The Great Oppositionist Writer In Our Postmodern Era

(ROCK) MUSIC FROM MY MOUNTAIN HIDE-OUT: BOOK TWO

2009-06-07T22:24:00.000-07:00

ON BEING HEALTHY

AND STRONG (AND GOOD!) --

AND WITH MY WHOLE OUTLOOK (YES!)

AND APPROACH (TOWARDS BOOKS!) --

AS A HUMAN BEING AND

AS A WRITER

(STILL CLASSILY AND ENDURINGLY

DISSENTING -- AND HENCE

MARGINALIZED -- BUT HAPPILY,

PLEASURABLY, WILLINGLY,

CONFOUNDINGLY AND

CONFIDENTLY SO)!

VOLUME I

If you want to act in violation of community norms, you have to have pretty strong reasons. The burden of proof is on you to show that you are right, not just to show: "My conscience says so." That is not enough of a reason.

-- Noam Chomsky,
in an interview with Ziga Vodovnik:
CHOMSKY ON ANARCHISM
(Edinburgh, Oakland & West Virginia: A K Press, 2005)

PART ONE

5. Track No. 5:

When Worlds Collide

Kelly, one's feelings for a city -- about whether its residents love it or otherwise -- is set by the TIME we are in!

I don't feel the same way about Singapore now as I did when I was a young boy back in the Sixties.

I was, undoubtedly, influenced by the Sixties' musical and social and cultural revolutions. There was an undeniable tension -- between what, and how, I felt inside my mind, heart and soul on the one hand and what I saw happening publicly and existing all around me on the other hand -- in this former British colonial city of conservative residents from different (mostly Asian) races, cultures and religions!

But I couldn't care less! I just kept my individualistic ego (with all its own values, principles and ideas continuously aflamed -- burning with undiminished intensity inside me all these years).

The place has changed. We are in the year 2009. But the puritanical (and now neo-conservative) mood is ever-present. It's a hard life for someone like me -- trying just to survive (let alone live, work and play well) -- in a society with anti-individualistic values and ideas and egos. The invisible busybodies and meddlers ("up there") just don't want you to think -- deeply, and well, especially!

These invisible (and highly secretive) listeners, talkers,"watchers" and eavesdroppers -- yes, all deficient and inferior meddlers and busybodies (from "up there")! -- want you NOT to ask any probing, hard, challenging questions.

Yes, indeed! Two different worlds in perpetual collision!

PART TWO

6. Track No. 6:

Wild World? (Yes, It Is!)

Kelly, what I have learnt from Carl Gustav Jung is that I'm predominantly introverted. I have been transformed -- by the listening, talking, "watching" and eavesdropping robots ("up there") -- from a quiet, thoughtful and unassuming young man into a loud-mouthed, bragging, bold (overly and rashly and impulsively) and unforgivably brutish resistant "fighter". Instead of blossoming into a matured lover of beautiful and intelligent women, I have become, unwittingly, a mere "fighter" against, and for, women (including females whose sole justificatiion for existing on this earth is to be meddlesome, quarrelsome and extremely busy -- as either inspired or crafty busybodies!).

Born handsome, healthy (if not exactly wholesome) and extremely well-behaved, I grew up -- over the turbulent years -- into an undisguised, compulsive and wholehearted prostitute-lover! I was transformed from a sensitive and intelligent (or, at least, thoughtful -- yes, very much so indeed!) young man with fine romantic feelings for women in general into a soulless, heartless, mindless and sullen cunt-loving brute -- too extroverted (of the wrong kind) for my own good!

My response to such interference, intrusiveness, and disturbing annoyance and transformation by these listening, talking, "watching" and eavesdropping (but always invisible) busybodies and meddlers ("up there") is to be as chameleon-like as possible (but not in any calculating, calculative or calculated way -- so basically and essentially honest am I)! Kelly, the events herein disclosed by me about my life with these invisible busybodies and meddlers ("up there") -- to which you are resigned, and have accepted willingly, to be one -- are not totally unknown to you, surely; and they're now retold plainly here -- not in military-industrial prose, or in shallow "humorous" prosaic prose but in transparent and accountable prose, with some irony and sarcasm thrown in (as and when the occasions demand). That is my only defence against the intrusions, invasions, and interferences of these invisible busybodies and meddlers ("up there"). It is my way of getting back at them for producing and directing all these senseless "scenarios" that have involved so many long years of abject and miserable sufferings -- all of which are thoroughly undeserved and unearned.

My story is told with reference to the world events, ideas and personalities in the last 5 decades -- regardless of whether or not they have directly and actually impinged upon, or influenced, my own life -- especially my own inner life (or what remains of it).

Kelly, what is my view, first of all, of persons who take too much interest in other people's affairs? Well, these invisible busybodies and meddlers ("up there") -- always listening, talking, "watching" and eavesdropping -- are mean, soulless, cunning and greedy misters, misses and mistresses merely -- oppressive bastards all! My interactions or "relationships" (or even, according to those love-lorn and love-blinded ladies among them, my "relations" -- especially "sexual") with these invisible busybodies and meddlers ("up there") are influenced by my own outstanding self-image and self-respect. (And I DO indeed have a great and healthy self-image and total self-respect!) That's how I'm able now -- to stay whole -- to write my own story here, with these invisible busybodies and meddlers ("up there") still listening, talking, "watching" and eavesdropping (from above the earth, with the help of those orbiting communication satellites!).

PART THREE

7. Track No. 7:

The Great Democratic Pretenders

These invisible -- but always listening, talking, "watching" and eavesdropping -- busybodies and meddlers ("up there") call themselves "writers" or "artists" -- on the basis of their bolstered and boosted egos -- yes, boosted, no doubt, and "inspired", by their "sensitive" responses to what they had perceived and discovered in me, through me and about me -- that is to say, a beautiful, (truly and genuinely) sensitive, humble and quiet soul -- of an authentic writer! So they've tried hard, over the years, to "acquire" or "learnt" such wonderfully and similarly related characteristics, qualities amd skills that I have -- as a genuinely gifted writer with artistic (especially) and intellectual and moral (secondarily) values.

What do I think of these invisible impostors and bogus "artistic" operators and producers? (Well, I've just said what I thought of them!) The fact is, Kelly, most of these invisible busybodies and meddlers ("up there") -- including you, Kelly -- are just naturally un-expressive but only prone to be proactive or reactive (as technocrats, bureaucrats, civil servants, army officers, uniformed personnel, industrialists, scientists and journalists -- both in their official positions and in their occupational or professional practices). Yes, Kelly, you and your invisible colleagues -- compromised and duplicitous to the hilt -- are trying to pretend to be what you meddlesome and busy (in a bodily or physical sense only?) robots ("up there") are NOT -- that is, bona fide artists and writers who genuinely support democracy, with all their hearts, minds and souls.

For the past 36 years or so, I've the misfortune to encounter and "interact" (reluctantly, of course!) with these invisible -- but always listening, talking, "watching" and eavesdropping -- busybodies and meddlers ("up there") -- much to my enforced unhappiness and professional unfulfillment. I had been too mild-mannered, too quiet, too gentle, too unassuming, too diffident, too humble, too reserved, too introverted -- to stake a legitimate claim, my rightful and natural claim (based on my natural gifts and cultivated learning) to be an outstanding writer. I'm not a genius but they have no business -- for all their busyness -- to take me for a goon -- much too soon! And now, they regularly discover I can make them realize they have gone too far!

Where else, and how, are they -- these invisible busybodies and meddlers ("up there") -- always listening, talking, "watching" and eavesdropping -- going to try to "put me in my place" further -- and for how much longer (another 36 crazy years?). When will these invisible busybodies and meddlers ("up there") stop trying to silence me -- and make me feel small or inferior? I've been to all those official places of incarceration and imprisonment -- to prisons; hospitals (for treatment of injuries suffered under their provocation); police station lock-ups/jail cells; IMH insane wards (including those for alleged "criminals") ....... And I've been mostly and forcibly -- through tricks and deceptions played unknowingly on me -- isolated, confined and thus "neutralized" (especially politically) inside my own house! (Like being subjected to solitary house detention!)

What is the point of it all? Why such a partial approach to an attempted solution of a difficult problem? When will such needless and uncreative or unproductive application or else sheer meaninglessness and laziness ever end?

PART FOUR

8. Track No. 8:

Of Men and Women; and Mice and Ants

Kelly, I have help from many intellectual and literary sources -- chiefly American authors (like Noam Chomsky, Erich Fromm, Philip Roth, Saul Bellow, Norman Mailer and a host of other illustrious Western writers and thinkers) -- who all tell me what I should do to take on these invisible meddlers and busybodies ("up there") -- yes, including you, Kelly, in your mean mood (which is most of the time!). Yes, to resist and fight them (and well-meaning you too!) -- oh, they and you have already acknowledged that this must be so if I want to stand a chance of winning (yes, to remain as I am!) -- because they and you have forced me reluctantly to behave so! I detect an obvious and self-evident unequal (very much so) power relationship between these invisible meddlers and busybodies (including you dear) and me!

Knowing myself so well, I just couldn't let them (and you too) walk all over me -- as if they (and you, Kelly) are qualified, certified, and justified to lead me, or to run my life in the first place! [For their sake -- and yours too, Kelly -- let me here repeat what I have always tried to impress upon them (and you): my keen determination to lead or rule or govern myself and my own life -- yes, and NOT, on the other hand, to let others, or anyone at all, to lead or rule or govern me and my own life!]

Kelly, I know I have the spirit and soul of an artist -- and the clarity of mind of a careful thinker: involving an active and mutually beneficial co-operation between the drummer (in me) and the philosopher (in me too)! I always say what I honestly feel and think -- even at the expense of seemingly not being so (when forced to express myself with sarcasm, irony and a satirical bite!).

Yes, this is my inner self speaking -- my soul! And, Kelly, what's the whole matter with the whole world outside -- with the world at large? (And with you too, Kelly.) All these invisible busybodies and meddlers (all fellow colleagues of yours) -- always so busily ("up there") listening, talking, "watching" and eavesdropping, like willing and mutually consensual masturbating voyeurs!

Kelly, am I not already a "failure" -- or am I not yet one? My inner self tells me I have vast inner potential (as a man and writer) -- largely unexpressed and unexplored -- and a huge profusion of rich potentialities besides -- at my behest. But I hate this realisation that I've not been able to make much use of -- or any headway with -- my personal "assets". These invisible meddlers and busybodies ("up there") have transformed me from an emotionally sensitive and quietly thoughtful man into an unpleasant and unfeeling brute. (I have managed to overcome this temporary facade and setback -- concocted or constructed into my behaviour without my consent -- whenever my noble mind rises to the fore -- time and again! Why? Because my noble mind is my greatest "asset".)

PART FIVE

9. Track No. 9:

Only Love (Including, Even, Concocted "Love")

Can Break Your Fragile Heart

Kelly, these invisible busybodies and meddlers -- always listening, talking, "watching" and eavesdropping ("up there") -- where you, too, belong now, know why I am naturally attracted, attached and drawn to the great works of great minds and great writers in Western history!

It takes an honest and humble reader not to exploit his knowledge, learning and knowingness -- derived or gained from, in my own case, the extensive and intensive reading of books of all kinds -- in this capitalist postmodern world.

Artistic writers -- here in Singapore? Geniuses in local literature? Let me be clear about this: These artistic writers and literary geniuses had mostly existed in the pre-postmodern Western world. It is getting harder and harder to be -- and to be recognized as -- an outstanding writer and/or thinker -- not to mention someone who is great or a genius.

"Major Events" have now been regularly concocted and promoted. "Great Ideas" have now been periodically manufactured and publicized. And outstanding personalities have now been replaced, in this capitalist postmodern age, by the frequent celebration of "celebrities" -- including, quite disturbingly, "politicians"!

Kelly, recorded music now often becomes muzak to my sensitive soulful ears. And such recorded pieces of muzak are regarded as purely commercial commodities.

The past is either conveniently forgotten or deliberately ignored. The present is scheduled to happen -- with significant or important "happenings" -- all the time! And the future? (Is there one, Kelly?)

So I've used my playful imagination, expressed in joyous word-play, Kelly, to humble the world's leaders and V.I.Ps. -- yes, to build my beseiged life-style as high-up as possible (or as low-down as necessary) -- and, at the same time, to protect myself, to preserve my integrity, to maintain my self-respect, to ensure my life continues to thrive with purpose and energy (or whatever that remain)!

"Me", "myself", "I" -- what do these personal pronouns matter or mean anymore? I (or is it "I") have feelings, thoughts, and views which are too fine, quiet, and soulful for me to disclose them openly and publicly -- except in a properly printed and published book of my own! That's the only way I can reveal my true, undoctored and undisguised personality, character and life-story without regret or apology.

I have no privacy left (who does anyway?); and what is supposedly personal becomes, sometimes, or most of the time, impersonal -- especially if it is pinned down in military-industrial prose! And do I need to follow Philip Roth's method, path or example, as a writer, to resist my nemeses successfully?

Art -- when allied to, or with, a clear, careful and vibrant, if not distinguished, mind (and, furthermore, when infused, too, with unrelenting self-affirmation, focus and honesty, if not humility) -- is NEVER going to be too "powerless" (so claimed an indefatigable, unrepentant and indomitable "resisting and fighting spirit" like me!) to be used as a powerful weapon to defend and fight for one's (especially human) rights.

Tell this truth to those "powerful" but hopelessly mindless, heartless and soulless (and invisible to boot!) busybodies and meddlers -- oh, yes!, always listening, talking, "watching" and forever eavesdropping -- from a long, long way away (but forever suspended "up there", either remaining static or in perpetual motion, depending on how, where, when, who and why you are looking at such temporal human inventions) -- until the fucking orbiting communication satellites come tumbling down, from such a superior, heavenly, heightened and important (or self-important) position, to the Wasteland-turned-Hollow Ground -- down below on our Planet Earth!

That will make up for the 36 years (and more!) of those idiotic, moronic and totally meaningless (well, what's or where's the whole fucking point of it all?) computerized, mechanized and mechanical living methods and life-style "pursuits"!

PART SIX

10. The Closing Number:

The Last Track Is The Loudest, Clearest,

and Most Joyous and Melodious --

And The Most EVOCATIVE -- of Them All Too!

Are you just going to be the most celebrated (and "celebrity") Devil's Radio DJ, Kelly? Or perhaps, the ghostly Daily Newsreader?

Or sweetness and light from the cultured pens of gentle ladies and real men?

Or darkness and bitterness from the now vanquished (but still unkind and intransigent) invisible meddlers and busybodies ("up there") -- trying, oppressively, to have the so-called "last word" (are they lying on their death beds now?) -- in unmitigated military-industrial prose? Or in un-self-regulated anarchic poetry?

Well, I, rather, should actually have THE LAST WORD -- and THE LAST LAUGH -- on this whole fucking issue, matter, incident and episode -- by telling my story to the readers at large. I'll be the one to awaken them from their long, long slumber -- no, nightmare! -- as one who has survived it. (And, this is not, sorry, infantile posturing or political posing by the economically prosperous but socially immature (because uncultivated and unthinking) citizens.

I had, for too long, lost my soul and spirit to the marketplace of goods, services, ideas, events and personalities -- all packaged and exhibited, with all the external glossiness and superficial glittter, as mass-manufactured products of capitalism, mass culture, mass consumerism and commercialism. The cultural manipulators -- who are themselves part of the big world-wide (web of) network that controls the production of capitalist "goodies" and "goodness" -- have all been trying, each and every one of them, in his or her own way, to goad me into accepting and joining their bizarre nightmarish life-style and concocted world. Well, how could I? How can I? It is a world without genuine creativity and originality. It is a world whose residents methodically fuck, play, work and live -- in combined and planned (or concocted) major international scenarios (or macro-level scheduled operations) that involve all kinds of human engineering -- social, political, economic and cultural -- in the lives of the inhabitants of this planet.

