[DEFINITIVE & UNCOMPROMISED] : THE LONG, LONG, LONG NIGHTMARE : THE HISTORY OF MY 36 YEARS AS A "POLITICAL INFANTILIST" -- ON PAPER ! (1972 - 2008)

THE LONG AND BIG PUBLIC

MASQUERADE -- AS AN "AGENT"

(OR "EMPLOYEE") OF

THE SINGAPORE GOVERNMENT --

BUT ONLY ON PAPER !


ADVICE TO THOSE WHO ARE INVOLVED :

NOW IS THE MOMENT FOR YOU ALL

SURVEILLANCE OFFICERS

TO ACT, THINK, DECIDE AND DO --

AS I SAY AND PLEASE ! WHY?


THESE ARE MY REASONS :


(1) I've Had Enough (Of Such Scenario-Thinking and Story-Telling);


(2) It's Time For Me To Be Real, Realistic and Tough !



(3) IT'S TIME FOR THE MILITARY TOP BRASS,

WORKING IN SAFTI IN 1972, TO ADMIT, CONFESS, APOLOGIZE

AND BE CONTRITE NOW -- IF

THEY STILL HAVE ANY SEMBLANCE OF HONOUR, SELF-

RESPECT AND DECENCY !!!


Readers of my entire series of postings in my 3 blogs : especially http://thenon-romanticloverandwriter.blogspot.com/ -- which is the most currently active and constantly updated blog now -- and also the more familiar and bitter articles in : http://afighterandalovertoo.blogspot.com/ , will now be the first to know the TRUTH about why there are so many discrepancies, contradictions, inconsistencies and illogicalities in the many accounts which I've had given to readers of these blogs about myself and my life in the past 36 years or so.

I've had enough ! (as the title of this entry indicates) : announcing my entry into the world of "above-ground" or "on-the-ground" professional writing (and blogging), beginning from many months back (IN THE YEAR 2008), and which has given me so much power as a no-longer-underground thinking writer! It's time, yes, for me to be TOUGH -- and disclose, passionately and with a renewed sense of immediacy and urgency (for I am no longer still young), the reasons for my inexplicable and unjustifiable EMOTIONAL sufferings, HUMILIATION and INTELLECTUAL impoverishment THROUGHOUT MORE THAN 36 years now.

I have recounted then in my blog entries, including the latest ones -- my plight and predicament as a near-candidate for CONSIDERATION and, eventually, PUBLIC HIGHLIGHTING -- BY THE INTERNATIONAL HUMAN RIGHTS ORGANISATIONS -- OF MY BASIC HUMAN RIGHTS (PARTICULARLY THOSE OF MINE AS A MAN) BEING MORONICALLY AND IDIOTICALLY ABUSED BY THE FUCKING SINGAPORE GOVERNMENT! As someone WHO IS CLEARLY AND EVIDENTLY TARGETTED by the local INTELLIGENCE and SECURITY authorities (in a case of human rights abuses), and as one who indomitably and forcefully resists all attempts by the security and intelligence authorities to force one into a position of ZERO (so that one would have no other alternatives but to accept the sole and undivided leadership of the Singapore Government), I will forever insist on finding out the truth behind or underneath our highly compromised and, expectedly, very commercially successful print-media "writers"! Considering the quality, strength, range and standard of my, so far, electronically published writings, as reflected in my numerous blog articles or essays; and keeping in mind the psychological and emotional "long-sufferings" (and also physical loneliness, socially isolation, and love-starved and yet unmarried status and lifestyle -- but certainly not of a man who is totally sexually deprived or frustrated) of a man who has had plenty of long-time and varied experiences patronizing adult female prostitutes, especially those wonderful Chinese girls working in Geylang); and, lastly, viewing his less than "model citizen" status, and also considering the relentless and merciless pressure applied by the "good" and "able" (but certainly NOT caring) surveillance authorities, for far too long now, it is not difficult to understand now why I have sunk or descended into my lowest level of inhuman and pitiful existence -- even as a stubbornly thrifty consumer! That is why I have been seeking -- oh, goodness! gracious! -- public FINANCIAL assistance from the Singapore Government -- in such a humiliating way, at more than 55 years of age, and hence, as a thinking Senior Citizen who, no less than any other "highly qualified" professionals in the same trade, business, art, or activity, and probably encountering the same financial problems as mine, could have been so motivated enough by his own causes, principles, ideas, values, goals and beliefs, to go in search of ladies of the morning, afternoon and night, in order to satisfy his basic sexual needs, as a still-vigorous horny man, with the greatest of ease! So why has he become so poor?


The whole issue of my plight is centred around this question: Why am I -- or, why have I become -- so politically "untouchable", so financially unrewarded, and professionally unsuccessful as a WRITER? WHO are the people responsible for inducing in me such "untouchability", such "incapacity", such lack of intellectual excellence, such lack of assuredness in personal and professional achievements? Why have I become so unsuccessful -- as a writer of serious, quality essays, articles and books?

UNVEILLING THE PUBLIC MASQUERADE -- AND THE COVER-UP ( ADOPTED OR CONSTRUCTED BY THE EX-OFFICERS IN THE OLD MILITARY SECURITY DEPARTMENT (1976) -- AND THEIR SUPPORT OF, AND ASSISTANCE TO, THESE FUCKING SAFTI MILITARY OFFICERS (THE TOP BRASS) WHO MADE THE ERRONEOUS DECISION TO "IMPLANT" ME IN 1972, AFTER I HAD GONE AWOL AND LATER RETURNED TO "KILO" COMPANY (SAFTI), WHERE I WAS UNDERGOING SECTION LEADER TRAINING:


OF PAPER CERTIFICATES, PAPER DOCUMENTS,

AND OTHER PAPER "EVIDENCES" ON

MY SUPPOSED "INCAPABILITY"

TO WORK AS A PROFESSINAL WRITER :


MILITARY SECURITY DEPARTMENT (MINDEF), in 1976, is a partner in supporting and in covering up this crime of "implanting" me (COMMITTED in 1972 BY SAFTI MILITARY AUTHORITIES). I was directed to seek medical attention by my Officer Commanding, KILO COMPANY and was warded at the Medical Centre in SAFTI for clinical observation by military doctors. I have had disclosed my personal reasons for going AWOL in many of my previous blog entries. But I have yet, up until now, yes -- at this particular moment in time [readers, please be patient and calm : just read on, and hopefully if my mother is blessing me now, and while I am trying very hard to remember -- yes, to locate with accuracy and detail and honesty -- the nature of the missing pieces to this huge puzzling aspect of my troubled and disturbed life (resulting from the crucial life-changing "implantation" of my being, as an enlisted but reluctant and ill-adapted soldier who had gone AWOL in the year 1972); and also, its effects on, and implications for, my dull and boring and unhappy life in the last 36 years or so. What, and who, had influenced and even determined -- in mostly negative, destructive and undesired ways -- the course of my life so far -- including all the petty-minded and cruel violations of, and disrespect for, my human rights! Hence, it is not difficult now to understand all the bizarre outcomes, unexpected "loony" behaviour and dismal (and moronic and idiotic) consequences of almost all of my attempts to realizel my cherished goals and ambitions -- as a man, human being, citizen and, still, UNPUBLISHED (though not electronically, in the Internet) writer of PRINTED BOOKS)!