FRAGMENTS OF THE TRUTH

ON THE USE OF THE WORDS "IMPLANTEE",

"IMPLANTATION",

"IMPLANTATION CONTROLLERS" AND

"IMPLANTED" IN MY

DELETED BLOG POSTINGS:

Readers of this blog (http://afighterandalovertoo.blogspot.com) and the other two related blogs (http://wholecity.blogspot.com and http://pre-implantationdays.blogspot.com) would have noticed that many of my previous postings in these blogs have been deleted--as they have served their purpose. I have posted those entries in my effort to appear as a schizophrenic who believes he has been, and still is, controlled by the PAP Government generally since 1972 (and by Military Security Department "controllers" since December 1976, when I resigned from the department to become a writer).

Now that I have established myself as a fearless critic of the PAP Government, I need no longer pretend to be an "implantee" of the PAP Government since 1972 or "controlled" by MSD "controllers" since 1976 any longer. Such an incredulous, relentless, moral and self-sacrificing effort to avoid intimidation and harassment by the PAP Government has been explained by me in the recent entries ("Thirty-Two Long Years of 'Immorality', 'Insanity', 'Perversion', and 'Criminality' in My Life and Times As an 'Implantee'"; and "Dear Singaporeans: Every Thing I Do, I Do It For You") in this blog.

I could not have achieved my long-held objective of establishing myself as an earnest and fearless critic of the PAP Government had I not thought of such a long-term plan--with all its everyday ordinariness. Now, happiness fills my heart daily. Each morning, when I wake up to the view of my neighbourhood from my 10th floor HDB apartment, I say to myself: This is beauty! Where does the grace of my writing find so much seriousness, the seriousness so much grace? I must thank my mentors from Western culture--Albert Camus, Cesare Pavese, Nikos Kazantzakis.

The PAP Government will continue to create impressions and perceptions in the minds of readers--and produce "facts"-- in its attempt to instil more fear into Singaporeans who are critical of and oppose the PAP Government. They can try, but readers will learn more and more about its dishonesty!

Notes From The Anti-Government Critic and Writer

On Courage

Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear--not absence of fear.

MARK TWAIN


But what you see (on TV, in the political pages of the national press) is certainly not what you'll get with Dr. Chee, who in our hour-long interview came across as erudite, urbane, articulate, smart, focused, eloquent and yes, very normal--debunking his media-projected persona as a stone-cold megalomaniac.

[RAMESH WILLIAM and ZAKI JUFRI, "The Unusual Suspects" (I-S Magazine, 25 July 2008)]


I am sure that most people would become apathetic if their views were completely ignored.

[From: Mad Anarchist, "Comments", The PAP Dilemma (Newsintercom.org), 3 August 2005]


This denies us the reason to ponder on something we should all think about. There is an endless sky, there is a goodness that defies pragmatism, there is a gentleness that is unconnected with retribution. These things have been denied in Singapore. They are real and important if we want to make our society workable and yet humane.

I do believe.

[GOPAL BARATHAM, The Caning of Michael Fay (Singapore: KRP Publications, 1994)]

INTELLECTUAL NEEDS

Cognitive Understanding; Knowledge; Curiosity

The boring academics in Singapore universities, which are controlled by the PAP Government, simply can't write! Their published scientific and technocratic writings are unreadable! What a waste of public money!

My Own (DCCS) Version Or the ISD/MSD/PAP/SG Version?

DAVID CHUA CHUAN SEAH

(THE AUTHOR OF

"THE DCCS PAPERS") SAYS:


What will be the NEXT version of my life by the "responsible", "cultured", "polite", "edifying" and "humane" Internal Security Department (ISD) agents, Military Security Department (MSD) operatives and officers, PAP leaders and their supporters, under-cover police officers, and all the rest of the government members in the Establishment?

Can I see their dossiers (must be damn pretty thick by now!) on me? Ha, ha, ha!

In Defiance Of Government Orthodoxy

It's A Rich Man's World

(For The Benefit of the Government)

Policies are therefore often formulated solely towards achieving material gain.

[CHEE SOON JUAN, Your Future, My Faith, Our Freedom (Singapore: Open Singapore Centre, 2001)]

There Are Places I Can Remember .......

WHERE I LIVED (AS AN

UNDERGROUND WRITER

AND CRITIC) AT

VARIOUS TIMES OF

MY LIFE:

1. Tasek Utara Estate--Blk 40, No. 1-A (1953-1979);
2. Whampoa Drive--Blk 103 (1980-1085);
3. Jalan Kukoh (1986);
4. Telok Kurau (1987);
5. Whampoa Drive--Blk 74 (1988);
6. Mosque Street (1988-1989);
7. Yishun Town--Blk 161 (1990-1994);
8. Chempaka Avenue (1995);
9. Hougang Avenue 10--Blk 516 (1995-1997);
10. Yishun Street 22--Blk 264 (1997- ).

Challenging the "Cultured", "Polite", "Edifying" and "Humane" PAP Government

To Be Incorrigibly Steadfast in Our Fight

For Freedom From Oppression

Legislation such as the NPPA and the formation of the SBA needs to be reviewed, and the media needs to be free to allow a healthy flow of uncensored information. Only when editors and journalists are free of their shackles can their writing serve to guide and educate.

[From: CHEE SOON JUAN, Your Future, My Faith, Our Freedom: A democratic blueprint for Singapore (Singapore: Open Singapore Centre, 2001)]

The Singapore Government and the Mass Media

The Mass Media in Singapore

A society with a free flow of information--that is, where the media is free and independent--ensures that the government remains transparent and accountable. Transparency and accountability, or the lack thereof, is what got Asia into this crisis.