What else can I say about my own country's involvement in this big operation of such a major scale? I had always been attracted to my own small island-city. Oh, good young "swinging" Singapore: it works its wonders on my beautiful and artistic soul -- just like what an industrial-military magnet would do -- with all its power of attraction (and attractiveness)! Like an ignorant man's idea of a socio-political paradise, I was subtlely and cunningly, induced or encouraged to "fit" myself into this political and economic landscape -- into this planned paradise for more than 36 years! Instead of being allowed to honestly express my artistic soul, heartfelt responses and qualifying and qualified questioning mind, I've had to listen to (or worst still, read) the daily trashy and tiresome platitudes and propagandistic pronouncements, announcements and denouncements -- based on Established anti-individualistic values, ideas and views -- as propounded from long ago by that core group of invisible busybodies and meddlers (leaders all!) who, from way "up there", take it upon themselves to spend their working lives -- and to justify their high salaries -- by (always) listening and talking to, and "watching" and (forever) eavesdropping onto the private lives, activities, conversations, engagements, and daily conduct of the citizens under their "control"!

This "altruistic" phase of my enforced (and almost hypnotic) "involvement" with society was, of course, artificially induced. Had it not been so, I, as a genuine writer with an intellectiual bent, would have long remained SILENT and deliberately uncommunicative -- with any one (perhaps with the exception of paid women, with whom I had, on numerous occasions in the past 36 years, willingly avail myself of their much-needed sexual services).

Someday, I would say everything I want to say in a properly -- and not hastily, rashly and unprofessionally -- published and printed book of my own authorship. And there would not be any, in the meantime, self-serving or servile "Letters-to-the-Editor" (of The Straits Times?) or any "celebrity" interviews!

The soul should not be depleted, diffused, distracted or exhausted by any such inopportune and cheap publicity!

(ROCK) MUSIC FROM MY MOUNTAIN HIDE-OUT: BOOK ONE

2009-06-07T21:52:00.000-07:00

ON BEING WHOLESOME --

AND MY UNHEALTHY LIFE

WITH IGNOBLE/IGNORANT

BUSYBODIES AND MEDDLERS

VOLUME I

Politics being reduced to economics, freedom being equated with the freedom of the market, then you are either free or not, depending on the economic circumstances. This is the kind of reductionism and economic determinism traditionally associated by liberals with Marxism. Marxism, it is said, denies liberty precisely because it reduces politics to a variable dependent upon economics and denies even the possibility of human freedom in the superstructure which capitalism inevitably erects on its economic base. It may be that what has come to be called neo-liberalism has forsaken any notion of liberty as being in any sense related to that liberty of human will and cognition which liberalism has hitherto always clutched to its heart.

-- J. S. McClelland,
"Liberalism Comes of Age: Bentham and John Stuart Mill"; A HISTORY OF WESTERN POLITICAL THOUGHT (London and New York: Routledge, 1996)

PART ONE

1. The Opening Track:

The First Number Is the Sharpest -- and the Boldest

My work and my life -- including the way I "play" -- as an writer-thinker-author, is under constant pressure, and always facing diversary tactics and belittling threats from the invisible nobodies (busybodies and meddlers) "up there". They are always listening, talking, "watching" and eavesdropping (in other words, forever snooping or spying) -- yes, even right at this moment of my enlightening imposition of my great thought-processess!

You fucking moronic (perhaps also, or even, psychotic?) idiots! Cough up the bucks! I want a just share -- a rightful one -- of the great Economic Pie! (Where did all the money that I am supposed to have rightly earned and justly deserved go?)

I've been resisting your uncouth, forcible, foul-mouthed and disrespectful attempts -- to turn me into a docile, conforming, powerless and unthinking SUBJECT -- for more than 36 years! As an indomitable, discerning and unrepentant individualist, I've the ability to, oh, adapt and improvise (but never to compromise!).

My individuality (especially its outstanding strength of mind and character) finds its expressions in everything I do, say, read and write (about) -- nondescript ones included. I am, you might say, a distinctive personality.

My insistence, publicly (through my publications, electronic or otherwise) and privately (in those moments or times when I'm supposed to abe ALONE)) -- on cultivatng my public self and on maintaining my private space means that my firm determination ( yes, as an unwittingly penniless writer) to make up for lost grounds -- oh, those long lost wasted miserable years, all the missing opportunities and unforthcoming challenges -- remains intact! I want to recreate, with my powerful, careful and clear mind, and with, too, my rich imagination, my own ideal memories of times past ... and to establish on public record my real impressions of times present ...

It's about my women -- and girls! (paid or otherwise), my professional writer's dreams and ambitions and my intellectual world! It's about, yes, my cash and money and income. It's about asserting my unconditional demand that these invisible busybodies and meddlers -- yes, utter NOBODIES (no matter how upstanding or "outstanding" they claim they are or pretend to be!) --"up there" -- cough up the bucks!

That is the reality of my life so far -- including how I "play" my game (assuming my life could -- or should -- be regarded as a GAME!) -- and of my work (which I treat or consider with utter or great SERIOUSNESS -- let nobody misunderstand that!) NOW! (And, yes!, from NOW on ....... )

The truth is that I am an author/writer/thinker (no less and no more) -- NOT a secret or undercover government agent or spy or employee (regardless of whatever roles, guises and capacities I had been compelled to play or to perform in -- during the course of the past 36 years and more)!

I aim HIGH -- yes, very , very HIGH indeed! -- but I've suffered so damned much for having such an "unreachable" aim!

PART TWO

2. Track No. 2:

Listen To The Music!

Kelly, why did you become so shallow-minded -- like one of those celebrated (or "celebrity") Radio Disc Jockey -- by proxy? Your idea of survival in this capitalist postmodern world is to adapt to it. But, Kelly, if you think hard enough, to survive by adaptation is precisely to prove that you are intelligent enough NOT to be absorbed into this postmodern world. Stand back, stay outside, and look at it from the outside. Do you, sincerely and honestly, feel "IT" is agreeable and amenable to the expression and development of what you are really? How would you know?

By recalling the past -- through your memories of past times, events, places, ideas and personalities that now tell you that you were once NOT the person that you are now. This special atmosphere that you were so impressed with -- in a "swinging" London in the 1st decade of this century (and a city in love with itself -- or were you in love with it?) -- and which you'd experienced when you were visiting it for the first time -- yes, it was wonderfully evocative (of someone or of something?). What did, or would, it mean -- to you, yes! -- when compared with, or contrasted to, those other cities you had (presumably) visited too? (Like New York, Tokyo, Paris?)

Do you merely feel about a place -- its atmosphere , its evocative quality? Or do you not, perhaps, also think about that particular place -- in relation to the world at large?

I'm a writer and I know writers (especially those who travel much -- like V. S. Naipaul, who'd visited a great many countries in his travels all over the world) do not merely express what, and how, they felt about places they've visited but also about what they thought of them. Therein lies the difference between you and me, Kelly.

I think more than I feel; and you feel more than you think. So how can I let you into my mind (and how can you let me into your heart?) It's an irreconcilable situation; I can't resolve it. But I want the resolution (if there is going to be one) to be a natural one -- yes, the right way for me! (Is it going to be for you too?)

My understanding of what remains of my limited capacity to feel -- or to show my feelings -- is that such feelings (however limited they are) should at least NOT be narcissistic; they should be generous in spirit -- always flowing (outward), aspiring, hoping, and searching (for their reciprocation).

This special atmosphere you had experienced in London -- wasn't it one propped up by an environment of commercialism, mass consumerism, and materialism -- in short, in form and substance, the "reality" of capitalism? Did you not realize that it all boils down to the possession of money? Without money, all the feelings that you had -- about the affecting and wondrous atmosphere of London, about this world and about me -- would not be so memorable! They would -- or could -- have been miserable!

Kelly, on another related and significant note, I want to write about Tokyo. Have you, yes, visited this gay city in the Orient yet? Tokyo is a gay city without equal -- where men cheat women and themselves -- compulsively! They have no memories of its past. They are totally enthralled and absolutely absorbed by the here and now. Male Tokyo residents have no time for history -- for a sense of the world's events, ideas and personalities in times past. (This is true in spite of all those annual or regular visits made by male residents to ancient temples and shrines and other historical and cultural sites -- including, too, their fevered and fervent participation or involvement in yearly mass events that embrace ritualistic, cultural or religious activities of reverent celebration or commemoration.)

The male Tokyo residents have been absorbed by, and into, the present postmodern "reality" of capitalism -- of, to repeat, mass consumerism, materialism, mass culture and commercialism. This includes what should be, in times past, regarded and respected as, the "private" and personal sphere of their sexual lives too. Feelings? What feelings do these male Tokyo residents have? Their sexual "feelings" are concocted, manufactured, distributed, produced and consumed en masse. Their forms of sexual behaviour are methodical, planned, mechanical and, hence, impersonal. They are compulsively conformist, uniform and repetitive. And there are simply too many fakeries and gimmickries that are involved in these male Tokyo residents' sex lives. Oh, these poor, sad, pitiful, plodding perpetual masturbators!

Kelly, you're supposed to adapt (by precisely NOT adapting) to this fucking capitalist postmodern world. You must, in other words, RESIST "IT". Are you intelligent enough to do it? Yes, RESIST "IT"! (That's how I, dear Kelly -- and you should know it surely! -- have been able to SURVIVE all these long years [since I first met you in a government office as a new colleague; and then sometime later (for the second time, yes, but unexpectedly so !) -- and also inexplicably and -- perhaps, regrettably --unproductively too! -- at a big furniture exhibition at the old World Trade Centre; and, lastly, since I last saw you in a bowling alley at the old Leisure Drome in Kallang].

PART THREE

3. Track No. 3:

On the Road To Find Out

(How Good You Really Are!)

Kelly, you're too extroverted for me: you live, basically, a thoroughly EXTERNAL life. You like the world outside or around you unquestioningly, and, yes, too easily, and too much! You have no inner life and world of your own (or do you really?) -- into which you can genuinely withdraw, from time to time, when you are "ALL alone"! And that's the whole fucking point, Kelly: you are NEVER alone! You are so intelligent that you willingly and repeatedly let ALL these significant OTHERS -- yes, ALL these invisible (to me, dear!) busybodies (of which, dear, you, too, are still one!) "up there" (and always listening, talking, and "watching" -- forever eavesdropping!) -- from the System, the Network, the National Company, the National Organization, etc. -- dictate, rule, decide, censor and control your every thought, action, speech and behaviour in your own life (including, dear, your own "significant" inner life).

Or have you no volition to demand -- yes, to ASSERT -- your right to an inner life? No privacy left? Then you must settle the GREAT POLITICAL QUESTION of our time! Not by force (although I myself came from, and was influenced by, the physically and emotionally demonstrative and protesting Sixties) but by the POWER of truth-telling (through ARTISTIC EXPRESSION) -- based upon, not just your own CONSCIENCE but your sense of JUSTICE and power of REASONING too! That's where you, Kelly, have failed me -- and yourself!

You want to come to face-saving and self-approving terms with your past (including, especially, your "love" or romantic life) -- when you realized and recognized that I had hesitated in making you my own -- for defensible reasons of my own! Yes, you tried to explain away -- you had tried to justify -- my eventual or final failure to show conclusive, decisive and responsive (in a positive and favourable sense -- that would serve your self-interest) behaviour in our "relationship" then -- by casting me -- ever since I left you then -- as a "TIMID" villain in that sorrowful, regrettable "love" story of your own making -- as a, in other words, "GUTLESS" and "HOPELESS" man who had "failed" to be a "real man"! (Well, my dear Kelly, do you mean: To win your heart? To win you over to my side? But, Kelly, honestly, and in an enlightened and knowing disposition -- especially recently and lately -- and with the benefit of hindsight, how would -- indeed how could -- that be possible, really?)

Well, Kelly, events have proved that I am nothing of that sort -- a so-called "loser" in matters of sex or love! I've no need to prove to you at all (yes, even right at the beginning of our "budding" but non-blossoming "affair" or relationship -- and certainly not now, or any further)! Surely, by now, you should accept and recognized that I'm my own man! As my sweet dear friend Fann once said (to me and about me): You are always thinking! (The problem is, do you too?)

So, Kelly, that's me for you! I'll always be an uncommon thinking man (even among other uncommon thinking men!) -- trying hard to exercise my inborn faculties, my volition, and my cultivated sensibilities and qualities -- in order NOT to just or merely SURVIVE, EXIST or, worse still, SUBSIST ( in this capitalist postmodern world) but also to LIVE, PLAY and WORK WELL -- yes, on my own rules, terms and conditions -- and in my own thoughtful, quiet, humble, sensitive, sensible, unassuming and extremely serious (often, happily, irreverently and pleasantly so, most of the time!) -- and also highly COMBATIVE, in so many "stubborn" -- or perhaps, I should say, defiant, persistent, insistent and determined -- ways (whenever it is required). The purpose is to protect my personal integrity and self-respect, and also my primary or major goals in life.

PART FOUR

4. Track No. 4:

Be What You Really Are (and Must Be) --

Not What You're Supposed To Be

Kelly, this is not another discursive excursion into "swinging" London (in love with itself; or you with it?). It is about my VIRILE challenges to the invisible busybodies and meddlers ("up there") -- all "merely" and "meaningfully" (and menacingly)listening, talking, "watching" and eavesdropping phonies! No mere (or mean or meaningful) expectation here or there (or anywhere) on my part to just survive! (Even in a sarcastic, thoroughly irreverent and defiant manner!) No, for me, I must also live well, play well, and work well! Keep on coming, these ubiquitous (and officially licensed) bastards! (Tell that to your cunning and noisy -- and noisome! (oh, dry but unclean?) -- colleagues (females and males): yes, all those invisible (and so risible!) busybodies and meddlers ("up there")!

Different images; different voices; different moods; different atmospheres; different feelings; different thoughts! But machines have no soul! No real feelings, not even a little! It's all industrial (albeit, sometimes, industrious) planning and military methods! Kelly, it is all meaningless! All mechanical, robotic and highly infectious bugs -- and forever sucking human blood! Where is the spontaneous, unsophisticated, even naive -- but intuitively pointed sense of fun? To have a large portion of the big Economic Pie? Eat it, then, tell your terrifically invisible pussies and pricks! (Oh, for, and to, an august audience of well-meaning "pansies", "sissies" and "limp-wristed" wastrels, should I be using -- so irrational! -- such violent, abusive, insulting and ill-mannered but jarringly contorted verbal expressions -- especially coming from someone so refined, educated, cultured and cultivated? Surely I can communicate with you, dear Kelly, in a much more delicate, refined, wholesome, healthy-minded, subtle, polite, persuasive, courteous, inoffensive, respectful, well-mannered, pleasant, presentable and non-egoistic manner? Tit for tat? But surely did you not ask for it, Kelly?)

Kelly, who is the real "me" -- the "unkind" soul (now, or at the present moment, and also back then in those years gone by and who, for an unduly long time, was stupidly forced to be so clean-cut, unnaturally and overly mild-mannered, and, furthermore, too gentlemanly -- for his own good, no?); or the genuinely present-day ever-kind one-and-only Nikos Chua (who was supposedly so "mean" to you then -- as obliquely implied by none other than you yourself -- and who is presently now such a completely revitalized and supremely confident and, yes!, soon-to-be long-haired ageing Senior Citizen)? Yes, a wary, self-aware and knowledgeable man, thinking (meaning: questioning) citizen, and a highly skillful -- verbally -- and potent (intellectually) writer in his mellowing mid-fifties who, nonetheless, somehow, still feels it necessary to make his vital philosophical and political stand (yes, the public goal, point, statement and purpose -- of his own private or personal life) eventually known, publicly and openly -- without reservation, hesitation and apology of any kind! How would he do that? By becoming, probably, the first genuinely (i.e., truly, really, sincerely and authentically -- yes, in other words, soulfully!) local-born and basically self-educated and English-speaking Chinese-Singaporean hippie-author-thinker (well, if not in outward or physical appearance -- including the clothes that he would be wearing on that intended special occasion)! This would be in contrast to all those long 36 years in the past when he was mostly, and highly, physically undemonstrative in his personal life and behaviour! But this would certainly NOT be so when it comes to the length of his hair -- yes, on his "big" and "swollen" head, of course! -- on that particular moment of enlightenment, realization and truth-showing, come that day!

Kelly, ageing hippies like me don't "swing" (in London or here in Singapore); we just rock (and roll) with the good or bad times -- which can always be now, right? -- and with our good old proud hippie soul! And we will rock THEM hard -- by making free love (uncorrupted and uncontaminated by the Military-Industrial Personnel with their tainted inferiority complexes)!

