more well-informed and knowledgeable -- about the new world of electronic surveillance (especially in regard to politics, sports and education), postmodernism (especially in regard to literature and the arts), and globalization (in regard to trade, finance and commerce) -- with a clear and wide-ranging intellectual framework and reference to authoritarian and autocratic governments (like Singapore's)!

I now know more and more about postmodernist use of surveillance technologies -- and its application to, and influence on, the latest developments in the study of history, philosophy, literature; and in academic scholarship, scientific research, psychological studies, political practices, sexual relations, parenting, and yes, the writing (or authorship) of BOOKS!

Yes, the whole population of Singapore -- a global city -- is under electronic surveillance by the authorities (corporate and governmental)! We are all interconnected with one another -- poor, rich, not-too-poor and not-too-rich -- by the PAP Government's use of electronic surveillance technologies and techniques!

This is not a flippant, trivial, superficial and inconsequential article to put the Singapore Government in a bad light by offering supposedly "unobjective" comments and "twisted" or "distorted" facts! The PAP Government has to prove such an intentiion on my part in the first place. Facts are free -- if you seek them out conscientiously and intelligently; but my opinions and reflections are sacred. And I'm not just trying to promote serious, quality reading!

As an individualistic oppositionist and writer, who finds many aspects of our cosmopolitan city -- with its world-class companies and the best talents around, engaging in postmodernist, globalized and electronic surveillance activities, practices, methods, behaviour and lifestyles -- very unacceptable. I'm unapologetically defiant and totally "unorthodox" in my persistent exposure and scrutiny of such disturbing manifestations of UNEQUAL POWER RELATIONSHIPS between corporations and the government on the one side and the helpless, poor and unfortunate citizen-victims on the other side. I'm certainly justified in having such anti-PAP and anti-LKY (and hence, pro-opposition) attitudes! I'm, after all, a progressive VOICE of REASON! And I will scrutinize and expose in the name of FREEDOM -- man's most important and perhaps greatest idea!

I cannot remain silent and neutral. I know too much already. I must speak up and out -- and even scream and shout, if necessary! I'll pilot my little airplane, from now on, with a unified, well-rounded and well-balanced vision of the more benign and humane new world that is to come in the future -- if we keep believing in, and fight for, the TRUTH!

The Fight and Struggle Continues ......

THE POWER OF COURAGE:

THE STORY OF MY STRUGGLE AGAINST PAP OPPRESSION:

ONE WHO DARES: CHUA CHUAN SEAH (DAVID)

1. NRIC NO : S 0028486F
2. ADDRESS : BLK 264, YISHUN STREET 22, #10- 145, SINGAPORE 760264.
3. HANDPHONE : 82377406
4. COUNTRY OF BIRTH : SINGAPORE
5. NATIONALITY : SINGAPORE CITIZEN
6. RACE : CHINESE
7. DIALECT GROUP : HOKKIEN
8. DATE OF BIRTH : 30 JULY 1953
9. BIRTH CERTIFICATE NO : 344813
10. AGE : 55
11. HEIGHT : 1.73 METRES
12. WEIGHT : 86.6 KG
13. MARITAL STATUS : SINGLE
14. SEX : MALE
15. EDUCATIONAL LEVEL : G.C.E. 'A' LEVEL (1971)
16. LANGUAGES SPOKEN : ENGLISH; MANDARIN
17. LANGUAGE WRITTEN : ENGLISH
18. EMAIL ADDRESS : chua.chuanseah4@gmail.com
19. WEBSITE ADDRESS : http://afighterandalovertoo.blogspot.com/
20. EMPLOYMENT HISTORY : MINDEF (1975-- 1976) ; SINGAPORE FOOD INDUSTRIES (1979--1980); PHILIPS S'PORE PTE LTD (1990--1994); TRANS ISLAND BUS SERVICES LTD (1994--1997) : ISCOS ( 1999--2002)

22. NATIONAL SERVICE : COMPLETED FULL-TIME N.S. (FROM

20.12.71 TO 19.6.74)