[From: CHEE SOON JUAN, The Power of Courage: Effective political change in Singapore through Nonviolence (Singapore: Chee Soon Juan, 2005)]

The "Productive", "Loving" and "Thoughtful" PAP Government

OPPRESSIVE LAWS IN SINGAPORE

1. FILM ACTS;
2. POLITICAL DONATIONS ACT;
3. SINGAPORE BROADCASTING ACT;
4. TRADE UNIONS ACT;
5. PARLIAMENTARY ELECTIONS ACT;
6. INTERNAL SECURITY ACT;
7. PUBLIC ENTERTAINMENT AND MEETING ACT;
8. NEWSPAPER , PRINTING AND PRESSES ACT.

The Fight and Struggle Continues ......

THE POWER OF COURAGE:

THE STORY OF MY STRUGGLE AGAINST PAP OPPRESSION:

ONE WHO DARES: CHUA CHUAN SEAH (DAVID)

1. NRIC NO : S 0028486F
2. ADDRESS : BLK 264, YISHUN STREET 22, #10- 145, SINGAPORE 760264.
3. HANDPHONE : 82377406
4. COUNTRY OF BIRTH : SINGAPORE
5. NATIONALITY : SINGAPORE CITIZEN
6. RACE : CHINESE
7. DIALECT GROUP : HOKKIEN
8. DATE OF BIRTH : 30 JULY 1953
9. BIRTH CERTIFICATE NO : 344813
10. AGE : 55
11. HEIGHT : 1.73 METRES
12. WEIGHT : 86.6 KG
13. MARITAL STATUS : SINGLE
14. SEX : MALE
15. EDUCATIONAL LEVEL : G.C.E. 'A' LEVEL (1971)
16. LANGUAGES SPOKEN : ENGLISH; MANDARIN
17. LANGUAGE WRITTEN : ENGLISH
18. EMAIL ADDRESS : chua.chuanseah4@gmail.com
19. WEBSITE ADDRESS : http://afighterandalovertoo.blogspot.com/
20. EMPLOYMENT HISTORY : MINDEF (1975-- 1976) ; SINGAPORE FOOD INDUSTRIES (1979--1980); PHILIPS S'PORE PTE LTD (1990--1994); TRANS ISLAND BUS SERVICES LTD (1994--1997) : ISCOS ( 1999--2002)

22. NATIONAL SERVICE : COMPLETED FULL-TIME N.S. (FROM

20.12.71 TO 19.6.74)

Working Class Heroine

My Elder Half-Sister--Mother of An Alleged "Communist" Son

TAN KIM KEE (AH KEE)

Ah Kee, my eldest half-sister, has three sons--one of whom, the eldest (Low Geok Leong), is already deceased and the youngest (Low Geok Ann), a delivery driver married with children, is living with her--together with her husband (Low Ah Gong)--in a rented HDB flat in Jalan Berseh. She has a married daughter (Low Geok Kwee) who lives with her husband and children at Jalan Jelapang.

Ah Kee likes to bet on lottery but she lives and eats simply. She has to take care of her grandchild with the meagre sum of money given to her by his son Low Geok Ann. She has few leisurely interests and her usual way of spending her leisure hours is watching Chinese dramas and news reports on TV.

I was able to receive, gratefully, many of her unwanted furniture items, kitchen utensils, electrical home appliances an other household paraphernalia to furnish my own newly-purchased HDB flat at Yishun when she moved out of her own flat (located next door to mine) after selling it in order to stay with her daughter sometime in 1997.

I am only now beginning to appreciate how much I owe her for receiving all these items and products from her. Not only had she saved me from spending too much money but she had also passed to me many items and products--especially electrical ones--which are still so useful and functional after more than 10 years!

Years of poverty and hardship have not changed her good-natured and unselfish behaviour. And she is still quite sprightly and healthy for a woman in her seventies!

Alas, she has another son (Low Geok Seng) who is of the same age as mine (55 now) and who caused her much worry and consternation during an incident sometime in the 1970s!

Low Geok Seng, her son, who now owns and manages a shop selling souvenirs to foreigners and tourists, was arrested and detained (and probably tortured) by the PAP Government one day then--for taking part in alleged "Communist" activities.

Ah Seng (as I used to call my nephew) used to play with me and my brothers at my SIT rented flat in Tasek Utara Estate when we were young. He was quite a mischievous but intelligent boy. There were occasions when I became jealous of him, as even my mother took great care of him (while neglecting me), praising his smartness and wits.

Ah Seng, who is married with children and gives financial support to his mother Ah Kee regularly, has never spoken to me about his arrest and detention by the Internal Security Department. This is partly because we, as adults, have been preoccupied with our own business and interest--being too busy to meet up, even on occasions to celebrate Chinese New Year or during my mother's funeral.

Was my nephew tortured while being detained? Why was he released eventually by the PAP Government? Did he confess to being a "Communist"? Did the PAP Government release him without extracting a confession from him? If so, the ISD goons are guilty of destroying the life of a young innocent man--and causing much misery and unhappiness to her mother!