We were young then -- simply and almost absolutely in love with the simple Idea -- based on the image of people and places -- and on the sound and voices of songs and singers (like Scott McKenzie's touching paean to the Californian city San Francisco and its wholehearted and effusive welcome to peace-loving visitors -- or the electric folk-rock group The Mamas and the Papas' compellingly evocative Californian Dreamin') in the Sixties -- bearing the hopeful message of love and peace, and inviting us all, again hopefully, to share our class-divided and caste-ridden lives together as fellow brothers and sisters.

Too much importance, really, placed on, or attached to, a "sense" of that place -- or any place, Kelly. That "sense" of a place is determined by TIME -- not by the concrete actualities and practical details of that place by themselves. It's almost about what you yourself really are, at a particular point on the time-scale of your life -- biologically, culturally and historically (or chronologically)!

In the Sixties, there was this simple Idea -- not so much evocative but provocative -- that the younger generation (led by leaders of the hippies' and the protesting students' "counter-culture" movement) should challenge and question the conservative, tradition-bound and Established status quo (with all its stuffy, stifling, repressive and unbearably conventional attitudes, platitudes, beliefs and values -- especially social and moral ones)! Those places in the Sixties in the U.S. where hippies congregated -- like the Californian city San Francisco and that explosive locale for the rock-loving and peace-loving generation, Woodstock (in upstate New York) -- reflected this simple provocative Idea (of challenging and questioning outdated and old-established mores, values and attitudes -- as they have been rendered irrevelant or overtaken by the new changing times).

The (rock) music might have stopped playing now but, at one time, it reflected, loudly, boldly, clearly and infectiously, this "new" Idea of what should -- and could -- have happened (if only the listening, talking, "watching" and eavesdropping Establishment figures and heads had genuinely and positively responded to it by "meddling" -- in the right way, as listening, talking, "watching" and eavesdropping "busybodies" (from "up there") -- that is, yes, by honestly changing the System to reflect their honest acceptance and sincere affirmation, without conditions and reservations, of, precisely, this very "new" Idea -- of a non-conformist life-style, led by self-governing and self-ruling citizens (of the world), according to unconventional values, personal convictions and individualistic attitudes! Its message -- as a fundamental principle of both personal and collective living, in this imperfect world that still sadly and regrettably (for me, at least, as a believer in philosophical anarchism) requires -- or faces -- national governments of all kinds): Self-respecting and self-knowing individualism (but allied to self-disciplining and self-unifying personal efforts and application) is the real SOCIAL GLUE! Don't let these conservatives-cum-traditionalists-cum-capitalists fool or deceive you when they pronounce that it is GROUP CONFORMITY and UNTHINKING OBEDIENCE that will seal our treasured society! (Yes, but where is the freedom then -- after such social sealing and treasured security?)

Kelly, you loved present-day "swinging" London so much (certainly not the city which had existed and was inadvertently but expectedly inspired and thus promoted by the popularity of The Beatles in their heyday in the Sixties then -- during which other cities, like New York and San Francisco, were also all inspired by the spirit, soul and energy not only of The Beatles but also those of the hippies too). But did you not know this present-day London embodies NOT the spirit, soul and aspiration of the hippie generation then but of present-day exploitative, hoarding, receptive, and unproductive postmodern capitalists -- with their fevered and fervent promotion, championing and cultivation of money-making, materialism, mass culture, mass consumerism and commercialism?

Emotionally, you were drawn to lovely "London in Love". (Was it the music, later, that you were listening to -- and which was affecting your recalling of that day or night or moment in London then that misled you into such an "impressed" and "impressive" opinion of or personal regard for London? Oh, so much feelings -- all instigated by a very evocative city indeed!) But is it all there is to it, Kelly -- when one visits a foreign city, especially for the first time? Yes, intellectually, you had no consciousness of what London could be -- for a thinking person (like me)! Should London -- or could it -- not be provocative too? Why, I ask you: Is London all about you yourself (yes, your responses and feelings for the place, etc.) -- or is it just about the place itself -- yes, by itself)?

No one you, presumably, had met, in this "swinging", music-loving and lovely city, London -- yes, it seems to me, on reflection -- would probably have, and unprompted too, volunteered to want a keen, perceptive and intelligent response from you, dear, by expressing their curiosity, inquisitiveness or sheer interest to you, in person (and were there such Londoners who were so bothered enough to do so?) by asking you: What are the rest of the world's cities -- which you had been visiting diligently during your year-long sojourn in the world at large -- doing ? Your Singapore? What about Calcutta? Stockholm? Tokyo? Could it be so, Kelly?

Tokyo! Let's not talk about that gay city again! But I want to make a final remark: Tokyo is not even a city in love with itself but one for those who love perverted, weird and disturbing sex (all centred on masturbation)! Gay Tokyo is, too bad, neither evocative nor provocative -- especially for a thinking and intuitive man like me (who is basically NOT an obsessive lover and undiscerning admirer -- but just an intelligent and appreciative user -- of modern technology and its inventions and mechanical products). Yes, Tokyo is a city virtually dominated by electricity-supplied and electricity-operated machines and gadgets. My hippy outlook and artistic soul simply don't fit in there! The male residents of Tokyo neither feel nor think! It's all about reacting (with, basically, their physical or bodily sensations -- and in their own heartless, soulless, and mindless ways of INTER-ACTING with (or, to me, unresponsive "responding" to) the damn fucking electronics- and electricity-based machines and mechanical gadgets! Oh, Heavens! What an infantile dream-world and "amusing" playground for youngish minds who, I contend, willl never truly grow up!It's all about mechanical playthings and mechanized living -- with the mainstream life of its residents driven perpetually by an obsessively computerized life-style!

Yes, Kelly, to dear old me (and I'm admittedly getting on in age), this Westernized, modernized and yet still Oriental city -- and its discordant and disharmonious life-style is notably bizarre! (And, yes, this is the land of Zen Buddhism!) But truly, I find all this material development unreal -- in a land noted for spiritual development! It is, quite simply, surreal! (And that's my humble judgement!) It does not even resemble a historically memorable city-scape and environment that is built in the cultural "form" of -- and as an architectural "substance" in, yes, a grand work of artistic and soulful expression -- by those involved or responsible for the construction or maintenance or even renewal of a modern city! Rather, it's an overly-rated (and, perhaps, too highly-populated) city which, having been expanded -- probably in an unthinking manner? no? -- into a large dream-park -- and now regarded and treated by its inhabitants or residents as a fanciful playground or theme-park or as a supposedly desirable and representative microcosm in our bizarre postmodern capitalist dream-world! What do you think is my own personal stand on our own idea of wanting to be regarded and treated as a global city? (Or are we already one? So many capitalist mouth-pieces with their enduring and, of course, mainstream, postmodern attitudes and outlook and values from the Singapore Establishment!)

THE POLITICS AND SCIENCE OF MODERN GOVERNMENTS (OR, HOW TO CONTROL THE CITIZENS' MINDS -- THROUGH THE USE OF MODERN TELECOMMUNICATIONS TECHNOLOGY))

2009-04-16T18:17:00.000-07:00

OF ORBITING

COMMUNICATIONS

SATELLITES, TRAVELLING

RADIO SIGNALS AND WAVES,

RESPONDING

BRAIN ELECTRICAL IMPULSES,

OPERATING

WIRELESS SURVEILLANCE

TECHNOLOGIES, RELAYING

ELECTRONIC IMAGES AND

VOICES, AND A HOPELESSLY

BRAINWASHED SOCIETY!

Mistakenly but perhaps inevitably, relativity became confused with relativism .... No one was more distressed than Einstein by this public misapprehension.

-- PAUL JOHNSON, "A Relativistic World"
MODERN TIMES: The World from the Twenties to the Nineties
(Revised Edition) [New York: HarperCollins Publishers, 1991]

Electric charge is an inherent property of matter.

Electronic inter-communication, inter-connecting and inter-linking human beings over a distance, is made possible by the use of communications satellites orbiting above the earth -- relaying (receiving and transmitting) radio signals or waves or beams to and from and among their points or locations on earth, with the help of ground stations on earth (electrical installations).

Such radio and television communications systems carry and relay radio and television signals (electronic images and voices; or electronic pictures and sounds) through space by radio waves.

Modern governments can control our citizens' brains -- with their electrical impulses -- with the transmission and reception of such electric radio signals, which affect and influence our mental activities: our consciousness; our sensations; our thoughts; our speeches; our memories; our emotions; our character; our behaviour; and our skills.

Used by modern governments against detainees (political or criminal), such telecommunication technology and surveillance techniques, based on communications satellite systems, and using some, or a combination or all of these electronic systems, devices and instruments (such as radio, handphone, broadcasting and telecasting), can be employed as the basis for brainwashing (IN OFTEN IRRATIONAL AND BRUTISH WAYS) troublesome, unruly, disruptive and other targetted citizens -- by isolating them, by (personally) humiliating them, by disorientating them, by (systematically) indoctrinating them, and by (alternately ) punishing and rewarding these victims, whose individual wills are subjected to such political manipulation, generally without their knowledge, and against their wishes.

PERSONAL COMMENTARY:

For more than 36 long years now, the Singapore Government has been trying to brainwash me. It is against my wishes indeed -- and hence I'm unhappy and unwilling to be such a victim. It is also done without my knowledge -- and hence I "can't tell pork from veal"! I have, for too long, been working, playing and living poorly in the dark. But I will tell you this -- positively: I will not let myself be subjected to any such political manipulation any further by Singaporean politicos!

I'm going to dig out the crucial identities and personal particulars of ALL those men (and, especially, women) who are -- and have been -- behind the (main) scene taking place on the front stage -- from their secret hide-outs at the backstage (controllong and influencing the events of my life -- as well as my ideas and my personality, since when they first came into the picture of my life -- from, yes, to repeat, way back when?).

All those wasted, lost and missing years ago -- and I was totally in the dark ("couldn't tell pork from veal," truly!)! And only now do I have any recourse to set things right and in the proper order of my values, principles and rights!

Yes, I'm turning to myself for help! I'm my own best source of help! (Who can really aid me, in any way?) I understand my own needs, goals, values, principles, views and rights better than anyone else! And what do I know about this small country and its people? That it is divided by such differences as race, religion, sect, clan, language, dialect, sectarianism and fanaticism! And that it requires a ruler who knows economics and the scienceof administration!

I know best my own manly abilities and virtues -- such as courage, confidence, resourcefulness, self-understanding, ambition, and my indomitable spirit and strong desire for attaining achievement as a dissenting modernist working-class writer!

I wish Socrates, Plato, and Aristotle are in charge or control! They are at least more accessible to a writer and intellectual like me! Yes, more mature and wiser enough to perform their tasks and roles -- in productive unison and harmonious synchronisation -- oh! that's the way! [Not in the way of those childish, boyish, girlish, playful and infantile -- but extremely cruel "human beings" who didn't -- and still don't -- know what is RESPECT and PRIVACY (especially for a thinking Senior Citizen like me)!]

Yes, these controllers are HYPOCRITES! Hypocrisy is the greatest crime of all! It is the cause of so much human sufferings, miseries, anger, pain, hurt, sorrow, bitterness, misfortunes, destruction (of the self and of others) and even death! (Hey, Tan Hong Huat, you're full of it! Do you know what it means to have harmony, beauty, originality, independence, individuality, neatness, democracy, liberty, opportunity, honesty, truthfulness, and unyielding hope? Yes, for those determined to live, play and work well? Do they have them -- as much as I do? By, and through, sheer resistance and persistence!) And by what kind of power -- and what kind of leaders -- are we going to be ruled? Traditional? Religious? Racial? Economic? Military? Or the great ELITE? (who has acquired the ideology and the techniques and, and above all, the VERNACULAR of modern Western politics!).

First Statement On My Intention Now:

I declare that I prefer to remain as I am now -- admittedly at a financial and logistical disadvantage -- rather than to sell myself to the fucking PAP Singapore -- especially when it is at its most egregious moment!! I just want to fight for my self-respect and to defend my own privacy and rights! (Especially at home in my own house!) That's all I've got to say!

To paraphrase Neil Young:

The first thing you people have to understand about me is that no one -- not even any "leader" from the PAP Government or The Establishment -- tells me what to do! Never! It's just NOT going to work! I'm not going to listen, simple as that! What I'm saying is that I don't give a damn! Never have! Never will! And I do what I do, and I always have done! It's all I can do! I can't do anything else! If that means fighting against the Establishment over every article or book every time I write, then that's the way it's gotta be! It doesn't really bother me! You can't stand still! You don't stop, ever! If you stop, you're dead! And I'm not ready for that!

So I keep writing! And I don't care what people think! I just want to keep writing! I want to keep my mind sharp, my heart sensitive, my body alive, and my senses alert. Hey, that's my work! Working well! And to live well? My aim of living well has a criterion -- of genuine value! And to play well? Happiness, for me, must lie --always! -- in the present (as an achievement!).

Second Statement On My Intention Now:

I'm struggling as an independent, freedom-loving and thinking individualist against the collective spirit of a whole society (as determined by the elitist Establishment) -- sadly fettered by modern organizations, modern unreflectiveness and modern popular passions. (Are you listening to me, and receiving this new truth of mine -- my precious thoughts -- with a positive and respectful responsiveness?)

I've supposedly or allegedly "dangerous" thoughts about our social and political system and they are worried and fearful that I'll "infect" all these square holes and strait-laced roses (and yet still many others who're all too compromised by the system -- yes, to the hilt!) with my civilised "discontents" -- that's the position of someone who has been, for too long and inexplicably -- to yours truly, considered (i) a round peg in a square hole; and (ii) a horny thorn among the strait-laced roses (in the female comunity of the Estabnlishment)!

To paraphrase all those romantic singers and lyricists:

I'm a man who will fight for the honour of those square holes and strait-laced roses -- for the glory of LOVE! Ha! Ha! Ha! [Well, those Ladies in Red are certainly more desirable -- surely more honorable and gloriously memorable -- than those Ladies of the Night, who were -- at least and in reality and in actual practice -- AT (and BY) my side, and with whom I'd penetrative sexual intercourse in such a fitting manner! -- ah yes!, those wonderful Asian (especially and most recently, Chinese) Beauties that I've been patronizing for so long now!]

On Meeting the Wise (And Invisible) Leaders of the Singapore Establishment/Government

2009-04-15T21:04:00.000-07:00

WHERE I LIVE,

LIFE GETS BETTER!

(Even though these invisible "people" up there -- always listening and othen talking -- are going to continue to be so intrusive, invasive and maybe even abusive...)

QUESTIONS FROM

THE ESTABLISHMENT

(AND MY CONFIDENT REPLIES):

ISD/SPF/MSD/PAP/SG:

Fucker, you're feeling so safe and secure -- ensconced inside your writer's "office" -- your "mountain-island hide-out" -- filled with various documents and evidences (paper ones!) of governmental lies, misdeeds and crimes -- do you know that your old relative also knows about your "plight"? -- yes!, I urge you to share this knowledge of government excesses and criminalities with the Singapore public!

I don't count on your preserving our dignity, self-respect, honour and self-image (yes, to let us NOT be deflated -- in terms of our fuckingly BIG, BIG EGOs)!

Well, let the public READ what you will reveal in your blogs, you blockhead and numskull! But what else can they do?

It's just coffeetable talk!

Let them overstuff themselves with all your "revealing" fuckshits! [For that is what they really are -- all your "important revelations"! For we'll prove, beyond all reasonable doubts, that you are just an ex-psycho who is also, yes, only a bitter ex-MSD employee (hmm...) out to create trouble and mischief for the PAP Government, by resurrecting old events and old "criminal" cases of what you, a registered psycho at Woodbridge, are going to tell the public about -- the so-called "truth" behind all this VENEER of Propriety, Goodness and highly-trained Ability -- by framing the PAP Government for its so-called abuses of power and for misleading the public with its attempt to disguise and cover up its past misdeeds!]

David Chua Chuan Seah :

Hey, you buggers! I fuck the PAP and SG leaders with a clear and good conscience -- just what you idiotic and moronic bastards deserve! That's why I'm resisting you people!

