Thursday, September 25, 2008

Bizarre Odyssey: My Life As A Man Controlled By The Network's Core Group of Power-Players

Which Side Am I On?

(You Know Which Side!)


The only possible redemption for me from this gruesome and still unconcluded chapter of my life seems to be escaping the boredom--at whatever cost--in this authoritarian and autocratic, yes, totalitarian society (in which nothing is left to chance and nothing is what it seems).

To survive within and against this system--the nameless and faceless but all-present authorities--which are allied to an insidious, chilling and mysterious organisation of sometimes silent and sometimes vocal but usually always listening voices (but which is not an exclusive association, for its membership is also open to those who can "hear" and "speak"!).

The Network! It is everything! The company, the goal, the structure--none of that counts! The important thing is always the way the company ("exotic" indeed!) relates to the system, which uses the most draconian and invasive secret police in the world!

My rebellion and strategy for survival is a calculated carefulness (as opposed to one of calculated carelessness).

For instance, I remain reticent--with, still, the same aim of defying logic and of bewildering people.

I make these stooges believe that I control secret links to which they have no access.

Out of the sheer boredom of a hopeless situation, I embark on the dangerous and futile quest of clearing up my boring/messy life--since 1972!

I am hungry for any truth that might/may survive a struggle with the authorities.

The complicity that the PAP regime imposed, directly and indirectly, on all its subjects!

Duplicity became the disease of the entire country, both at the Party apparatus level and at the level of the masses (who used duplicity for their survival)!

Emotional compromises? Complicity with (or resistance to) the authorities?

Once they are said, lies take their revenge. Lies come true. They become reality. And that's the ultimate truth!

(Reality is not the ultimate truth! A "mad" society--without principles!)

The MADHOUSE has not only corrupted its language but also the innermost psyches of its subjects. The rot is deep. There are few foundations left upon which to rebuild.

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