Why I Left MSD, MINDEF (Part 2)

Dedicated to Low Geok Seng, My Nephew--A Victim Of Governmental Paranoia

"At the Washington Summit in 1987, U.S. president Ronald Reagan and Soviet Communist Party general secretary Michael Gorbachev worked out the terms of the Intermediate Nuclear Forces (INF) Treaty, for the first time agreeing to destroy a category of nuclear weapons. In May 1988, at the Moscow summit, the Soviet Communist Party general secretary and the U.S. president finally signed the INF Treaty and resolved a considerable range of remaining Cold War-related regional conflicts. The Cold War began to recede, and with it the threat of humanity-destroying nuclear war."

[Source: Timelines of the 20th Century (New York: Little, Brown and Company, 1996) by David Brownstone and Irene Franck]

In 1976, I had a personal encounter with the kind of so-called "threats" posed by alleged "Communists" (who were famously arrested and detained in a massive ISD operation in 1963 under the codename Operation cold Store).

I was working in the Registry of Military Security Department (Ministry of Defence) at that time. As a clerical officer, I read regular reports from secret operatives on their targets (suspected "Communists" in the SAF).

One day, I came across a disturbing Secret report which listed the name of one of my nephews (Low Geok Seng) as one of a few suspected "Communists". I was shocked. I knew then that I could no longer continue to work for MSD. That was one of the major reasons why I decided to resign from MSD, after working for the department for about 10 months (between Dec 1975 and Oct 1976). (I had already disclosed my other major reason for leaving MSD in my other postings in this blog and in other related blogs : see http://wholecity.blogspot.com/; and http://pre-implantationdays.blogpot.com/.)

After leaving MSD, I learnt that my nephew was arrested and detained by the PAP Government for his "Communist" activities. I later found out that he was probably also tortured by the ISD agents or officers to extract information (and a confession?) from him.

Low Geok Seng was eventually released by the PAP Government. I did not have any contact with him before or after his arrest and detention--and also for quite a long time after his release.

Today, Low Geok Seng's mother, my eldest half-sister Tan Kim Kee (or Ah Kee, as we like to call her), lives with his other surviving son, Low Geok Ann, together with her husband (Low Ah Gong) in a rented HDB flat at Jalan Berseh. She has a married daughter, Low Geok Kwee, and another (deceased) son, Low Geok Leong.

Low Geok Seng, who is married with children, now owns and manages a shop selling souvenirs to foreigners and tourists and regularly supports his mother financially.

Was Low Geok Seng a Communist? I have yet to hear him tell me about his days of being tortured by ISD officers or agents during his detention. Was he a victim of the government's paranoia during the Cold War era?

The Nature of Man (and The Nature of the PAP Government)

(I) THE NATURE OF MAN

(A) The Non-Productive Orientations
of Certain Character-Types:

[Source of Reference: The Sane Society (London: Routledge Classics, 2002) by Erich Fromm]



1. The Receptive Orientation

(a) Negative Aspects:

• passive, without initiative;
• opinionless, characterless;
• submissive;
• without pride;
• parasitical;
• unprincipled;
• servile, without self-confidence;
• unrealistic;
• cowardly;
• spineless;
• wishful thinking;
• gullible;
• sentimental.

(b) Positive Aspects:

2. The Exploitative Orientation

(a) Negative Aspects:

• exploitative;
• aggressive;
• egocentric;
• conceited;
• rash;
• arrogant;
• seducing.

(b) Positive Aspects:

3. The Hoarding Orientation

(a) Negative Aspects:

• unimaginative;
• stingy;
• suspicious;
• cold;
• lethargic;
• anxious;
• stubborn;
• indolent;
• inert;
• pedantic;
• obsessional;
• possessive.

(b) Positive Aspects:

• practical
• economical
• careful
• reserved
• cautious
• tenacious
• imperturbable
• orderly
• methodical
• loyal

4. The Marketing Orientation

(a) Negative Aspects:

• opportunistic;
• inconsistent;
• childish;
• without a future or a past;
• without principles and values;
• unable to be alone;
• aimless;
• relativistic;
• overactive;
• tactless;
• intellectualistic;
• undiscriminating;
• indifferent;
• silly;
• wasteful.

(b) Positive Aspects:

(B) The Productive Orientation --

Of A Certain

(Modernist) Character-Type

(a) Positive Aspects:

• confident
• resourceful
• self-understanding
• ambitious
• courageous
• achievement-minded
• artistic
• working class
• modernist
• critical
• discerning
• spiritually indomitable
• socially aware

(b) Negative Aspects:

(II) And The Nature of the PAP Government

(AS NOTED FROM NOTABLE QUOTES

ON THE PAP GOVERNMENT TAKEN

FROM THE READINGS

OF A NATIVE SON):