PAP/MSD/ISD/SPF/SG :

Why do you NOT support ex-Preident Bush of the United States?

My Damning Answer:

To quote Winston Churchill, the great British Statesman (of war-time Great Britain): "The statesman who yields to war fever must realize that, once the signal is given, he is no longer the master of policy but the slave of unforeseeable and uncontrollable events."

Sirs, with due respect, isn't that what was exactly happening in the War in Iraq?

PAP/SG/ISD/SPF/MSD :

Why do you still insist on being a dissenter?

My Honest, Refined, Manly, Gentle and Intelligent Reply:

To quote Edward R. Murrow (pioneer Western TV journalist): "We must not confuse dissent with disloyalty. When the loyal opposition (and that includes dissenters who aren't political opponents from a political party -- my own comment...) dies, I think the soul of a country dies with it." Think about it!

Members of Singapore's Arts, Culture, Literary and Academic (and Journalistic) Community:

Should one's ENERGY (assuming one has that kind of exuberance and infectious ENERGY in the first place) -- yes, should one's enthusiastic energy, as a writer (or as a member of the Arts, Culture, Literary, Academic and Journalistic Community), be MOSTLY, or if at all, DRIVEN by one's INTELLECT primarily?

My Artistically Challenging (Because Unlicensed) Reply:

Primarily, of course! The trouble with the local press is that it is a supine and acquiescient part of the government-controlled mass media in Singapore!

PAP Government Leaders/Postmodern Members of the Establishment:

Hey, you fucking bastard! Be realistic! We can't tell people the truth! Get that into your fucking head!

David Chua Chuan Seah :

I dispute that claim: I can still tell the truth -- yes, to tell it like it is! I am not one of you people! I know which side I am on. Otherwise, we will all become mad!

MY LAST WORD ON MY RECENT IMPRISONMENT AT QUEENSTOWN PRISON, SINGAPORE

2009-04-15T06:05:00.000-07:00

THE WINDS OF CHANGE --

BLOWING FINALLY AT

QUEENSTOWN REMAND

PRISON

THE MOMENT OF TRUTH-

TELLING

BY A DISSENTING WRITER

WITH A VOICE OF

CONSCIENCE

OF THIS TIME, OF THAT PLACE,

IN THE EVENT, UNDER

THE CIRCUMSTANCES --

IN THE END, A GLORIOUS

AFFIRMATION OF MYSELF --

AS A MAN, HUMAN BEING,

CITIZEN AND

UNCOMPROMISING,

NON-CONFORMIST

WORKING CLASS WRITER

When the children sing, then the new world begins ....
No more presidents, and all the wars will end!

-- WHITE LION, When The Children Cry

"Truth crushed to earth shall rise again," and the opinion which would finally result from investigation does not depend on how anybody may actually think. But the reality of that which is real does depend on the real fact that investigation is destined to lead, at last, if continued long enough, to a belief in it.

-- CHARLES S. PIERCE (1839 - 1914), "How To Make Our Ideas Clear" (1878)

Where was I and what was I doing during the last two months?

I HAD last posted my independent blog entry sometime in February 2009. What was the lapse into (expected and predictable?) silence all of a sudden all about?

Yes, I was indeed arrested by the law enforcement authorities -- not presumably for my political writings but for the alleged criminal offence of shoplifting [to which I had pleaded guilty to the Honourable judges in our Kangaroo Court and for which I was sentenced to nearly 2 long, monotonous months, from 18.2.2009 to 15.4.2009, in jail at Queenstown Prison (where I was unfortunate enough to have met the "Psycho from Chicago" -- a truly sick bastard! -- at the Sick Bay). This period of imprisonment included, at the beginning, a bizarre 13 days of incarceration at the IMH, where I was remanded in the ward specifically designed for observation, by the psychiatrists, of those who are suspected to be "criminally insane"! (This was the ward where, on the last night of my stay there, I was so emotionally affected that I cried unabashedly and declared, to myself -- or to perhaps anyone out there, yes, the invisible listeners and talkers! -- that my greatest wish then is to emigrate to the Land of the Free -- America! To seek fame, fortune and freedom!)

In the early weeks of my imprisonment at Queenstown Remand Prison, I kept asking myself and those invisible bastards, repeatedly, like a hippie from Sixties slowly getting stoned: Why am I here? What am I doing here? I shouldn't be here! Well, dear fellow readers and bloggers, I survived all that basically boring prison experiences and here I am, once again, letting it all hang out -- with renewed energy and enthusiasm and a stronger sense of purpose. (But the sheer boredom was a blessing in disguise: The time spent there could have been one of the -- or even THE -- worst experiences of my life -- had those invisible bastards succeeded in executing their crazed "scenarios"!)

And why wasn't it so? Thank Heavens (who else?) for what took place in my prison cell as a member of the Artistic Community of the human race! For I was able, inadvertently or unintentionally, to cause a great commotion or stir or upheaval in this great damn prison building -- inside one of this Queenstown Remand Prison cell, where I stunned the no-nonsense prison officers -- and by extension, all the dull Singapore Government authoritative figures -- with a masterly virtuoso artistic performance on my drumming kit -- in fact, none other than the plastic kit box used to contain our prison belongings -- with such emotional sensitivity and power and undeniable artistic integrity, as I beat away at my "drum" loudly, confidently and authoritatively -- for two amazing days and one glorious night! It was indeed History made in prison by a special citizen and winning writer! Yes, that prison-cell's location for my artful "drum-beating" in a magical two-day-and-one-night session was for a thorough and combined display of my powerful, confident and resurgent mind, heart, soul and bodily sensations! It was a wonderful affirmation of myself -- as a man, human being, citizen and writer! Needless to say, for daring to display such "offensive" and "insubordinate" show of rebellion, attitude and ill-discipline, I was duly punished under internal prison rules and regulations! But what a triumph of my indomitable spirit! (And what an impressive surprise it was -- to even my own self!)

Well, one of these days in my old age, as the sun shines down on the placid water of a lake (on whose shore I would be resting by in one of those fine days of my retirement), a question would be asked by a child of tomorrow: Why did you do it? Why? And I would reply to this child by my side: Well, in the fucking prison cell,I just did what I did, what I had to do -- instinctively, emotionally, and intuitively: I simply reacted and responded to the agitated state of mind I was in at that time; to the confused situation I was forced to be put into (namely, being placed into solitary confinement -- after being caught masturbating in another cell by disgusted, disapproving and complaining fellow prison-mates); and, lastly, to the realisation and consciousness of what I would be facing and experiencing if I was brought down -- by those fucking bastardised controllers! -- to the disordered condition of mental and bodily depravation, degradation and devastation -- a reaction based on the fucking "scenarios" suggested to me, by the fucking bastards (those idiotic and moronic invisible controllers!), earlier at IMH's Criminally Insane Wards --during those crazy 13 days of my semi-conscious state of awareness!

Well, I would also tell this child of tomorrow: You gotta make your own kind of music -- as a rock balladeer used to sing -- and sing your own special songs, even if nobody else sing no more! (And I did just that -- beating my special and unique "drum" with total abandon in the fucking prison cell! It turned out to be a tour de force!)

I had started the fire in my heart for the great confrontation ahead! -- with the help of all those penetrating eyes, pervasive ears, and ubiquitous mouths orbiting high up there Stunnng! in the great blue wonderful sky! Stuning! All these important events and happenings occuring inmy own lifeime -- working their tricks on me, all the way right through my whole miserable life so far! And I do wonder, still I greatly wonder: Who will truly stop the damn fucking rain? (A waiter like me? Practising politics? But I'm still in the mood for a great melody -- spinning my songs for the long, long nights ahead! Yes, sing me a song tonight, Piano Man! And I feel the minutes ticking by..... I don't feel the hours as they fly ......

MY LAST WORD ON THESE FUCKING BASTARDS -- THESE INVISIBLE CONTROLLERS:

All of them are imbeciles -- ALL! (Life unbearable? Or work unbearable? Or living itself unbearable?)

Let me tell you this, guys and gals: As long as one can still see the light in the dark (cell), one should be clear, firm, definite, certain, sure and convinced about what one does and says. That is all!

The Grave and Severe Crimes Of Those Who Belong To The Establishment -- And The Appropriate Punishment For These Moronic and Barbaric Human Beings

2009-02-10T17:17:00.000-08:00

DAVID CHUA CHUAN SEAH'S
PROPOSED SENTENCES -- AS JUST AND SEVERE PUNISHMENT FOR THOSE MEMBERS OF THE ESTABLISHMENT (WHO ARE GUILTY OF COMMITTING ACTS OF MALIGNITY, WRONGDOING, INEPTITUDE, DISHONESTY, ILLEGALITY AND PERVERSITY AGAINST THE COMPLAINANT -- YOURS TRULY, THE FEARLESS AND INGENIOUS WRITER WHO HAS BEEN MAKING NUMEROUS SHATTERING ACCUSATIONS AGAINST THE ESTABLISHMENT SINCE LAST YEAR):

AN INCOMPLETE LIST OF THE NAMES OF THE CONCERNED DEFENDANTS -- GUILTY, COWARDLY, LYING AND CUNNING SINGAPORE CITIZENS (INCLUDING OFFICERS AND MEMBERS OF THE GOVERNMENT; CORPORATE LEADERS, MEMBERS AND EMPLOYEES; FAMILY MEMBERS AND VARIOUS INDIVIDUALS UP-TO-NOW IN SECRET HIDING) -- AND MY PROPOSED SENTENCES ON THEM:

(A) FAMILY MEMBERS (AS DEFENDANTS) :

LOW GEOK SENG (SENTENCE: DEATH BY HANGING);

DERRICK CHUA SENG SEAH (SENTENCE : 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

MIMI CHOONG ( SENTENCE: MAXIMUM 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

TAN BEE HONG (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

TAN BEE HAR (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

TAN BEE SUAT (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

TAN BEE HOON (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

TAN BEE HONG'S HUSBAND (SENTENCE: DEATH BY HANGING);

TAN BEE HAR'S HUSBAND (SENTENCE: DEATH BY HANGING);

TAN BEE SUAT'S HUSBAND (SENTENCE: DEATH BY HANGING);

TAN BEE HOON'S HUSBAND (SENTENCE: DEATH BY HANGING);

TAN HONG CHYE ("HONG CHYE") : (SENTENCE: 25 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

TAN CHEE TIONG ("AH TIONG") : (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

"AH KEOK" (SENTENCE: 20 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

TAN THIAN HOCK ("AH HOCK"): (SENTENCE: 20 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

"AH SOH" ("AH HOCK'S" WIFE): (SENTENCE: 20 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

TAN CHEE KEONG ("AH HOCK'S" SON) : (SENTENCE: 15 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

DON CHUA TIONG SEAH (SENTENCE: 25 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

CHUA KIM LIAN ("AH LENG"): (SENTENCE: 15 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

TAN KIM KEE ("AH KEE") : (SENTENCE: 10 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

CHAN OI LIN (DERRICK CHUA'S WIFE): (SENTENCE: 20 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

SET ENG TECK (HUSBAND OF HELEN CHUA CHWEE LIAN, MY ELDER SISTER) : (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

PATRICIA NG EN BEE ("AH BEE"): (SENTENCE: 20 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

KANE CHEN (HUSBAND OF PATRICIA NG EN BEE) : (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

CHUA THIAM SEAH ("AH THIAM") : (SENTENCE : AT LEAST 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

CHUA CHWEE LIAN ("AH HONG"; OR, NESSIE, MY STEP-SISTER) : (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF OF IMPRISONMENT);

CHUA (KIM) LIAN ("AH LIAN", MY ELDER STEP-SISTER) : (SENTENCE: 25 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

LINDA NG EN HOON ("AH HOON") : (SENTENCE: 20 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT)

(B) FORMER CLASSMATES AND SCHOOLMATES (AS DEFENDANTS):

(a) NORFOLK PRIMARY SCHOOL:

(i) CHEE LAI KHEONG (SENTENCE: 20 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

(ii) TAN SIAK SOON (SENTENCE: 20 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

(iii) WONG MANG KWANG (SENTENCE: 20 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

(iv) ISKANDER SHAH (SENTENCE: 20 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

(v) WONG TAT SAN (SENTENCE: 20 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT)

(b) VICTORIA SCHOOL:

(i) ONG HOCK TEE (SENTENCE: 25 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

(ii) A. PADMANATHAN (SENTENCE: 20 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

(iii) TAY CHENG HWEE (SENTENCE: 20 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

(iv) LEE FOO NAM (SENTENCE: 20 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

(v) KOK PAK CHOW (SENTENCE: DEATH BY HANGING);

(vi) LIM YEW HOCK (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

(vii) LEE YEAW BIN (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

(viii) HENG YAM PENG (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

(ix) (MR) QUAH SIEW HONG (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

(x) CHAN WAI MENG (SENTENCE: 25 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

(xi) GOH MING TUNG (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

(xii) LEONG FOOK LUEN (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

(xiii) EDMUND LIM (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

(ix) LEONG CHEE WHYE (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

(x) ONG WEE HOE (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

(xi) CHEW LOY CHEOW (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

LEE KUM CHEOK (CAPTAIN & OC, KILO COMPANY, SSL, SAFTI: 1972): (SENTENCE: 40 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

YAP POON ANN (2ND LIEUTENANT, 2ND OFFICER-IN-CHARGE, KILO COMPANY, SSL, SAFTI: 1972): (SENTENCE: 35 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

CHAN KWANG MENG (CORPORAL, PLATOON SERGEANT, ALFA COMPANY, SBMT, CHANGI AIR BASE: 1973) : (SENTENCE: 40 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

JEYARATNAM (CORPORAL, SECTION LEADER, ALFA COMPANY, SBMT, CHANGI AIR BASE: 1973 - 1974) : (SENTENCE: 20 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

TAN KOK CHIANG (CORPORAL, PLATOON SERGEANT, ALFA COMPANY, SBMT, CHANGI AIR BASE : 1973 - 1974) : (SENTENCE: 20 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

TAN KAI YONG (SERGEANT, COMPANY SERGEANT MAJOR, ALFA COMPANY, SBMT, CHANGI AIR BASE : 1973 - 1974) : (SENTENCE: 35 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

TOH CHIN BAN (CORPORAL, SECTION COMMANDER, ALFA COMPANY, SBMT, CHANGI AIR BASE: 1973 - 1974) : (SENTENCE: 40 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

KOH WEE KHIANG (SERGEANT, COMPANY SERGEANT MAJOR, SBMT, CHANGI AIR BASE : 1973 - 1974) : (SENTENCE : 35 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
ANG BUCK THO (CORPORAL, SECTION COMMANDER, 'A' COY, SBMT, CHANGI AIR BASE: 1973) : (SENTENCE : 25 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT)

(D) FORMER COLLEAGUES AND SUPERIORS IN MILITARY SECURITY DEPARTMENT, MINDEF (AS DEFENDANTS) :

RETIRED COLONEL (2009) TAN HONG HUAT (CAPTAIN IN 1976); AND DIRECTOR OF TOP SECRET PROJECT (INVOLVING ME AS THE UNWILLING AND UNHAPPY "IMPLANTEE" SINCE 1976) : (SENTENCE: DEATH BY HANGING);

ALSO:

MR LEE (INVESTIGATION OFFICER: 1976) : (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

HEAD, VETTING SECTION (NAME YET TO BE RECALLED) : 1976: (SENTENCE: 35 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

DAVID ONG (INVESTIGATION OFFICER: 1976) : (SENTENCE: 40 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

LIEUTENANT ANG (INVESTIGATION OFFICER : 1976) : (SENTENCE: 35 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

IRENE FONG (HEAD, REGISTRY: 1976) : (SENTENCE: 20 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

NANCY LIM (P.A. TO DEPUTY HEAD, MSD : 1976): (SENTENCE: 20 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

PHYLLIS BALAKRISHNAN (CLERICAL OFFICER : 1976) : (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

MELINDA CHEW (CLERICAL OFFICER: 1976) : (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

(MS) LUM (CLERK: 1976) : (SENTENCE: 5 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

(MS) OH (CLERK: 1976) : (SENTENCE: 5 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);

(MS) CATHERINE: (CLERK: 1976) : (SENTENCE: 10 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT).

