On The Road To Find Out--About How Good I Really Am
I am sorry to announce to all my faithful and enthusiastic readers and fellow netizens who have been following these postings of mine in the present blog that I shall discontinue my posting activities in this blog indefinitely.
The reason? I am now working on a book of collected essays, which I am hoping to publish sometime next year. To continue posting blog articles, comments and excerpts (from books that I have read)--as I have been doing since April 2008--would divert much of my limited energy and attention from this major and ambitious effort of mine--which has been my life-long goal as a writer. (I am not satisfied with being an electronically published writer--as a blogger and commentator in the SDP website: http://www.yoursdp.org/; I have to aim for my ultimate objective, which is to be a published writer of PRINTED books.)
Please understand that I would resume my posting activities in this blog after the conclusion (and hopefully, success) of my said writing project. (Please support me by looking out for this first published book of mine when it appears in bookstores next year!)
Only a man like me -- an unrepentant INDIVIDUALIST -- can exercise my own private/personal regulating of my own behaviour! It has proven to be far better for me to constrain excessive risk-taking on my part -- in this exclusively personal, individualistic way of mine --than to let the manipulative and intrusive government regulate my own personal life and behaviour!
The government must take responsibility for my past failure as a man, human being, writer and citizen. My self-damaging lifestyle has involuntarily been a fact of my life. And my reputation has been tarnished -- without any responsibility on my part for such a happening!
Does the PAP Government not feel CONTRITE yet -- NOW? It is a flawed government -- despite what it publicly, openly and shamelessly claimed to be a "good" and "able" government! It is, in fact, full of greedy, inept, power-mad, corrupt, dishonest and unprincipled officers and officials!
They cannot compare me -- with the behaviour, lifestyle, preferences, values, qualities, and actions of an individualist, an theoretical anarchist, an oppositionist, and a modernist -- with the state of the Singapore economy! How can they? Both parties (oh, parties? I am just one single solo person! -- and they?) are as different and opposed to each other as would a masculine heterosexual man be when contrasted to an effeminate arse-hole loving homosexual!
The PAP Government is not infallible! It is NOT omniscient! My FUTURE cannot be forecast or predicted with 100% accuracy by this bunch of lunatic, nutty officials and officers! Such forecasts and predictions by them on other major matters or issues in the past have been shown, revealed and exposed as unscientific!
I may be becoming poorer and poorer in my finances: my debts are going up; my financial difficulties abound constantly -- without any genuine prospect of being solved; my attempt to service my housing loan from the Singapore government only gives me a headache! I want to ask, for instance, why Singapore Power (no doubt a privatised utilities company) is using tactics of harassment and intimidation in order to recover my debt? (Surely, the Singapore government should look into such matters and advise Singapore Power to give consumers like me a grace period -- yes, sufficient time -- to repay their debts without suffering mental anguish and emotional distress, not to mention financial pressure? And how, indeed, should I effectively and successfully reduce or restructure my debts -- as one wise financial counsellor advises? I call upon the Singapore Goverrnment to spped up the implementation of a DEBT REPAYMENT SCHEME -- to give low-wage earners or workers and the unemployed -- as well as oppositionist-dissidents like me, who are under perpetual surveillance by none other than officers and officials from the Singapore government itself! -- an alternative to destitution and homelessness!)
But, on the other hand -- and I'm happy to say so! -- I am becoming richer and richer in my mind. Even as I am being constantly regarded and treated as a criminal, or as a subversive, I'm getting, at the same time, more and more powerful in my writing. I want to build up my knowledge of human rights violations, government abuses, judicial injustices and maltreatment of dissidents (like me, for instance) by the ubiquitous officers, agents, operatives and officials of the surveillance groups or teams who are working for the PAP Government! Yes, I'm definitely going to be a major or key informant and inspiration for the foreign media and intellectuals in general. Yes, as former NMP Chia Shi Teck says, those intellectuals who know must speak up and scream!
I am in greater control of my life now as a writer and lover. Yes, I'm now in moral, intellectual and physical ascendancy! (Truly!)
Until my next posting, goodbye!