1. "Distinguishing the state from the government and the PAP is difficult because Singapore has been governed by the one political party for over thirty years, and headed by one continuous prime ministership until 1990. As it stands, the long-heralded succession of Goh Chok Tong to the prime ministership in November 1990 promised only a change of leadership style, not of strategy." -- CHRIS LEGGETT ("Singapore's Industrial Relations in the 1990s"; Singapore Changes Guard: Social, Political and Economic Directions in the 1990s; edited by Garry Rodan)
2. "At the societal level, as Singapore's economic development progresses, the principal domestic concerns will shift increasingly in the direction that Halal identified, that is, towards issues related to the quality of life, such as occupational stress, a materialistic life-style, the availability of home help, the quality of childcare and of family life, problems of the educational system, elitism and social inequities in society, the myriad restrictions and regulations in society, the domination of the political process by one party, and so on." -- CHEAH HOCK BENG ("Responding to Global Challenges: The Changing Nature of Singapore's Incorporation Into the International Economy"; ibid)
3. "If every Singaporean could internalise a little of 'LKY' in his or her mind, and if Lee was sure that open elections could indefinitely return the PAP, he might even be able to tolerate a more liberal and democratic Singapore. Japan was the utopia that Singapore could strive for." -- JEAN-LOUIS MARGOLIN ("Foreign Models in Singapore's Development and the Idea of a Singaporean Model"; ibid)
4. "To simulate citizenry, therefore, is to always focus on the differences between 'true' and 'false'; between 'real' and "imaginary'. The decision on whether something is 'true' or 'false', i.e. whether one is a 'real' citizen or not, is one determined by the model--the ideology put in place by the government. That model, in Singapore, is mostly a representational one, arguing that the real and the representation of the real (the good citizen, for example) are equivalent. There is no room, therefore, for active difference, alternative visions and non-governmental strategies, despite the fact that 'the next lap' is presented as part of a developing openness in Singapore government and society. Any active (i.e. potentially 'damaging') difference is snipped in the bud by the use of the Internal Security Act and, more frequently, by arguing that proper opposition can only take place within parliament--thereby constructing all opposition in the government's own terms--as a representation of itself." -- DAVID BIRCH ("Staging Crises: Media and Citizenship"; ibid)
5. "Against this view, a recent work by a group of sociologists at the National University of Singapore contends that prevailing views grossly inflate the extent of the middle class (Quah et al. 1991). These authors caution against reading too much into supercial indicators like consumption patterns. Moreover, they reject any suggestions that 'social class distinctions have weakened and economic rewards are both high and evenly distributed' (Quah 1991a, p. 3). For Quah (1991b, p. 71), the idea of a 'middle-class society' equates with the appearance of a 'one-class society'. Yet the study concludes that there 'no evidence of a concentration of people in one homogenous "middle" interval' (Quah 1991c, p. 262). In contrast to Chen's reading of the 1980 census data, Chiew, Ko and Quah (1991, p. 78) also assert that the proportion of blue-collar or manual workers (production, agricultural and service workers and labourers) amounted to 52.7 per cent, again attempting to expose as myth the idea of Singapore as a 'middle-class society'." -- GARRY RODAN ("The Growth of Singapore's Middle Class and its Political Significance"; ibid)
6. "Lastly, political leaders and leaderships, though embedded in a given political culture, exhibit individual psychologies and preoccupations." -- JAMES COTTON ("Political Innovation in Singapore: The Presidency, The Leadershipb and the Party"; ibid)
7. "The Singaporean socioeconomic elites do not conform to the 'liberal' model of professionals who, because of their wealth, skills and predominantly private sector occupations, are economically independent of the state, and therefore politically independent. Thus the percentage of the educated elite employed by the state remains remarkably high, averaging about 40 per cent, and the combination of a stress on deference (which has been promoted as an 'Asian value') and material prosperity has produced a depoliticised culture which is not conducive to the spread of ideas of individual or group liberty rights against the state. Any middle-class pressures towards liberalism have been further weakened by the system of education, which promotes, rather than reduces, the kiasu culture (Ho 1989)." -- DAVID BROWN ("The Corporatist Management of Ethnicity in Contemporary Singapore"; ibid)
8. "The international situation is changing in unpredictable ways, and the results of the PAP's own long-term policies are now being seen all too clearly in the consumerism and materialism that pervade the society, urban congestion andf the general feeling of a well-off population that they want more and if they do not get it they will rapidly become bored. Singapore is paradoxical in many ways, not least in the fact that despite defining itself as a newly-industrialising country (NIC) it is in most respects a mature economy co-existing with a very immature society, the constant preoccupation with identity being a very good indication of this latter fact. The constant changes in economic, educational and social policy combined with the PAP's style of constant sloganeering (speak Mandarin, wash your hands, flush the toilet, cross the road only at designated places etc.) contributes to perpetuating this immaturity, which is politically functional since it keeps the population in a constant state of dependency (itself a symptom of immaturity). At the same time, Singapore is an open society in certain respects-- people travel, read and acquire information from numerous sources, despite the government-controlled media, the exclusion of a wide range of foreign publications and the banning of TV satellite dishes. People also migrate, in alarmingly large numbers, and many Singaporeans have relatives living abroad." -- JOHN CLAMMER ("Deconstructing Values: The Establishment of a National Ideology and its Implications for Singapore's Political Future"; ibid).

The Usual Suspects: Singapore Government Spin Doctors--"Psychopaths", "Lunatics" and "Mad Cows"

Do You Know the Truth About Scientific and Technological "Madness"?

(It is a Singapore Government TOP SECRET!)

Truth, Reality and History: Errors, Fraudulences, And the Faked Identities of the Controlled Citizens

Governmental Control & Manipulation of My Family --

With the Use of Modern Surveillance Technologies

Brief Particulars of My Violated Family:

1. Grandpa's Place of Rest: Mandai Columbarium, Row 117, Niche No. 364.
2. Grandma's Name: Chong Ah Yan (1874--1971).
3. Father's Name: Chua Cheng Chin (8.8.1914--25.3.2000); NRIC No: 0241340Z; Place of Rest: Mandai Columbarium, Blk C, Row 217, Niche No. 183.
4. Mother's Name: Tan Ah Keow (14.4.1915--11.9.2002); NRIC No: 0254903D; Place of Rest: Mandai Columbarium, Blk C, Row 317, Niche No. 130.
5. Siblings from mother's second marriage (to my father--also his second marriage), which brought me into this world on 30.7.1953: Helen Chua Chwee Lian; Don Chua Tiong Seah; Derrick Chua Seng Seah.
6. Siblings from mother's first marriage: Tan Kim Kee; Tan Thian Hock; Chua Kim Lian; Tan Tian Ong.
7. Siblings from father's first marriage: Joseph Chua Thee Siah; Lilian Chua Guet Lian; Michael Chua Peng Siah.
8. Siblings from father's third marriage: Nessie Chua Chwee (Hong) Lian; Francis Chua Lam Siah; John Chua Guan Seah; Jeffrey Chua Thiam Seah; Irene Chua Lay Lian; Janet Chua Mui Lian; Cindy Chua Kwee Lian.