(E) VERY IMPORTANT CORPORATE LEADERS AND PROFESSIONALS (BUSINESSMEN; FINANCIERS; BANKERS; INVESTORS; COMPANY DIRECTORS; ETC. -- AS DEFENDANTS) : WHO BRIBE, EXPLOIT AND CHEAT MEMBERS OF THE LOWER AND MIDDLE CLASSES; WHO MARKET THEIR PRODUCTS AND SERVICES WITH OVERWHELMINGLY EXCESSIVE GREED; AND WHO EVEN HOARD THOSE ITEMS, ASSETS AND/OR PROPERTIES AS "THEIRS" -- IN OTHER WORDS, AS THEIR "LEGITIMATE" WEALTH -- BUT WHICH ARE NOT TRULY THEIRS, AND ARE STILL, NEVERTHELESS, IN THEIR POSSESSION) :

MR. NG SER MIANG (SENTENCE : 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. TAN HONG HUAT [SENTENCE : 40 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT, TO BE SERVED CONCURRENTLY WITH THE SENTENCE ON TAN HONG HUAT AS CITED IN (D)];
MR. KWEK LENG JOO (SENTENCE : 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. M. RAJARAM (SENTENCE : 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. KOH SOO KEONG (SENTENCE : 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. GOPINATH PILLAI (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. S. CHANDRA DAS (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. VIJAY IVENGAR (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. SAT PAL KHATTAR (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. WONG PENG WAI (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. THAM POH CHEONG (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. CHUA THAI KEONG (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. ALPHONSUS CHIA (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. QUEK CHER TECK (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. PATRICK K. K. LEE (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. CEDRIC CHAN (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. LIM FANG CHEE (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. THONG PAO-YI (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MS. ANGELINE SUPARTO (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MS. LOW SIN LENG (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MS. QUEK BEE LAN (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MS. CHONG SIAK CHING (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MS. KATHY LAI (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. CHIN KON YUEN (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. NG KIAN SENG (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. RONALD TAN (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. LIM CHIN WAH (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. KWAN PECK LENG (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. TAN CHENG HUA (SENTERNCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. LAI SECK KHUI (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS 0F IMPRISONMENT);
MR. HENRY HENG JEE KWANG (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. HEE JOH LIANG (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
DR. WONG TAI (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. ER KWONG WAH (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
DR. HONG HAI (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. LIM JIM KOON (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. CHEW KAH CHUAN (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. WONG SIM LAM (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. ZHONG SHENG JIAN (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. DAVID TEO (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. CLEMENT TANG (SENTRENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. NG KAR CHEONG (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. KOH TIAK CHYE (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. LESLIE K. C. LIM (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. EE TAI TING (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. KHOR POH HWA (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. SAM GOI S. H. (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. TAN KIAN CHEW (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. PHUA TING HOW (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. JOHN CHEN (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. LIM KEE-MING (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. LIM NEO CHIAN (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. LEE BOON HUAT (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. GIRIJA PANDE (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. S. ISWARAN (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. INDERJIT SINGH (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. KARAN SINGH THAKRAL (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. TONY CHEW (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. PHILIP ENG (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. LEE THENG KIAT (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. ZULKIFLI BAHARUDIN (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. WONG FONG FUI (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. BARRY DESKER (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR./MS. BACHTIAR KARIM @ LIM EK TJIOE (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. CHRIS KOH )SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
DR. LIM CHEOK PENG (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. SAUT HUTAURUK (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. PETER TAN (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. SUNIL KAUSHAL (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. KUOK KOON HONG (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT);
MR. YEW SUNG PEI (SENTENCE: 30 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT).

AUTHOR'S NOTE: THE ABOVE-MENTIONED LIST OF NAMES (OF CORPORATE LEADERS AND PROFESSIONALS) WAS PUBLISHED IN THE NONDESCRIPT ANNUAL REPORT, pages : 104 -107 ( 2003/2004) OF THE HIGHLY MYSTERIOUS BUT HIGH-POWERED STEERING COMMITTEES (WITH NETWORKS IN CHINA, INDIA AND INDONESIA) and INCLUDES THE VITAL NAMES OF EXCO MEMBERS (SINGAPORE EDUCATION INTERNATIONAL).

ADDENDUM (ONE):

LIST OF NAMES OF WITNESSES AND OBSERVERS (BOTH FOREIGNERS AND SINGAPORE CITIZENS) TO APPEAR IN COURT IN A PUBLIC TRIAL, BASED ON MY STUNNING AND UNFLINCHING ACCUSATIONS, AGAINST THE SINGAPORE ESTABLISHMENT (AS OFFICIALLY FILED IN COURT DOCUMENTS), OF THEIR FOLLOWING ILLEGAL, UNJUST, DEVIOUS AND CRUEL ACTIONS, NAMELY :

(I) THEIR VIOLATIONS OF MY HUMAN RIGHTS, AS A MAN AND CITIZEN -- THROUGH THE USE OF THEIR DISRESPECTFUL INSULTS, UNFAIR AND IRRATIONAL COMMENTS, DISHONEST CRITICISMS, MORONIC MALTREATMENT AND IDIOTIC (AND VERY INHUMANE) ABUSES; AND,

(II) THEIR DENIAL OF MY RIGHTS AS A PROFESSIONAL TO PRACTISE AND WORK AS A PUBLISHED WRITER (OF PRINTED MAGAZINE ARTICLES AND BOOKS); AND,

(III) HENCE, THE DESTRUCTION, BY THESE SELF-ADMITTEDLY FUCK-SHITTERS, YES, THESE SELF-PROMOTING SURVEILLANCE OFFICERS, FORMER CLASSMATES, AND OTHER TOTALLY IRRELEVANT, INSIGNIFICANT, SUPERFICIAL, FLIPPANT, AND INCONSEQUENTIAL NON-ENTITIES (MASQUERADING AS "GOOD", "ABLE", "FAIR", "HONEST", "CULTURED" AND "INTELLIGENT" (BUT REALLY CUNNING, SMUG AND FINANCIALLY VERY SECURE AND LOADED) JOURNALISTS, FAMILY MEMBERS, AND ALL THE REST OF THESE MAGNIFICENT, UNIFORMED AND METHODICAL FUCKING MACHINES -- WHO CONSTANTLY DEFY AND DENY MY OWN RIGHT TO ATTEMPT, FOR MORE THAN 36 YEARS NOW, TO LIVE, WORK AND PLAY (INCLUDING INDULGING IN SEXUAL FOREPLAY AND INTERCOURSE WITH PRETTY, YOUNG WOMEN) -- WITH RESPECT TO MY NATURAL NEED TO EXPRESS, FREELY AND UNRESTRICTED, MY NATURAL, UNDIVIDED AND DEVELOPING PERSONALITY, CHARACTER, GOALS, PRINCIPLES, IDEAS, EDUCATION, LEARNING, KNOWLEDGE, LIFE-EXPERIENCES, VALUES, VIEWS AND MY PREDOMINANTLY INTROVERTED OUTLOOK AND BEHAVIOUR.

(A) FROM THE ENTERTAINMENT AND MASS MEDIA INDUSTRY

MR. BOB DYLAN ;
MR. CHRIS HO (WRITER; ROCK MUSICIAN; REBEL; SINGER);
MS. SYLVIA TOH PAIK CHOO (COMIC WRITER; TOURIST GUIDE; FREQUENT WORLD-WIDE TRAVELLER);
MS. FANN WONG (MOVIE AND TV STAR; AND FASHION MODEL);
MR. JACK NEO (MOVIE PRODUCER AND DIRECTOR; IMPRESSARIO; SINGER; NIGHTCLUB COMEDIAN; FAMILY MAN);
MS. FELICIA CHIN (TV STAR);
MR. CHRISTOPHER LEE (TV AND MOVIE STAR)

(B) FROM THE ARTS , LITERARY AND CULTURAL COMMUNITY

MR. SAUL BELLOW;
MS. REBECCA CHUA (NOVELIST; FEMINIST AUTHOR; AND SINGLE);
MS CATHERINE LIM (NOVELIST; SHORT-STORY WRITER; MOTHER; FEMINIST COMMENTATOR; AND CULTURAL CRITIC);
MS KUN BEK (MAGAZINE WRITER; CULTURAL CRITIC; STILL SINGLE)

MS. CONSTANCE SINGAM (FORMER HEAD OF AWARE);
MS CLAIRE CHANG (FORMER HEAD OF AWARE);

ADDENDUM (TWO):

THE MOMENT OF MODERNIST TRUTH-TELLING:

ABOUT ME (MYSELF) : DAVID CHUA CHUAN SEAH

I'M AN EXTREMELY WELL-READ, ARTICULATE AND VERY INTELLIGENT NON-CONFORMIST WORKING CLASS WRITER AND VOICE OF DISSENT WITH AN INTELLECTUAL, MORAL, ARTISTIC AND SOCIAL CONSCIENCE. I'M NOT, BY ANY MEANS, AN OBEDIENT, UNDISCERNING AND SUBMISSIVE "MODEL CITIZEN" -- THOUGH, AS FAR AS IT GOES IN PRACTICE, I'M BASICALLY RESPECTFUL, POLITE AND LAW-ABIDING TOWARDS FIGURES OF AUTHORITY. (TO THE POLITICAL AUTHORITIES: PLEASE DO NOT IGNORE MY VALID CONCERNS AND ACCUSATIONS.)

WITH THE SAME WAY OF THINKING AS OTHER EQUALLY RESPECTABLE "MODEL CITIZENS", I'LL TRY TO "TOE" THE PARTY LINE! I'M ANYTHING BUT ODD, RABBLE-ROUSING, ECCENTRIC, WEIRD OR QUIRKY. I'M VERY NORMAL -- AND QUESTIONING AND SKEPTICAL! I'M USUALLY SUSPICIOUS OF POSTMODERNIST CITIZENS (AND FOREIGNERS TOO), WHO LIKE TO LIVE THE PERFECT LIFE -- AS DEFINED BY THEM!

LET ME ENLIGHTEN YOU ON THE PURPOSELESS BEHAVIOUR, PUZZLING HISTORY AND INEXPLICABLE LONG-SUFFERINGS I HAD TO ENDURE DURING THESE PAST 36 YEARS OF MANIPULATED LIFE AS AN "IMPLANTEE".

WHO ASKED YOU ALL TO START IT ALL OVER AGAIN? DIDN'T YOU ALL HAVE IT ALL? WHY CAN'T YOU ALL JUST LEAVE ME ALONE TO MYSELF? TO LIVE MY OWN LIFE, ONCE AGAIN, AS A GENUINE WRITER? WHAT IS ALL THIS UNACCEPTABLE AND BASELESS NONSENSE ABOUT MY BEING A "PAID" GOVERNMENT EMPLOYEE/AGENT? IT IS ONLY WHEN I AM STILL REGARDED, TREATED AND INFLUENCED BY THE CONTROLLERS AS A "GOVERNMENT AGENT" (BUT SOMEHOW STILL NOT PAID FULLY YET -- NOR EVEN WITH ANY PARTIAL AMOUNT OF SALARY AT ALL OR IN ANY WAY) THAT I WILL CONTINUE TO HATE THE SINGAPORE GOVERNMENT VEHEMENTLY!

DO I TOTALLY AGREE WITH PARTY POLITICS? AM I AN ARDENT MODERNIST WRITER -- WITH A SELF-SACRIFICING ATTITUDE? WHAT DO I SUPPORT? (IS IT A CLOSED, INTOLERANT AND SEXUALLY INHIBITED SOCIETY, WHOSE CITIZENS DO NOT RESPECT ELOQUENT AND FOCUSED MODERNISTS LIKE ME?)

WELL, I WOULD BE HAPPY JUST TO "LISTEN" TO THE PARTY! (HA, HA, HA!) LET'S "CONGRATULATE" THE PARTY! (FOR THE "GOOD" WORKS IT HAS DONE -- INCLUDING VULGAR ONES!)

LET'S CELEBRATE THE PERFECT LIFE! POSTMODERNISTS SHOULD NOT DICTATE HOW I, AN UNREPENTANT INDIVIDUALIST -- IN CONTRAST TO A SELF-SATISFIED SUBJECT -- SHOULD LIVE, WORK AND PLAY! FOR THE SAKE OF MY OWN MORAL INTEGRITY, I SHOULD NOT -- BUT I STILL DEFINITELY WOULD, NEVERTHELESS! --CONTINUE TO DISPARAGE OTHER OPPOSITIONISTS -- YES, THOSE WHO PRETEND TO BE WHAT THEY ARE NOT, AND THOSE WHO ARE NOT GOING TO FIGHT FOR THEIR HUMAN RIGHTS, TO BE THEIR OWN AUTHORIAL SELVES (AS INDIVIDUALISTS, AND NOT AS CONFORMING AND COMPROMISING SUBJECTS -- OF THE PARTY!).

DOES POSTMODERNISM -- WITH ITS CULTURAL RELATIVISM -- MEAN THAT WE SHOULD NOT BELIEVE IN ANYTHING? ARE FRAGMENTATION AND DIVERSITY ALWAYS BENEFICIAL? DOESN'T OPPRESSION THRIVE ON THE PRINCIPLE OF "DIVIDE AND CONQUER"?

AUTHOR'S FINAL NOTE:

{THIS UNDENIABLY SERIOUS AND IMPORTANT 16-PAGE DOCUMENT -- WITH FULLY CHARGED VENOM, HATRED, ANGER AND RESENTMENT -- IS PREPARED BY DAVID CHUA CHUAN SEAH, WRITER AND AUTHOR [OF THE FAMOUS "THE DAVID CHUA CHUAN SEAH (DCCS) PAPERS"]; AND NOW RE-POSTED (AS AN EXPANDED, REVISED, RE-EDITED AND AMENDED VERSION) THIS DAY 26 APRIL 2009 (SUNDAY).}

SOME INFORMATION, COMMENTS AND REMARKS WHICH HAVE BEEN POSTED HERE AND WHICH ARE NOW BEING SUBJECTED TO MORONIC DELETIONS BY PAP (AND ALL ITS MORONS)

2008-12-25T18:15:00.000-08:00

The David Chua Chuan Seah Papers (The DCCS Papers) is an astounding collection of varied and even disparate (but always consistently, logically and coherently inter-related or inter-connected -- with the aid of a liberal use of cross-references while one is reading it, carefully and intelligently) insightful comments, probing questions, relevant and significant items of often SECRET or even TOP SECRET information, and even the inclusion of intelligent and challenging answers supplied by the author himself -- in response to his own equally challenging and probing questions, which he had posed himself, with a personal and open interest in these subjects (and the responses by intelligent, politically-aware and discerning members of the public, especially!).

These papers are exciting stuff! Brilliant even! Do you know that the author can even outdo himself -- yes, in future works of his intellect, imagination and always with an exceptional pride in his own honesty and confidence?

Yes, the author can even better these papers -- with their outstanding and illuminating writing quality and plain but careful and intense -- or extremely focussed and concentrated -- manner or style of expression and explanation [indicating a presence of MIND and of thinking power, which in many of his essays and articles so far in his blogs, have been demonstrated so finely and so exemplarily, that very few readers who had read them before their sleeping hours, would be eagerly exchanging their treasured sleep for the utter freedom they could sense in their own being -- in their own life during those living moments (of privacy) --WHEN THEY ARE PREPARED TO SUBSTITUTE THEIR HITHERTO RESPECT FOR POWER WITH THEIR OWN BURGEONING RESPECT FOR THE TRUTH!].

YES,

YES, EVEN IN THIS ERA OF POSTMODERNISM, SURVEILLANCE TECHNOLOGIES, GLOBAL BIOPOLITICS, GLOBALIZATION AND -- YES, AGAIN! -- THE EVER-EXISTENT AND ALWAYS-UNCHANGING PRESENCE OF BASIC HUMAN WEAKNESSES [NAMELY: THOSE RELATING OR PERTAINING TO BASIC HUMAN GREED (NOT JUST FOR MONEY ALONE), POWER-CRAVING AND POWER-HUNGERING, AND, TRAGICALLY, THE UNWILLINGNESS BY FALLIBLE AND IMPERFECT MORTALS LIKE US TO FACE, AND TO ADMIT TO, SUCH HUMAN WEAKNESSES -- AS WELL AS TO MANY OTHERS!].

