Telling Stories

Revealed Now: Mad Notes On the

Back of Photographs (Scribbled

While I Was A "Schizophrenic"):

1. Coffee-shop at Flanders, where "Hantu" & Linda work. Both are non-implantees. (Linda & "Hantu" both have no-string-attached sexual relationships with me!) I'm comfortable with that! But why do I look so sad?
2. Why did I look so ugly and sad? Poor me! (Big Brother is controlling me, that's what!)
3. Economic security & Political stability. But is that the real me?
4. A square-looking me--listening to rock music!
5. I gained a brotherly relationship--but at what cost to me?
6. Sembawang Park. Look at my paunch!
7. 1997, Hougang. How I had suffered! Take a good look!
8. Not too intelligent-looking at all! And hardly handsome. A bit awkward. Not a confident & purposive man.
9. Is it all my fault that I looked so stupid? Lacking in character and without a strong personality.
10. 10/3/98. Mum undergoing hand therapy at SGH.
11. World Trade Centre Photo Equipment Exhibition '87. 5/9/87. Chua Chuan Seah (Ex-MSD Officer, Mindef)
12. 1996. Hougang. My guide to electronic living--& fucking!
13. How much is this man worth? 1996. Hougang.
14. 1997. Hougang. How can this man be a writer? It's a bad square joke! Just look at him--so stupid-looking and lifeless! I don't want to be this man!
15. Taiwan. 28/11/97--3/12/97. Posing with Ann, the tour guide.
16. Defence Camp, Marsiling. Feb. 1973. (Was I implanted with miniaturized electronic chip--radio transmitter and microphone--by then?)
17. 10/4/98. I looked so awful.
18. 15 Dec '97. After the session....with Flanders Square honeys (you see what I mean?)