NOTES:

Chua Chwee Lian (Helen):

Helen, born on 21 September 1948, is my elder sister, who will soon be 60 years old in September 2008. She is a housewife with two sons--the younger one (Kelvin Set Zhi Wei, NRIC No: 8801772B) is currently serving National Service and the older one (Benny Set Chern Loong, NRIC No: 7629814I) is working in a private firm (and going to be married to a Chinese girl in September 2008). Helen likes to tour other countries and must have visited so many countries by now. (She would happily show us her photographs taken during those trips overseas upon her return.) She helps me in a big way financially every month.

Chua Kim Lian (Ah Leng):

Ah Leng, as we normally call her, is one of my elder half-sisters (from my mother's first marriage to my long-deceased step-father). She likes to play mahjong, swim every morning, and visit other countries every now and then with her friends. She was divorced from her husband, Ng Kian Hock, a long time ago and had two married daughters with him--one of whom, Patricia Ng En Bee, is presently living with her. Patricia lives with her husband, Kane Chen Kin Meng, a cinematographer, and their two children (Keby and Celestine), in a HDB apartment in Choa Chu Kang. Her elder sister, Linda Ng En Hoon, is married to Soh Eng Seng and they have three children--Kelvin, Christopher and Kristy. Ah Leng would often boil Chinese medicinal herbs for me to drink whenever we met at my brother Derrick's house--to help control my high blood pressure. She also helps me financially every month.

Chua Tiong Seah (Don):

Don (email: doncai18@yahoo.com.sg), born on 18 July 1955, is my brother, two years younger than me. He is now self-employed, baking organic bread at home almost daily and selling them to various shops, people and organisations in order to supplement his family income. He is married to Choong Mi Mi and they have three school-going children (Cai Yiming, Cai Wenrong and Cai ChengYue). Don is very concerned about his health and fitness (which is very good) and he maintains it by not only ensuring that he exercises regularly but also knowing how to control his eating habits. He helps me financially every month.

Chua Seng Seah (Derrick):

Derrick is my brother, four years younger than me. He is working as an electrician. He is married to Chan Oi Lin and has a son, Mervyn, in school now. Derrick is a very responsible family-man who gave up smoking and heavy betting on lottery so that he could have enough money to help with the household expenses. But he still drives a van even though it is costly to do so--chiefly, because of the convenience of having one's own private means of transport and secondly, because he really enjoys driving. He had given his expensive hi-fi stereo sound system to me many years ago, when I moved out of his house to live on my own in a purchased flat. He helps me financially every month.

Dear Singaporeans: Every Thing I Do, I Do It For You

The Truth About My Past "Schizophrenia"

During the course of these past long years after my resignation from MSD in 1976, I had to try defending myself in various ways against the PAP Government's attempt to discredit me as an anti-PAP critic and writer. Eventually, I found the most effective self-defence was to feign a convincing "neutralization" of my self-chosen role as a critic and writer with anti-PAP opinions by pretending to suffer from a "schizophrenic breakdown". That was how I could avoid being harassed and intimidated by the watching and watchful PAP Government--by rendering myself as a "schizophrenic" writer that posed no effective challenge or threat to the PAP regime. Thus, I had to make plans for this purpose right after my resignation from MSD in 1976; and I was finally able to execute my plans, starting from the year 1985, to pretend that I was suffering from "schizophrenia"!

I had to become an actor. I had to, in other words, assume the signs and symptoms of this dreaded and stigmatised mental illness. Thus, I was ready to be interviewed, as planned, and "correctly" diagnosed by the government psychiatric consultants--when I was brought to the old Woodbridge Hospital (at Yio Chu Kang) by the unsuspecting police, whom I had to provoke and hoodwink, in order to make them believe that I was crazy or mad!

To protect my role as a critic and writer with long-held anti-PAP views and beliefs, I thus had to feign the signs and symptoms of schizophrenia during various incidents, at home or in public, beginning from 1985 and right through the last 23 years! These incidents, particularly during an extremely "active" year in 1986--when I was living at Jalan Kukoh--were intended to be witnessed by neighbours and members of the public and recorded in official statements and documents by policemen notified to check on my "mental breakdown", so that I can establish my "schizophrenic" status! In 1989, I finally succeeded in having myself brought to the old Woodbridge Hospital by the police, who thought they had a "mental" case on their hands! Obviously, I had to convince the government medical psychiatrists attending to my case that I was suffering from "schizophrenia"--which I did, as I was diagnosed and warded at the hospital for the first time. After my discharge from my first stay at the old Woodbridge Hospital, I managed to get involved in other "criminal" incidents deliberately--so that my "schizophrenia" could be corroborated by police officers who were interrogating me or investigating my case.

And what, for your information, dear Singaporeans, are these signs and symptoms (which I had to study and remember from reading medical books on psychiatry and from other relevant sources of information--such as brochures issued by Singapore Association for Mental Health) which managed to lend credibility to my "schizophrenic" guise?