AN EX-MSD CLERICAL OFFICER HAS A DIRECT APPEAL FOR LONG-AWAITED HELP

2008-12-21T04:40:00.000-08:00

THE DIRECTOR

MILITARY SECURITY DEPARTMENT

MINISTRY OF DEFENCE

GOMBAK BASE

MINDEF BUILDING

303 GOMBAK DRIVE

(OFF UPPER BUKIT TIMAH ROAD)

SINGAPORE 669645

TELEPHONE NO.: 67683128

WEBSITE : http://www.mindef.gov.sg/

(ATTENTION : BG DAVID KOH TEE HIAN)

DEAR SIR,

RE: THE LONG, LONG, LONG NIGHTMARE :

36 YEARS OF LOST AND WASTED

LIVING, WORKING AND PLAYING

-- AS AN UNWILLING AND UNHAPPY

IMPLANTEE

PLEASE REFER TO MY UPDATED POSTING IN THIS BLOG, http://afighterandalovertoo.blogspot.com/ -- with reference to my remarkably poignant article (to this day) on my status as an unwilling and unhappy implantee -- namely, "THE FEARLESS AND INGENIOUS INDIVIDUALISTIC OPPOSITIONIST IN A SURVEILLANCE SOCIETY" (DATED 2.11.2008, SUNDAY).

I WOULD ALSO LIKE TO DRAW YOUR ATTENTION TO 3 PREVIOUS EMAILS WHICH I HAD SENT TO YOU -- NAMELY, "MY IMPLANTATION AND MY RESPONSE TO THAT GRAVE MISTAKE" (DATED 17.6.08); "MY PREDICAMENT AS AN UNWILLING AND UNHAPPY IMPLANTEE" (DATED 18.6.08); AND, LASTLY, "WHEN I'M 54" (DATED 23.6.08). I HAVE NOT RECEIVE ANY REPLY WHATSOEVER TO ANY AND ALL OF THESE 3 EMAILS FROM YOUR KIND OFFICE YET, SIR!

PLEASE READ CAREFULLY THROUGH THE ABOVE-MENTIONED UPDATED POSTING IN THIS PARTICULAR BLOG -- AND ALSO, FOR A SECOND TIME HOPEFULLY, THE URGENTLY WRITTEN 3 EMAILS THAT I HAD SENT TO YOU VERY MUCH EARLIER!

FOR YOUR INFORMATION AND NECESSARY ACTION, PLEASE.

YOURS TRULY

DAVID CHUA CHUAN SEAH

(DISSENTING WRITER: VOICE OF CONSCIENCE)

I AM NOT INDEBTED TO THE SINGAPORE GOVERNMENT

2008-12-19T19:38:00.000-08:00

DO YOU STILL NOT

UNDERSTAND ME --

YET, GENTLEMEN?

Themes from the

Middle Kingdom:

Of Gratification; Gratefulness;

Gratuity; Gravy;

Gratuitousness;

and Sex -- And The Discerning

Non-Political Man,

The Serious and Thoughtful

Writer, The Compassionate

Human Being

and The Thinking Senior Citizen

I DECLARE:

I AM NOW -- AS I COULD NOT

BEFORE -- ABLE TO COME TO

TERMS WITH WHAT I

HAVE BECOME (AS A WELL-TUNED

AND DISCERNING LISTENER

TO BOTH CONTEMPORARY

POP MUSIC AND THE ROCK SONGS

FROM THE late 1960s

AND the 1970s)

THOUGHT-IN-PROGRESS :

WHEN A GENTLE, REFINED AND (NOW)

MANLY WRITER HAS BEEN
THROUGH SO MUCH SUFFERING AND
DEPRIVATION (AND HUMILIATION) --

FOR MORE THAN 36 YEARS NOW --

WITH MUCH EXPECTED UNHAPPINESS

AND WITH JUSTIFIED AND
JUSTIFIABLE UNWILLINGNESS
TO ACCEPT HIS OWN ALLEGED
"RESPONSIBILITY" FOR MAKING
HIMSELF INTO SUCH A VULNERABLE
VICTIM OF
SUCH AN UNACCEPTABLE
CONDITION,
PLIGHT AND PREDICAMENT --

THEN THIS IS OBVIOUSLY GOING TO SURPRISE YOU!
HERE IT GOES:
I am getting more and more :
(1) wonderful admirers;
(2) great supporters;
(3) intelligent readers;
(4) discerning guests;
(5) distinguished visitors;
(6) obliging girlfriends;
(7) open-minded female lovers;
(8) keen acquaintances;
(9) serious readers;
(10) thinking followers;
(11) loyal and true defenders;
(12) liberated women-friends;
(13) energetic lovers;
(14) inspiring helpers;
(15) much-need benefactors;
(16) bona fide bankers and financiers;
(17) geuine sympathizers;
(18) brave and kind (but foreign) magazine publishers;
(19) courageous and compassionate (but foreign) book publishers.

I am serious! On a more upbeat and positive note, when was the last time
you had spend a genuinely meaningful moment of companionship and of
conversation? Was it your time spent trying to exchange meaningful items
of information and ideas in general with someone you know? Did she
support you in your effortds to get through the day -- and night -- with
too much worries? Did she assist you in your work as a writer?

Was she grateful to you for having such an amorous, intelligent and honest
boyfriend, partner, and lover like yours truly?

THE DAVID CHUA CHUAN SEAH PAPERS (THE DCCS PAPERS) : UNCLASSIFIED INFORMATION

2008-12-12T17:06:00.000-08:00

CRUCIAL FACTS

AND VITAL QUESTIONS

ABOUT MY EXCEPTIONAL

MILITARY OFFENCE --

GOING AWOL (IN 1972) --

FROM KILO COMPANY,

SINGAPORE ARMED FORCES

TRAINING INSTITUTE (SAFTI)

THE FINAL DAVID CHUA CHUAN SEAH (DCCS) REPORT ON MY

OWN CASE AS AN OPPOSITIONIST WRITER RUNNING -- IN THE YEAR 2009 --

INTO A GREAT CONFRONTATION WITH THE SINGAPORE

GOVERNMENT

(ISSUED NOW IN ITS UPDATED AND REVISED EDITION

ON THIS DAY 29 APRIL 2009)

INTRODUCTION :

SUMMARY OF MY DEFENCE AS AN ALLEGED "CRIMINAL"

IN PLEADING NOT GUILTY TO THE CHARGE OF MY BEING

RESPONSIBLE -- ENTIRELY OR PARTIALLY -- FOR GIVING

THE SAFTI MILITARY AUTHORITIES "REASONS" IN ORDER FOR THEM TO

JUSTIFY THEIR IMPLANTATION OF MYSELF AS A

NATIONAL SERVICEMAN WHO HAD GONE AWOL IN THE YEAR 1972 :

(1) I am entirely responsible for the act of having gone AWOL from Kilo Company, SAFTI, in 1972 -- that and only that alone -- for reasons I had had at that time;

(2) I am NOT responsible -- not even partially -- for the subsequent implantation of myself by the SAFTI military authorities [who, firstly, based their decision to implant me on completely flimsy, unsubstantiated and unacceptable grounds; and secondly, proceeded to implant me -- as rightly and justly deserving, under SAF's military law, of an "official" (but on whose authority and on whose authorization? --not again!) punishment for having committed a MILITARY offence? (in which case, surely there should have been officially conducted and recorded investigations into the causes of, or reasons for, my AWOL; as well as into the kind of person I was then -- my personality, character, natural behaviour, thought process, philosophical beliefs, humanistic values, moral ideals, professional goals, and intellectual and cultural influences by conducting a military Court of Inquiry and Examination into my special case; and, lastly, by conducting an official military TRIAL then, shouldn't there? -- without obtaining my unconditional and unreserved consent, agreement, permission and acceptance?)];

(3) A distinction must therefore be clearly made -- and I want to emphasize this repeatedly and repetitively, if need be -- between my alleged responsibility for going AWOL then and my so-called "responsibility" (what?) for my being implanted in the first place! Yes, to state my stand here and now, again : I AM NOT -- IN NO WAY, ABSOLUTELY! -- RESPONSIBLE (NOT EVEN PARTIALLY) FOR MY BEING IMPLANTED BY THE SAFTI MILITARY AUTHORITIES IN 1972!

THAT IS ALL!

MY CASE FOR MY DEFENCE

MY QUESTONS FOR THE PROSECUTORS WITH REGARD TO THE CASE AS IT STANDS -- AND TO MY ALLEGED "RESPONSIBILITY" (OR "RESPONSIBILITIES") FOR BOTH (I) BEING AN UNWILLING AND UNHAPPY VICTIM OF IMPLANTATION BY THE SAFTI MILITARY AUTHORITIES; AND (2) TURNING OUT, NOT ONLY DURING THE COURSE OF THE LAST 36 YEARS OR SO (SINCE 1972, WHEN I WAS IMPLANTED) BUT ESPECIALLY NOW (IN THIS YEAR OF UTTER "IMMORALITY" AS A FREQUENT PATRONIZER OF PROSTITUTES IN GEYLANG), INTO SUCH AN UNQUALIFIED AND DISGUSTING MODEL FOR "IMMORAL" AND "OBJECTIONAL" CONDUCT, BEHAVIOUR AND ACTIVITIES -- AS A SINGAPORE CITIZEN; AS AN UNMARRIED MAN; AS A SENSITIVE, QUIET AND THOUGHTFUL HUMAN BEING; AND LASTLY, AND PERHAPS MOST IMPORTANTLY, AS A WRITER WHO CONSTANTLY SEEKS POPULAR RECOGNITION AND CRITICAL ACCLAIM.

THE QUESTIONS I AM

SUBMITTING:

1. Why was an unmistakable MILITARY offence "regarded" or "treated" or turned into -- in later or subsequent years (yes, long after the occurence of the original MILITARY offence, committed by a young and idealistic soldier at that time) -- a (i) "criminal" offence; (ii) a "political" offence; (iii) a transformed case of "insanity"; (iv) a "socially objectional" behavioural abnormality that elicited all kinds of ABUSES (!) from people with private agendas and vested interests of their own; and (v) a strange case whereby the MILITARY offender could only be saved from MILITARY PROSECUTION and PUNISHMENT (probably by detention for a few weeks) only through being simply (and only) unwillingly implanted (!) -- a crucial act that turned a potentially light military punishment (detention for a few weeks' duration) into a more-than-36-years span of constant and, sometimes, relentless pressure, disturbance and punishment (emotional, psychological, sexual, physical, intellectual, mental, social, moral, financial and political) of a private citizen, of a responsible man, and, most of all, of a serious, thoughtful, sensitive and ambitious writer?

2. Why didn't SAFTI military authorities conduct a thorough -- for such was the seriousness of the MILITARY offence, wasn't it? [considering that its eventual "solution" involved a most serious act of human implantation!] -- investigation into the REASONS or CAUSES for my AWOL offence in 1972 ?

There was not a single interview or meeting or any sort of communication or correspondence whatsoever -- written or verbal -- that took place between any representative figure from the SAFTI authorities and myself !

For instance, the offence was treated as a military (?) one that had a "psychological" origin or cause -- namely, as a result of "schizophrenia" or "homosexuality"! There were no medical certification or authorization whatsoever, in both instances -- even on reasonably acceptable grounds for suspecting that it might be a case of "psychological" abnormality -- which required me to be (somehow!) implanted (!) -- in order for me to be able to adapt or to adjust to army life -- thus, serving as an assistance to the lightening of my heavy predicament as an overly sensitive soldier, who had to be "helped" to adapt to army life, because of my medically certified "overly sensitive nature", and thus to be able to complete my National Service successfully; AND, also, as a "solution" to my unwillingness to be prosecuted for my military offence in the first place (as implied, indicated, reflected or expressed -- directly or otherwise --by me in a typewritten letter to my Officer Commanding Kilo Company in SAFTI in 1972) and thus avoiding the expected experience of being punished by detention under military law -- something that would, in fact, reinforced my already negative impression of, and attitude towards, the army, military life and the military authorities in general -- yes, with a heightened and intensified sensibility, attitude and impression which would, in the event, make me even more ill-adjusted to army life -- which my early reaction to even such a brief period of army experience up to that time had already make me decide to go AWOL from my camp, to protest my conscientious objection to military life and to the Military Establishment in general! Yes, my going AWOL in the SAF was the result and the culmination of many years of -- prior to my enlistment in the SAF on 20.12.1971 and long before my introductory experiences as a recruit for three months in Telok Paku Camp and later, for a short time too, as a Section Leader trainee in Kilo Company, SAFTI -- being gradually influenced by the anti-establishment reading materials that I had been reading, from various sources of political, literary and philosophical literature -- and, also, to a certain extent, of being a keen fan, for quite sometime already by then, of anti-establishment rock singers and groups -- as revealed in my almost obsessive listening to anti-war and pro-peace protest rock songs that I was exposed to in my youth! And long before my enlistment into the SAF, those anti-establishment views and anti-war or anti-military influences, and the resultant anti-military stance and attitude that I already had by that time were, yes, quite easily, reinforced by my initial army experiences during the course of those early few months as a newly enlisted National Serviceman in the SAF -- first, as a recruit and then subsequently, as a private undergoing Section Leader training, in my first taste of, and introduction to -- as it was eventually encountered by my unprepared self then -- yes, the BITTERNESS of ARMY LIFE!

3. As there was no official investigation whatsoever (beyond a medical diagnosis that merely indicated psychological sensitiveness -- and hence, ill-adjustment or ill-adaptability to army life), officially, and thus, NO handling of, and no dealing with, the AWOL case as, in fact, a MILITARY OFFENCE (and hence, not requiring any reprimand, punishment, court-martial, or suspension from duty); I should, in fact, NOT be regarded or recognised as an offender (military or otherwise) both in the first place and also in the final analysis!

The question is, then: WHY must I be PUNISHED -- for that is in fact how I view my plight and predicament as an unwilling and unhappy implantee -- for more than 36 years now for NOT committing ANY offence (military or otherwise) in (and since) 1972 -- the year of my implantation, an official "solution" -- decided upon, and carried out, by the military authorities in SAFTI in 1972 -- purportedly to "help" me (i) firstly, from being prosecuted (and hence punished) under military law for going AWOL [was there not an unproven assumption already then that I was guilty of committing the MILITARY offence (of AWOL) in the first place?] ; and then (ii) secondly, to "enable" me to adapt to army life (so as to complete the rest of my National Service days in the SAF in a more emotionally and psychologically agreeable and stable manner -- after being implanted)?

Question Number One:

How could the prospect of a few weeks (or even months) of military detention and punishment (no matter how "harsh" and "unbearable" it might be) be used as a legitimate and rational excuse for subjecting me to more than 36 years of, in fact, truly harsher and even more unbearable "detention" and "punishment" -- of an even more grave and severe and UNACCEPTABLE kind?

If my inability to adapt to army life is so severe and so serious and so grave (resulting in an act of AWOL that would require such an astounding more-than-36-years span of almost daily punishment and constant detention -- through my being implanted and subsequently controlled by military authorities and related personnel working in the surveillance -- or security and intelligence -- services or governmental departments), why wasn't I SIMPLY DISCHARGED from military service in the first place then -- on purely and obvious military ground then?

If I was, however, regarded with suspicion and proof, as a "political" threat (and, hence, as a danger or liability to the SAF, then why wasn't I -- being surely unable to be cleared by the authorities for security reasons! -- then why, yes, WHY, why was I not SIMPLY DISCHARGED from my National Service in the SAF then -- on military ground?

Question Number Two:

The above probing examination of the most crucial event of my National Service experience -- namely, my going AWOL -- leads me now to pose another related question:

On what (Top Secret?) ground(s) was I implanted, instead (!), as a so-called "rational" or "compassionate" solution (?) to my AWOL-caused "predicament" then -- as a (yet unproved, to this day) "homosexual" [based on my careless use -- or rather, misuse -- of the one single fucking word ("effeminate") to describe myself in a hastily conceived and rashly written letter to my Officer Commanding Kilo Company, SAFTI, then -- to express my troubled and agitated feelings and apprehensions regarding my AWOL and especially its likely or feared consequences]?

