Intrusive, Disrespectful and
Upsetting
Surveillance and Control
by Intelligence and Security
Officers
of the PAP Government
Personal Testimony of A Citizen and Witness :
My Private and Public Life Has Been Turned Upside Down by the PAP Government. It Uses Images and Voices From People I Know Closely (Or Am Familiar or Acquainted With -- Such As Family Members, Friends, Ex-colleagues and Ex-classmates and Relatives) -- In Order To Control and Turn Me Into, By Turns An Enforcement/Security Agent and By Others An Obedient Subject. I Have Become One, After More Than 36 Years As A Reluctant, Poor, Unfortunate and Helpless (and Sexually Frustrated and Deprived -- Not to Mention Socially Unhappy and Love-starved) Victim of Governmental Manipulation and Control. These Surveillance Officers All Try To Exert Maximum Control Over My Own Mind, Heart, Soul and Body -- With the Practised Cunning, Determined Intention and Long-term Plan (For Such Implementation of the Deliberate Use of Often Illogical and Misleading Words, Images, Messages, Suggestions, Hints and Many Other Tricks and Methods of Communication -- Including, Quite Often, Downright Abusive Verbal Communication Techniques)!
Yes, instead of presenting and identifying themselves -- seriously, openly and clearly -- in order to respectfully and honestly make their own intentions known, and to express their own needs and desires, these surveillance officers (both male and female, whether separately and individually or as a combined unit), just contribute to my perturbation as a man, human being, citizen and writer!
Yes, these human monitors, censors, spies, agents, snoopers and controllers -- with the help of the latest and the most advanced scientific equipment and technological inventions and electronic/electrical products -- have been, day-in and day-out, second-after-second, minute-after-minute, hour-after-hour, day-after-day, week-after-week, month-after-month, year-afer-year, WORKING (real hard indeed!) to disturb me!
They have been insulting me -- my intelligence and my respect for myself; they have been controlling me -- to hide their own inadequacies and hang-ups. They have been expressing their grievances and complaints; they have been humiliating me -- while I am taking a shower, changing clothes, urinating, shitting, masturbating, and fucking women (and there were, and will still be, plenty of such women in my life as a resistant and dissident citizen)! They have been issuing "challenges" to me, knowingly or not; they have been pretending to be what they are not (and never will be!); they want to impress upon me that they are likely "winners", that they can achieve victories (moral?, intellectual?, what else?), that they can obtain "permanent" (sexual, especially) satisfasction, enjoyment, pleasure and success!
These surveillance officers (men and women) want to please themselves (in so many different ways that are -- secretively or not -- best known only to themselves); they want to react or to respond (to my expressions and self-expressions); yes, they want to ejaculate (how many times per week?); to avenge their "sufferings" (caused by me?) -- by making me suffer in turn. They want to avenge Lee Kuan Yew's humiliation under my deliberate, insulting and provocative verbal dismissiveness; and to avenge themselves on me -- their long-time (but long-suffering) nemesis! They want to punish me for daring to insult their modesty, saintliness, prudery, prudishness, holiness, religiousity, purity, perfection, infallibility, uprightness, goodness, ability and everything worth their while to mention (in support of their "feel-good" factor: yes, to feel "good", "able", etc., etc., etc.).
But, dear fellow citizens and readers, these surveillance officers NEVER want to admit to their own mistakes; they NEVER want to -- thus and accordingly -- CORRECT or REMEDY their own grave mistakes!
Instead, they choose to EXPLOIT such mistakes of theirs -- committed from the highest level of governmental authority to the lowest level of official subordination -- and turn them to their own advantage (and to gain farther advantages of whatever kinds) -- ALL IN THEIR OWN FAVOUR!
Finally, a word of reminder to these conformists who lack (STRONG) minds of their own: How can they continue to insult me, repeatedly -- and to "take me on" in things or subjects which I CAN commandeer? (and, further, in areas where I am the absolute and undeniable MASTER and COMMANDER -- the COMMANDANT, in effect?)!
I am a self-confident blogger, dissident, writer, manly lover, and, unarguably, a unique and original human being. I, namely: David Chua Chuan Seah, can never be "helped" to "enjoy" myself by these surveillance officers when their only motive for such "help" is to APPEASE their own guilt-ridden complex! For, as a writer, I must be asked (and be FULLY respected for my sincere and honest reply) : What are my own intentions? Are they noble and magnanimous? Or debased, degrading and abusive?
AND THIS IS MY REPLY : It is time for these surveillance officers to find out whether or not I am a liar (a pathological one?), a "mental defective", a "psychopath", or ... (what else?, you idiots!).
ADDENDUM:
This is my request: Do not exploit my weaknesses (e.g. for women and girls), including my soft-heartedness, my obsession with good hygiene, comfort, my meticulousness, my confidence, my resourcefulness, my urge to get close to women and girls (again!, but why not? : what, really or exactly, can I do, Sir?).
Please do not take advantage of my ignorance about many scientific facts, matters, inventions and technological advances -- whose knowledge or awareness of many people simply take for granted.
Please do not exploit my "stubborness"; please do not abuse my humility. Please do not corrupt and contaminate my precious thoughts (which are many indeed!) and also my few, perhaps too few indeed -- but nonetheless sensitive (sometimes very much so !) feelings!
That is all.
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