They fall into the following areas [as listed and described in two brochures, "A Family Guide To Understanding Schizophrenia" (SAMH, Singapore) and "Plain Talk" (SAMH, Singapore)]:

1. Appearance: Often persons suffering from schizophrenia may not take care of themselves properly. Their appearance may be unkempt or untidy. Their personal hygiene may suffer.
2. Behaviour: Persons with schizophrenia are rarely violent. They are often distracted and appear to be in their own world. They may not pay much attention to what is occurring around them and may talk or gesture to themselves. Withdrawal is another common sign, when they retreat into their own world, losing the ability to concentrate or communicate with others. They become apathetic and listless, even to the point of hardly moving at all.
3. Thinking: Persons with schizophrenia have difficulty keeping their thoughts in order. They may become disturbed in such a way that they are unable to focus on a main point of a statement or an argument. They may suffer a mental block, or crowding of their thoughts. They will often jump from topic to topic. They may even experience hallucinations. They may imagine things which do not seem possible: such as seeing and smelling things that aren't there, or hearing voices speaking to them, discussing their thoughts or behaviour, urging them to a certain action, or having peculiar ideas that seem strange or unrealistic. Quite often they suffer from delusions, forming false beliefs despite obvious proof to the contrary. They may become very irritable and suspicious, believing others are plotting against them, following and staring at them, or reading their thoughts.
4. Speech: Persons with schizophrenia may be difficult to understand. Their speech may be disconnected, or even incoherent. They may talk very rapidly or slowly. Their speech then become vague or inconsequential. They may say things which do not make sense.
5. Emotions: Persons with schizophrenia often do not feel the same way as others. At times they may be very sad or happy for no apparent reason. They may scold others without cause. They can appear frightened or withdrawn. Their emotions may become dull and flattened, out of step with what's going on--for instance, they may start laughing in the middle of a funeral.

My greatest challenge, while being warded on three major occasions (the first time, in May 1989, at the old Woodbridge Hospital and the second and third time, in 1994 and April 1998 respectively, at the new hospital--located at Buangkok Green), was having to deal with the need to be seen taking the prescribed oral medicine for my "schizophrenia". (The infrequent injection of modecate into my body was regarded by me as an unavoidable "occupational risk". It is a sacrifice that I have had made with no ill-effects.) The daily rounds of oral medicine-taking, which included consuming the drug chlorpromazine, was watched by the observant nursing staff. I had to let them watch my "consumption" of the medicinal tablets. Thus, I achieved my purpose of my "schizophrenic" guise--and yet prevented myself from having to suffer from any side-effects of an actual consumption!

(There were occasions, however, when I failed to succeed in pretending to consume the oral medicine--and the dosage prescribed to me was too high! I had to suffer the consequent side-effects of such an "occupational risk"--drowsiness, giddiness and even, on one occasion, fainting!)

After every period of usually short-term hospitalisation, I was discharged with the instruction to follow-up my drug treatment by visiting the outpatient clinic (at first at the old Woodbridge Hospital and later at the Institute of Mental Health) regularly for psychiatric consultation, my supply of oral medication and injection. Over these long years, I maintained my feigned psychiatric profile with such regular visits--so successfully that even my own family members believed I was a "schizophrenic"!

I have reached the point in this stage of my life when I no longer have to keep up or maintain my "schizophrenic" guise or profile. That is why I have stopped my regular visits to the Institute of Mental Health as a "recovered" outpatient. For the past few months, I have established myself, through the Internet blogs and websites, as a recognised political commentator, critic and writer.

I am looking forward to continue my new life as a political critic and writer with long-held anti-PAP (and, especially, anti-LKY) views.

And, dear Singaporeans, that is how and what I have transformed myself into--in the course of my life during these past long years--to protect myself as a political critic and writer with anti-PAP (and, especially, anti-LKY) views--to ensure that I can serve the cause of democracy and to fight for the recognition, respect and observance of human rights, as a Singaporean writer and political critic with long-held anti-PAP (and, especially, anti-LKY) opinions, beliefs and ideas!

Thirty-Two Long Years of "Immorality", "Insanity"`, and "Criminality" in My Life and Times As An Anti-PAP Writer and Critic

My Open Revelation As A

Writer/Political Critic:

Coming Out From My Years As An

Underground Fighter


Why am I undermining my credibility as a writer and political critic with anti-PAP views by publicly claiming that I am an "implantee" of the PAP Government? Did I actually work as a secret mole, a covert agent or a double agent?

Well, I am ready to come out with the truth now, as I have total confidence in my judgment that the time and circumstance is now right for such a revelation.

I want to reveal to readers of my blog and web postings the real intention of such a "confession". My intention is: I want to, as an anti-PAP writer and critic, to draw the public's attention to my past attempt to protect myself as an aspiring writer and critic with long-held anti-PAP views and opinions.

To elaborate: Why would I want to claim that I am working for the PAP Government as a secret mole or covert agent or double agent? Am I a government employee in the first place? Doesn't such a claim invite readers of my blog and web postings to ask questions--as I have become recognised as an anti-PAP critic and commentator?

Readers of this present blog (http://afighterandalovertoo.blogspot.com/) and of my other related blogs (http://wholecity.blogspot.com/; and http://pre-implantationdays.blogspot.com/) would already have known that I was once a clerical officer working in the Registry of the Military Security Department in the Ministry of Defence from December 1975 to October 1976.