Was I trying, indeed, to escape from being prosecuted and then punished by the military authorities in SAFTI by using the pretence of being a "homosexual" [as "cleverly" or "subtly" implied (!) by my use of the word "effeminate" to describe myself in a long handwritten letter, which I finally reduced to a one-page typewritten letter, using the office typewriter in the Medical Centre, and which I addressed to Captain Lee Kum Cheok (OC, Kilo Company) -- indicating that I wanted to be excused from military prosecution and punishment as a physically weak and "unmanly" soldier who had gone AWOL without thinking carefully about the consequences of committing such a military offence]?

Yes, that was the AWOL connection or issue! What about the actual implantation connection or issue? Was I a proven "homosexual" who, presumably, had accepted, approved, consented to and granted my permission to the SAFTI military authorities to IMPLANT me (secretly and yet officially) -- an act which was to change, decidedly and decisively, the entire course of my life as, especially, even in those early days as a young man, a basically obedient and law-abiding citizen, a sensitive, thoughtful and quiet human being, and as a burgeoning, aspiring writer -- who was, back in those days, already aiming highly and also striving committedly to achieve the goals I had set out for myself, early in those days of my youth!

4. My well-considered GROUNDS for BOLDLY accusing the SAFTI military authorities of NOT understanding, as thoroughly as possible [with, perhaps, the aid of psychological, clinical and medical tests and with other methods of assessing my biographical background and of ascertaining my personality traits and character profile -- including my cherished values and principles, my learned or acquired ideas and beliefs, my subscription to certain ideals and convictions (yes, important factors that would have persuaded them to choose a RATIONAL decision on, or an acceptable and justifiable course of action, for a wise and humane -- and practical and realistic -- solution to, and handling of, my -- with the benefit of hindsight -- unique and unusual AWOL case then, back in the year 1972)] :

(a) I'm not, by nature, adaptable to army life (or to militarised and highly organized hierarchical human structures, whose functioning and effectiveness are based on POWER relationships -- or, in other words, on the assertion of AUTHORITY and CONTROL over those who are lower-ranking or who are holding subordinate positions);

(b) Because of (a), I had already, by the time I was enlisted into the SAF, become a secret or private conscientious objector -- in my mind -- to the army, to ANY army or military establishment generally; I had, in other words, become an intellectual protestor, dissident, critic, dissenter and (then aspiring) non-conformist or individualistic writer [even as far back as those early days in my young adulthood -- with the kind of in-born or acquired attitudes, beliefs, convictions, and values (which were further moulded, influenced and cultivated by my wide and intensive reading of anti-establishment literature from diverse sources of publication) -- which would NATURALLY render me UNFIT for the anti-intellectual and regimented, disciplined, authority-based, control-centred, and obedience-demanding lifestyle, behaviour and even thought-processes that were expected of me -- especially when NOTHING that I, as an aspirant to becoming a refined and cultivated intellectual-writer, had seen, observed or witnessed (until I went AWOL in my then as-yet brief period of military experience) was able to make me CHANGE my mind -- yes, my attitudes, beliefs, values, etc. -- about the army and its regimented lifestyle]!

(c) And hence, because of (b), why, may I ask now, why didn't the military (or civilian) authorities working in SAFTI then approach these problems of mine -- (i) my "sensitiveness" (to the harshness and difficulties posed by army life); (ii) my, in other words, "ill-suitability" and "ill-adaptability" to the highly demanding (especially physically) requirements and expectations of both military training and daily regime; and, lastly, and most importantly, (iii) my so-called "homosexuality" [as alleged, presumed, believed, (mis)understood or wrongly perceived -- without any rational or justifiable basis for establishing its "truth", and, unfortunately, with all the disturbing and troublesome implications and consequences that were attendant to such an insensitive, inept, dishonest, and personally-motivated "labelling"or "objective" reading of my actions, words and behaviour then (and of its future influence on my subsequent mental and emotional conditions) -- one that would have invited both suspicion, by others, of such a supposedly rational and objective "perception" or "understanding" of my supposed abnormality as a "psychological" constitution, and also outright rejection (or abuse) by many discerning people who were studying my AWOL case then, of such an unbelievably irresponsible, dishonest and inept attempt at "solving" my problem as an AWOL offender -- based on their total MISUNDERSTANDING! of my PROBLEMATIC situation then with the decision made by certain members of the TOP BRASS in SAFTI in 1972 to implant me] -- yes, why didn't they approach my AWOL case by SIMPLY CHOOSING THE SIMPLEST (AND MOST RATIONAL AND LOGICAL) DECISION OR COURSE OF ACTION -- namely, by SIMPLY DISCHARGING me, on these above-mentioned "MILITARY" grounds (whether honourably or otherwise), from National Service in the SAF then? (Whether or not such a discharge was honourable or not -- or acceptable to me or not -- is irrelevant to my main purpose of understanding the case, which has been, for too long already, COVERED UP by all the military personnel or officers involved in it -- and, also, to my arriving at a final and positive CLOSURE to the whole issue.)

(d) Furthermore, to go further into our inquiry into the case, in addition to the "MILITARY" grounds just mentioned, didn't I also qualify for such a simple and unconditional discharge on so many OTHER NON-MILITARY grounds as well -- namely, on my political, intellectual, moral, and occupational or professional (yes! this too indeed -- in terms of my professional ambition to be a serious, thoughtful and refined writer!) -- grounds?

NOTE TO THE READERS:

ON THE DEVIOUS AND DISHONEST WAY IN WHICH THE SURVEILLANCE AUTHORITIES HAVE BEEN TRYING TO IMPLICATE ME -- IN THIS PARTICULAR INSTANCE -- AS A "HOMOSEXUAL" (IN ORDER TO "JUSTIFY" THEIR SUPPORT FOR -- AND THEIR COVER-UP OF -- THE GRAVE, SEVERE AND UNFORGIVABLE MISDEED COMMITTED BY THE MILITARY AUTHORITIES IN SAFTI IN 1972 -- NAMELY, THEIR IMPLANTATION OF MYSELF, AS THEIR "SOLUTION" TO THE PROBLEMS CAUSED BY MY GOING AWOL FROM MY KILO COMPANY IN SAFTI THEN :

MY LAST WORD (OR QUESTION) ON THIS VITAL PERSONAL MATTER :

Is it necessary to even defend myself by mentioning here -- publicly, UNAMBIGUOUSLY and openly -- what is, and has always been (since I was born on 30.7.1953 -- slightly more than 55 years ago, dear patient, intelligent, discerning and observant readers, who presumably and gratefully have been following my sometimes confusing and conflicting accounts of my life so far as an unwilling and unhappy implantee!) -- yes, to repeat here with emphasis, what is and has always been, my NATURAL and hence, INNATE sexual orientation -- namely, my confident, bold and powerful HETEROSEXUALITY [not to mention my undisguised amorous love of, and fondness for, frequent close physical and intimate -- and, in particular, sexual -- contacts, relations and (unapologetically non-romantic) involvement (with a constant stream of available, willing, obliging, cheerful, facially attractive and physically desirable -- and preferably -- young women and matured girls)]?

5. It is MY RIGHT to dispute those claims that challenge such a legitimate right -- that the IMPLANTATION of myself by the military authorities in SAFTI in 1972 is ILLEGAL -- simply put! It is an ILLEGAL action, based on an unacceptable and unjustifiable -- and, also, unnatural and unexpected -- yes, to this very day -- yet-to-be-justified -- DECISION that was made (either through ineptitude or dishonesty) by the conceited and self-concerned SAFTI military authorities in 1972 ! Or was there, in the first place (and now, in the final analysis) just one single person who actually had had the power to authorize my implantation -- without having obtained my unconditional consent or approval, and who thus had to be held entirely responsible, solely and ultimately, for making such a crucial and life-changing event and decision in 1972, one which revealed, to repeat with emphasis again, and, in this case, either his unforgivable and unacceptable INEPTITUDE or his extremely objectional and highly abusive DISHONESTY -- involving, AS I NOW SUSPECT THAT IT DID, and TO WHICH I WOULD NOW POSE MY PERTINENT QUESTIONS : about his own morality; his sexual inclinations or proclivities (to be kind to him) or his sexual perversities (to be brutally truthful and frank); his MOTIVES : Was he genuinely trying to "help" me to adapt to army life? And how, and in what way, could my implantation allow him or his subordinates or colleagues to "help" me work and live and rest, as a soldier, positively, productively, meaningfully and beneficially -- in a genuine sense? Or was I intended and supposed to "help" him and his subordinates or colleagues, instead, by virtue of my being implanted on the basis of a twisted, dubious and distorted logic (that, for instance, regarded my use of the word "effeminate" to imply, indicate, mean or admit, indirectly or subtly, my "homosexuality"!) -- to "help" myself?; and, finally, his obviously dubious INTENTIONS?

Even up to this very day and moment, I still can't fathom his (and his colleagues' and subordinates') true and actual intentions -- (Are you listening?) -- which, according to my vast, varied, rich and complex experiences, and to my well-acquired, well-absorbed, and continually expanding and improving knowledge of human and current affairs -- even as an expectedly apathetic, disillusioned, demoralized, unwilling and unhappy implantee, for more than 36 years now, and also because of the fact that these INTENTIONS have been changing throughout these years, depending on so many factors -- personal, public, and environmental, just to cite a few! (Are you still listening?)

6. In conclusion, and in response to the just-written (and extremely short) last question (in deliberately bracketed blanket security, for the intelligent involvement of INSIDERS only) that ends that last sentence/remark of mine in (5), I am declaring my position, now, on this particular and important matter:

I will, too, keep shifting and changing my INTENTION -- as to whether or not I would want, or am willing, to oblige, accommodate, co-operate, accept, agree -- in short, to come to terms with (i) the reality of my unacceptable, unjustifiable and unforgivable implantation -- in the first place; and (ii) my realisation that I've lost and wasted more than 36 years of my life under the implantation effects and influences -- and, even more significantly, under those long, long, long nightmarish years of often idiosyncratic, illogical, moronic, demonic and, most importantly, extremely DISRESPECTFUL and highly INSULTING covert control by the ubiquitous surveillance authorities -- yes, the intelligence and security agents working for the Singapore Government, under TOP SECRECY, with MILITARY precision and constancy (and with all their deliberately calculative, greedy and self-interested manipulation and handling of the latest and most modern scientific surveillance equipment, devices, and gadgets -- and employing other applicable general or specific surveillance techniques and technologies) -- yes, all these facts of my life so far which, in my personal judgment, and with good justification too, I consider, claim, regard, and maintain as having had --and are still having -- mostly BAD, NEGATIVE and SELF-DESTRUCTIVE consequences for, and effects on, my personality and character -- with all their related values, ideals, qualities, ideas, principles, convictions, goals, needs and beliefs (all of these being, as they have been and still are, externally provoked, prompted and induced! They are, to me -- without my need to accept any official excuses and explanations from the official governmental perpetrators of -- and for --such cruel practices and examples of inhumane conduct -- UNWELCOMED, UNDESIRABLE, NON-BENEFICIAL, MEANINGLESS and UNPRODUCTIVE! I have never been able to accept such underserving ill-effects on, and the resultant sad outcome of, a miserable and disappointing life like mine so far, especially in regard to my professional ambition to be a published -- and I don't mean in the ELECTRONIC media but specifically in my stubbornly preferred PRINT media! -- WRITER (and also with regard to my nature as a highly amorous, frequently horny, proudly heterosexual and confidently masculine man; or, further, with regard to my aim of living my life as a rational, well-read and compassionate human being; and, finally, with regard to my insistence that I am basically a law-abiding and thinking Senior Citizen!

IT IS MY OWN LIFE; BUT WHAT IS THE GOVERNMENT'S AIM?

I DEMAND TO BE SET FREE!

ADDENDUM :

RATIONALE FOR

MY PUBLICATION OF

THE DAVID CHUA CHUAN SEAH

PAPERS :

THE DISAPPEARANCE (OR LOSS)

OF MY OWN TREASURED

PROPERTY --

THROUGH BEING INADVERTENTLY

MISPLACED

IN A PUBLIC AREA OR BUILDING --

TO SUSPECTED (WITH A

RATIONAL BASIS)

GOVERNMENTAL THIEVES

MY OPEN REPORT ON THE DISAPPEARANCE (OR

LOSS) OF MY PERSONAL/PRIVATE PROPERTY --

FROM SOMEWHERE OUTSIDE MY HOUSE :

MY OPEN PERSONAL NOTICE TO

THE CITIZENS OF THE WORLD

(ON THE ART OF GOVERNMENTAL STEALING)

FIRST REPORT :

I, David Chua Chuan Seah (NRIC No: S0028486F), a writer by profession, and earning currently about S$600.00 per month, and who is also, inexplicably, presently seeking Financial Assistance from the North West Community Development Council, am openly reporting the equally inexplicable and unbearable loss, on 6.12.08 (Saturday) -- due to suspected theft by governmental officers -- of my important documents (contained and secured in an arch file), which, together with a desk calendar (for 2009 -- with scribblings and notes of a very private and personal nature); 2 intellectual (American) magazines (The American Scholar and Lapham's Quarterly); and 2 notebooks (with my personal and private comments and other contact information, etc.), I had placed inside a brown-coloured carrier-bag, and which was, at sometime in that Saturday afternoon, somehow -- but expertly and unintentionally abetted by my own carelessness and forgetfulness -- stolen from my personal possession.

The personal documents mentioned above that were stolen are actually printed copies of articles that I had written SECRETLY during the course of all these past 36 years or so, and which were only intended by me for future electronic publication, through my posting or blogging activities, in the Internet, for open public reading at some appropriate future date and time. Fortunately, I had also made extra photocopies of these articles beforehand -- and which I have now used as vital sources of factual materials and of crucial information [for the writing of my probing and questioning report/essay, entitled THE DAVID CHUA CHUAN SEAH PAPERS (The DCCS Papers), which has just been published as the latest posting in this particular blog] -- on, and with the accompanying disclosure of, certain key moments and facts relating or pertaining to my AWOL as a Section Leader trainee in 1972 from my Kilo Company in SAFTI -- an event which has, up to now, been deliberately and cleverly shrouded with much secrecy, mystery and misleading misinformation.

COMMENTARY :

I WOULD NOT HAVE PUBLISHED THIS ARTICLE, "THE DCCS PAPERS", HAD THE ABOVE-MENTIONED PERSONAL DOCUMENTS, CONTAINING VITAL INFORMATION AND CRUCIAL FACTS ABOUT MYSELF AND MY AWOL EXPERIENCE, AND UPON WHICH THIS ARTICLE IS BASED, NOT BEEN MADE TO DISAPPEAR -- OR CAUSED TO BE "LOST" -- FROM MY PERSONAL POSSESSION, UNDER SUCH A STRANGE, SUSPICIOUS, MYSTERIOUS AND SEEMINGLY INEVITABLE CIRCUMSTANCE! IN OTHER WORDS, DEAR READERS, I WAS COMPELLED TO DISCLOSE THE FACTS AND TO PROVIDE THE NECESSARY QUESTIONS PERTAINING TO SUCH A KEY AND MOMENTOUS EVENT IN MY LIFE -- NAMELY, MY GOING AWOL IN 1972 AS A NATIONAL SERVICEMAN -- AN ACT WHOSE CONSEQUENCES AND RESULTANT IMPLICATIONS FOR MY LIFE AS A MAN, HUMAN BEING, CITIZEN AND WRITER WERE TRULY ASTOUNDING, IN THEIR SETTING OF THE COURSE OF MY RESTRICTED LIFE -- AS AN UNWILLING AND UNHAPPY IMPLANTEE. (IT WASTHE SINGLE AND MOST SIGNIFICANT TRANSFORMATION OF MYSELF -- OF MY BEING -- WHICH I HAD BECOME OR TURNED INTO, AS IT WAS NEVER EXPECTED, PREDICTED OR INTENDED, BACK THEN 1972 AT SAFTI, WHEN I WAS IMPLANTED WITHOUT MY PERMISSION AND CONSENT. THE "SOLUTION" TO MY PLIGHT NOW AND PROBLEMATIC SITUATION THEN -- CAUSED BY MY GOING AWOL IN 1972! -- WAS JUST ONE AMONG MANY POSSIBILITIES AND ALTERNATIVES!).