Having also revealed the reasons for my resignation from MSD in these blogs, I am now claiming that I am STILL working for the PAP Government! Why?

This is my disclosure for the first time in my blogs: the PAP Government has been, since my resignation from MSD in 1976, trying to prevent me from being a successful writer and political critic with anti-PAP and, especially, anti-LKY views!

I had assumed several guises, roles and capacities in the last 32 years--especially beginning from the year 1985--as a "schizophrenic", a "sexual offender" and a "thief"--in order to feign my "neutralised" condition, so as to shield and to protect myself from any government harassment and intimidation. Meanwhile, during these years of living underground, I conducted self-training and self-education for my future role and vocation as a PUBLISHED political critic and writer with widely-recognised views that are critical of the PAP Government!

The PAP Government has thus not been able to destroy me effectively as a critic and writer with anti-PAP views! For I have been biding my time during all these years--waiting for the right time and circumstances to come out openly and publicly to establish myself, finally, as a self-trained and self-educated critic and writer, with PUBLISHED anti-PAP opinions and beliefs!

My cause has been fortunately aided by the advent of the Internet--so that I can now quickly and easily PUBLISH, in the electronic media, opinions and ideas that would once not have been accepted for PUBLICATION by local publishers, whose timidity and fear of offending the PAP Government would have prevented them from PUBLISHING my anti-PAP writings!

That is why, during the last few months, beginning from April 2008, Internet users have been able to read my DARING, CHALLENGING and DEFIANT anti-PAP blog and web postings regularly--aimed at inspiring, encouraging and supporting opposition parties and critics of the PAP Government!

The Straits Times' Relationship With The Singapore Government

The Straits Times and the Singapore Government-- Mutual

Masturbators in Public

The Straits Times is the most hated and criticised Singapore newspaper--politically spineless, predictable and long discredicted by its own group of unabashedly PAP ball-carrying, deceitful, unprincipled and, most importantly, well-paid "journalists". Lee Kuan Yew's role in transforming the long-established national newspaper into a big mouthpiece for the PAP Government is already well-known. God knows how many intelligence and security officers and agents from the PAP Government had been associated with the newspaper in various capacities, guises and positions in the past--and how many of the newer members are now serving in the current paper as "journalists"!

Truly independent, honest and fair-minded journalists--with professional integrity, pride and self-respect--would never have willingly allowed themselves to be so controlled and manipulated by the PAP rulers, day-in and day-out. They are not brave and honest enough to provide a true and accurate account of Singapore's developments, achievements and successes--with particular reference to the denial and suppression of human rights and democratic values by the PAP rulers.

For instance, they repeatedly and easily assume, like the PAP rulers, that Singapore's economic successes have provided them with a justification for the PAP Government's trampling of democratic values and human rights in Singapore. They refuse to question the durability and sustainability of a system based solely or mainly on economic successes. They just repeat the old argument by the PAP rulers that political freedoms will bring chaos and disintegration to Singapore society. They never ask how convincing and effective the curent PM is, as a "good" and "able" national leader?

The Straits Times tries to keep up with the times and move in tune to the age of electronic media by joining Internet surfers and bloggers in more active online expressions and discussions. But they forget that it is not the medium of communication that determines how credible or professional you are as a journalist. Rather, both the chosen subject matter (and you know how ST journalists choose--or not choose--certain subjects!) and the preferred manner of its presentation and expression (which, at present, is highly technocratic and scientific) will determine how readers or net surfers accept or reject their ideas, values and opinions--and also the presented facts and information (cunningly selective, contrived or manipulated, as commonly practiced by them at present).

I cannot clearly see how the present newspaper can change from its long-time government-controlled journalistic practices adopted in these two aspects of journalism--until there is a change of government, from the present autocratic and authoritarian one to a truly democratic and responsive government.

I can easily predict that The Straits Times will continue to be detested and dismissed by readers and online surfers for its lack of credibility, independence and professional integrity.

Non-Available Books by Political Dissidents, Critics and Opponents of the PAP Government

To the Chief Executive of National Library Board, Singapore:

Please take the time (and expend the necessary effort) to carefully read this letter, posted liberally in this liberated blog of mine. It is an important document that has taken me much time and effort to create.

I wish, chiefly, to draw your proper attention to the disappointing, perplexing and puzzling NLB policy and practice of:

1. keeping most books written by political dissidents, critics and opponents of the PAP Government of Singapore in the REFERENCE Sections of your public libraries (where they are only available for mere consultation, reference and on-the-spot reading);
2. NOT keeping most of the same already-mentioned books in the Adult LENDING Sections of your public libraries (which ensures that these books could not be BORROWED by readers interested in Singapore politics);
3. NOT ensuring that important, relevant and outstanding books written by political dissidents, critics and opponents of the PAP Government of Singapore should be freely AVAILABLE not only for reading by the public in the Reference Sections of the public libraries but also, and more importantly, for BORROWING by interested readers, who may want to retain these books at home or in their possession for at least 3 weeks (the permitted borrowing period for books)--so that they can have enough time to absorb and understand the contents of the books at their own convenience and leisure;
4. NOT maintaining a high standard of professional library service to the Singaporean public as civil servants--by not PURCHASING and DISPLAYING in the Adult LENDING Sections of the public libraries (for readers to borrow) all the following important, relevant and outstanding published contributions and works on Singapore politics by critics, dissidents and opponents of the PAP Government of Singapore--namely (just to give you a brief list of these books):

• To Catch A Tartar: A Dissident in Lee Kuan Yew's Prison (Yale University, New Haven, Connecticut: 1994) by Francis Seow;
• The Singapore Miracle: Myth and Reality (Insight Press, Australia: 2006) by Rodney King;
• The Spirit of Democracy: The Struggle To Build Free Societies Throughout the World (Times Books, New York: 2008) by Larry Diamond;
• Beyond Suspicion? The Singapore Judiciary (Yale University, USA: 2007) by Francis Seow;
• The Media Enthralled: Singapore Revisited (Lynn Rienner, Boulder, Colorado: 1998) by Francis Seow;
• Those Who Dare: Voices of Asia's Democrats (Alliance for Reform and Democracy in Asia: 2006);
• Singapore: The Ultimate Island (Lee Kuan Yew's Untold Story) [Freeway Books, Australia: 1990] by T.S. Selvan;
• Singapore, My Home Too (SDP, Singapore: 1995) by Chee Soon Juan;
• Dare To Change: An Alternative Vision For Singapore (SDP, Singapore: 1994) by Chee Soon Juan;
• The Power of Courage: Effecting Political Change in Singapore Through Nonviolence (SDP, Singapore: 2005) by Chee Soon Juan;
• The Singapore Puzzle (Westport, Praeger, Connecticut: 1999) by Michael Haas (editor);
• The Political Economy of Social Control in Singapore (Macmillan, London: 1994) by Christopher Tremewan.

For your kind, deep, thoughtful, honest, wise, careful, unhindered, unhampered, unconstrained, unobstructed, unimpeded and unrestricted consideration, attention and, most important of all, action!

How The Election System in Singapore Can Be Reformed With Wisdom

TO THE HEAD OF ELECTIONS DEPARTMENT,
PRIME MINISTER'S OFFICE:


Every sincere and honest Singapore citizen is crying out for the reform of the unfair electoral system in Singapore. In its present form, it is a disgrace to democracies all over the world and an insult to our intelligence.

You, as the Head of Elections Department, have played your part in ensuring that our system of democratic elections is not to be respected in any way. Were you even-handed and equitable in your handling of election matters--like electioneering or campaigning requirements or regulations; voting rules, procedures and practices; and the use of your official jurisdiction in dealing with opposition parties?

As you surely know, ordinary Singaporeans are already prevented by the PAP Government-controlled media from free and open access to comprehensive and fair reporting of the campaign issues and subjects raised by opposition parties during the unjustly short campaign period. They are denied vital information about opposition parties' candidates--their character, educational and professional backgrounds, political beliefs, intentions, plans, messages and views (all of which play an important part in influencing their voting decisions).

Given such an obvious handicap created by the government-controlled media, the least you can do, as the honourable and respectable Head of Elections Department, is to ensure that you do not persist in supporting our PAP leaders in cheating Singaporeans of their democratic rights--by ensuring that all election candidates have a fair and equal chance in the elections. Otherwise, you would be throwing whatever remaining little trust we have in the system of our government here into the dustbin of history. I am not accusing you of corruption and dishonesty; I am just asking you to be independent, autonomous and democratic.

Please read carefully Dr Chee Soon Juan's book, YOUR FUTURE, MY FAITH, OUR FREEDOM (2001; pp. 39-41), on the much-needed vital reform of our election system. You will be surprised that a "psychopath" like Dr Chee can give Singaporeans and readers all over the world such an instructive and perceptive overview of the necessary steps and measures needed to transform our presently unequal, fettered and untrustworthy election system--into one which citizens all over the world can finally respect and applaud without reservations.

To summarise very briefly what Dr Chee has proposed: The GRC system is a blatant insult to the intelligence of the citizens of Singapore. It is supposedly designed, in theory, to ensure minority racial representations in Parliament. But in practice, as Dr Chee says in the above-mentioned book, under this system, voters are prevented from choosing the candidates they want.

Also, MPs should be elected by the people if they are to have seats in Parliament. Dates for elections must be fixed and be well-known in advance by candidates. Campaign periods must be longer than the presently stipulated usual ones. Contesting parties should be allowed the freedom to choose the time and sites for their rallies. Finally, and most importantly, an independent Elections Commission must be instituted. (Can you submit this particular proposal, as the Head of Elections Department in the PMO, to PAP leaders--so that your department can be replaced by the said commission instead? The decisions of this proposed commission must be submitted to parliament for approval and it must be accountable to the courts.)

Please do read attentively the full text in Dr Chee's book, Mr Lee Seng Lup. It is full of political wisdom and democratic insight--all that is missing from our current autocratic and authoritarian PAP Government. I hope you will respond positively to the proposed and discussed changes to our present election system.

More Than Satisfying Basic Needs

A Life of Ideals, Principles and Values

The PAP leaders are only interested in acquiring huge amount of wealth and in preserving their unjustly-gotten political power. Don't they realise that man actually has few needs but many important goals?

It is not enough merely to have good food, expensive alcoholic drinks, good looks, sexual satisfaction, good health, expensive clothes, physical and material comfort, impressive educational and professional qualifications, expensive houses and expensive cars.

One must also be devoted to ideals and principles and be creative and knowledgeable. Each one of us is an unique individual and he must be allowed to express and to realize this unique individuality of his freely. One should never conform to the herd mentality and become an automaton in a free society.

What is the use of having a long life if you fail to be, in your relationship with your fellow human beings, loving, friendly, respectful, rational, caring, responsible and understanding? For, if you succeed in becoming such a person of values, principles and ideals, it would be the mark of a truly happy and wise person.