SECOND REPORT :

I, David Chua Chuan Seah (NRIC No: S0028486F), a blogger by circumstance and a writer by choice and profession, am a kind, caring, concerned and considerate house-owner. (My house is located at : Blk 264, Yishun Street 22, #10-145, Singapore 760264.) As a home-owner, I look after my household items or properties well -- keeping them as safely and as securely as I can. So it was with great surprise and consternation that I discovered the mysterious disappearance (or loss?) of my own personal documents -- from the sanctity and safety and security of my own strongly guarded or defended (i.e., soundly locked) HDB flat [on 7.12.08, SUNDAY]!!

Question :

Who had caused the DISAPPEARANCE (or "LOSS") of my important documents [computer print-outs and also photo-copies of my numerous essays or articles that have been appearing regularly in my actively maintained -- and hugely popular and influential -- personal BLOGS] ( http://afighterandalovertoo.blogspot.com and http://trainofmypresence.blogspot.com ) ] ?

Are those who claim to be "trustworthy", "honest", "good", "able", and "caring" leaders and followers in the Singapore Government willing or prepared to discuss the real causes of, the actual reasons for, and the implications of such a great (and not just in a symbolic sense) disappearance (or "loss") of my personal documents at a time like this -- for me and for my future prospects as a credible and honest writer?

There is only one possible explanation for such an inexcusable act of thievery by government officers : These guilt-ridden (certainly hardly innocent) snoopers and surveillance officers have emerged -- after having entered my flat, so secretively, stealthily and deviously, and then stealing my already-mentioned personal documents, by engaging the professional and secret services of a trusted locksmith, to unlock my reasonably bolted and locked main front door, while I was asleep in the bedroom! -- as SAVIOURS and DEFENDERS of the nation of Singapore!

COMMENTARY :

Are you trying to control me -- by stealth? Yes, by stealing from me? My own property?

Don't you -- haven't you already, yet! -- realize that the LOCK -- MY LOCK! -- to MY DOOR -- yes! MY DOOR -- is made of good, pungent and stern stuff? (My Door -- which leads to my NOTABLE AND NECESSARY ideas and comments -- is sacred! my door -- YES, MY LOCK, too -- is engaging, sometimes, and imposing, at other times! It is often self-effacing but always supremely confident! (Are you aghast at what I've just said? So much for your exciting year, in which you're restricted in your movements and thoughts! And so much for your "goodness", "ability", and "caring" nature!)

My response to such governmental misdemeanour : I have absolutely NO interest in you people, you fucking idiots!

Lastly, if some unexpected turn of events should occur (due to a sudden change of mind and of heart in some people -- from their elevated positions of power and responsibility), please contact me, dear readers, via my Residential Address [Blk. 264, Yishun Street 22, #10-145, Singapore 760264] -- and do let me know in advance [my handphone no. : 82654077] -- should you happen to DISCOVER the re-appearance of my "lost" items somewhere in Singapore (where else?) -- to conclude the solution of a strange and mysterious case of a disappearing act -- by the honourable men and women working in the Singapore Government -- of the highest quality and distinction!

Thank you very much.

THIS REPORT (WHICH CONTAINED UNCLASSIFIED INFORMATION) -- AND ENTITLED "THE DCCS PAPERS" -- WAS PERSONALLY SUBMITTED/PRESENTED BY:

THE DEFENDANT :

NAME: DAVID CHUA CHUAN SEAH
NRIC NO.: S0028486F
DATE OF BIRTH: 30/7/1953
EMAIL ADDRESS: chua.chuanseah4@gmail.com

YOU FUCKING IDIOTS, YOU STILL WANT TO LOCK ME UP ? (IN PRISON OR IN MENTAL HOSPITAL ?) -- IN SPITE OF EVERYTHING YOU'VE HAD ALREADY LEARNED

2008-12-10T20:35:00.000-08:00

FROM DAVID CHUA CHUAN SEAH
TO BOTH SAFTI MILITARY OFFICERS (1972)
AND MSD OFFICERS/PERSONNEL (1976) :

ABOUT MY IMPENDING OR
COMING ARREST, DETENTION, TRIAL, SENTENCING, CONVICTION
AND IMPRISONMENT -- CONDUCTED BY A KANGAROO-COURT WITH
A LITTLE HELP FROM "HONOURABLE" AND "GENTLEMANLY" COURT OFFICIALS,
LAWYERS, JUDGES AND
ALL THOSE WHO WOULD BE
DULY INVOLVED IN MY STRANGE "CRIMINAL" (WHAT ELSE CAN
THE PUBLIC EXPECT?) CASE :

AM I GOING TO CONTINUE
LIVING, WORKING AND PLAYING
IN A NIGHTMARISH WORLD,
OR WILL IT BE SWEETNESS AND LIGHT
FROM NOW ONWARDS --
RIGHT FROM THE MOMENT OF
MY IMPENDING ARREST
BY THOSE "HONOURABLE"
AND "GENTLEMANLY" LAW
ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS?

INTERESTING QUESTION :
BUT, DEAREST SIRS (AND MADAMS), PLEASE, ON WHAT GROUNDS -- CERTAINLY AND SURELY -- MAY I HUMBLY, HONESTLY, RESPECTFULLY, AND TRULY ASK ?

MY OWN HIGHLY IMAGINATIVE
AND SELECTIVE REPLY :

ON THE GROUND THAT I AM "INSANE" ?

OR THAT I AM A "CRIMINAL" ?

OR WHAT ELSE? A "SEXUAL PERVERT"? A

DISGUSTING "EXHIBITIONIST"?

A "THIEF"? AN IMMODEST

AND OUTRAGEOUS "MOLESTER"?

YES, WHAT ELSE -- YOU MORONIC BASTARDS!

DO YOU HONESTLY THINK

THAT YOU CAN

PROVE YOUR ALLEGATION OR

CHARGE? (YES, ESPECIALLY IN A

KANGAROO COURT OF LAW !)

MY CHALLENGES TO THOSE WHO ARE OUT TO ARREST (MEANING: INSULT) ME -- AS THEY HAVE BEEN DOING SO, SINCE 1972 (THE YEAR OF MY UNWELCOMED, UNDESIRABLE, UNDESIRED AND NON-ACCEPTABLE IMPLANTATION BY SAFTI MILITARY AUTHORITIES):

FIRSTLY, YOU CAN'T SIMPLY DISMISS MY VALID CONCERNS !

YOU MUST TAKE STEPS TO RESOLVE BOTH MY DOMESTIC AND PUBLIC PROBLEMS -- CREATED BY YOU PEOPLE IN THE FIRST PLACE !
THE CRUX OF BOTH MY DOMESTIC AND PUBLIC PROBLEM -- AS AN INDIVIDUALIST AND OPPOSITIONIST WRITER WHO HAS BEEN TRYING UNSUCCESSFULLY TO EARN A LIVING AS -- YES, PRECISELY -- A PROFESSIONAL WRITER -- LIES IN THE QUESTIONABLE CONDUCT OF ALL YOU PEOPLE, WHOSE EGOS ARE SO BIG AND WHO ARE NOT HELD ACCOUNTABLE IN ANY WAY -- NOT EVEN TO THE PAP LEADERSHIP, WHOSE MEMBERS' NAMES AND AUTHORITATIVE AND OFFICIAL POSITIONS YOU PEOPLE HAVE BEEN USING TO JUSTIFY YOUR CRUEL AND INHUMANE TREATMENT OF MYSELF (PRETENDING, ESPECIALLY TO ACT UNDER THEIR INSTRUCTIONS AND DIRECTIONS -- OFFICIAL OR OTHERWISE) -- FOR YOUR OWN NARCISSISTIC MISDEMEANOURS !
YOU PEOPLE CARE ONLY ABOUT WHAT YOUR SUPERIORS (THE PAP AND GOVERNMENT LEADERS) -- WHO ARE NOT EXACTLY AND CLEARLY AWARE OF YOUR ILLEGAL ACTIONS, GRAVE MISDEEDS AND SEVERE MISDEMEANOURS -- THINK OF YOU !
YOU PEOPLE HAVE LITTLE OR NO -- AT LEAST NOT TRULY GENUINE OR BONA FIDE -- CONCERNS ABOUT AND SYMPATHY FOR THE PLIGHT AND PREDICAMENT OF THOSE ORDINARY PEOPLE WHO ARE VICTIMIZED AS RESISTING AND REBELLIOUS IMPLANTEES -- LIKE YOURS TRULY, DAVID CHUA CHUAN SEAH !
YOU PEOPLE HAVE TRIED SO FAR TO SOLVE YOUR EXPECTED DIFFICULTIES -- DIDN'T YOU PEOPLE FIRST FORESEE SUCH ("UNEXPECTED") NEGATIVE AND LIFE-DESTROYING OUTCOMES AND CONSEQUENCES OF WHAT YOU PEOPLE HAD DECIDED AND ACTED UPON, WHEN YOU PEOPLE (MORONICALLY) IMPLANTED ME IN 1972 (WHEN I WAS JUST SERVING TWO-AND-A-HALF YEARS OF NATIONAL SERVICE IN THE SAF AS AN IDEALISTIC AND INEXPERIENCED YOUNG SOLDIER, TRYING TO MAKE SENSE OF THE UNWILLING ROLE OR PART I WAS COMPELLED -- BY THE LAWS OF THE COUNTRY -- TO PERFORM, IN A FORBIDDING MILIEU AND IN AN AWKWARD ENVIRONMENT WHICH REMINDED ME, DAILY AND CONSTANTLY, THAT I WAS CLEARLY UNFIT TO BE IN ? NO? YES, WHY DIDN'T YOU PEOPLE LOOK AHEAD INTO THE FUTURE, YES, INTO THE KIND OF PERSON I WOULD BECOME , AND INTO THE KIND OF LIFE I WOULD BE LEADING -- AFTER I HAD LEFT THE SINGAPORE ARMED FORCES, UPON COMPLETION OF MY OFFICIALLY-SPECIFIED TERM OF TWO-AND-A-HALF YEARS OF NATIONAL SERVICE!) -- BY PLANNING TO SEND ME INTO (A) PRISON, OR TO (B) MENTAL HOSPITAL. IT IS AN ACT, A DECISION, A PLAN THAT IS NOT ONLY THUGGISH (REMINISCENT OF THE SOVIET-ERA STYLE OF PUTTING DISSIDENTS IN MENTAL HOSPITALS; BUT ALSO, IRONICALLY, AN ACT THAT WILL LEAD TO MORE GRIEVANCES ON MY PART AND SOW THE BAD SEEDS OF DISCORD -- IN A COUNTRY THAT WISHES TO BUILD A MORE HARMONIOUS SOCIETY, OF CITIZENS LIVING TOGETHER AND SHOWING RESPECT FOR ONE ANOTHER! [TELL ME, HOW CAN YOU REALLY EXPECT ME -- SUCH AN INTELLIGENT AND LIFE-AFFIRMING HUMAN BEING, A HARDWORKING AND AMBITIOUS WRITER (NOT MERELY PUBLISHED BLOGGER!), AN AMOROUS MAN WITH, FREQUENTLY, URGENT SEXUAL NEEDS THAT MUST BE SATISFIED, AND LASTLY, AN UNAMBIGUOUSLY, BASICALLY AND ESSENTIALLY LAW-ABIDING CITIZEN (UNTIL YOUR KANGAROO COURT WILL PROVE OTHERWISE!, I AM SURE!) -- YES, IN ALL SINCERITY AND HUMILITY, AND IN GOOD FAITH, HOW CAN YOU ACTUALLY, REALLY AND IN NO UNCERTAIN TERMS, EXPECT ME TO RESPECT YOU PEOPLE -- AFTER SUCH A PERIOD OF IMPRISONMENT, THE EXPECTED OUTCOME OF A TRAIN OF EVENTS THAT WILL BEGIN FROM THIS MOMENT -- SHOULD I EVER RELINQUISH MY RIGHT TO FIGHT LIKE I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN CAPABLE OF DOING -- AT THE HIGHEST LEVEL OF MY BEING (UNLESS YOU PEOPLE ARE GOING TO CHEAT, YOU MORONIC BASTARDS!]
IN SINGAPORE, LET US SIMPLY BLAME OUR UNFREE (AND MAINLY COWARDLY AND MONEY-OBSESSED) PRESS OR MASS MEDIA FOR THE NON-TRANSPARENT AND NON-ACCOUNTABLE BEHAVIOUR AND ACTIONS AND ACTIVITIES OF THESE SECRETIVE, DEVIOUS AND GREEDY SURVEILLANCE AUTHORITIES (GOVERNMENTAL INTELLIGENCE AND SECURITY OFFICERS AND AGENTS)! THE PRESS -- WILL THEY REPORT ON MY CASE, SHOULD I ACTUALLY BECOME A DEFENDANT IN COURT -- FAIRLY, ACCURATELY, HONESTLY AND WITHOUT BIG EGOS TO DEFEND THEMSELVES (AGAINST ME?).
YOU MUST TRY TO SECURE OUR NATIONAL DEFENCE AND SECURITY, AND ALSO MAINTAIN AND PROMOTE THE HARMONY AND MUTUAL TRUST AMONG OUR CITIZENS IN OUR DEMOCRATIC SOCIETY -- WITH SPECIAL REGARD TO OUR NATIONAL PLEDGE -- WHILE PROTECTING THE SAME CITIZENS' CIVIL LIBERTIES AND THEIR PRIVACY !
AND, FRIENDS AND SUPPORTERS, BROTHERS AND SISTERS, AND FELLOW CITIZENS GENERALLY, WHAT --YES, WHAT? (IN GOD'S NAME?) -- IS THE WHOLE POINT OF IT ALL ? (YES, I MEAN, ALL THESE MORONIC ATTEMPTS TO CONTROL -- AND TO EXERT THEIR (THE PAP GOVERNMENT'S) MORONIC AUTHORITY AND POWER OVER -- OUR CITIZENS ? IS IT TO PROVE, DEAREST ONES, THAT THEY (THE PAP BASTARDS) ARE SUPERIOR TO DEAR OLD ME, FINALLY, AFTER ALL THESE CRAZY YEARS (MORE THAN 36!) ? THAT THEY ARE SO CRAZY -- YES, STILL SO CRAZY AFTER ALL THESE MORONIC YEARS, TO EVEN WANT TO BE NUMBER ONE ?)
BUT WHAT -- AH, YES ! -- SUCH POLITICAL INFANTILISTS, THESE PAP LEADERS REALLY ARE, AFTER ALL ! (ALL INTELLIGENCE AND SECURITY -- BUT NO WISDOM AT ALL! REALLY AND TRULY PATHETIC! AND SAD!)
THE DAYS WHEN MPs VOTED, WITHOUT A DIVISION, ON MATTERS OF IMPORTANCE -- TO OUR SENSE OF FAIRPLAY AND JUSTICE AND RESPECT FOR FREEDOM AND HUMAN RIGHTS -- ARE OVER! tHIS IS ESPECIALLY SO, NOW THAT NOTHING EVER GETS DEBATED, OR VOTED ON, WITH A BACKGROUND OF ALMOST COMPLETE PUBLIC INDIFFERENCE (OR, WORST STILL, OF COWARDLY OR ELSE STUNNED SILENCE FROM THE MPs THEMSELVES!)
WHAT I AM (NOW), WAS (THEN), HAVE BEEN (SO FAR), HAD BEEN (FOR TOO LONG NOW), AND PROBABLY STILL WILL BE (IN THE FUTURE) MUST BE ANSWERED, EXACTLY, WITH REFERENCE TO : (I) THE HISTORICAL REALITY; AND (B) THE HISTORICAL TRUTH -- CONSIDERING AND CONCERNING MY PRESENT STATUS AND MY FUTURE PROSPECT -- AS A MAN, HUMAN BEING, CITIZEN AND WRITER!

[DEFINITIVE & UNCOMPROMISED] : THE LONG, LONG, LONG NIGHTMARE : THE HISTORY OF MY 36 YEARS AS A "POLITICAL INFANTILIST" -- ON PAPER ! (1972 - 2008)

2008-12-09T19:59:00.000-08:00

THE LONG AND BIG PUBLIC

MASQUERADE -- AS AN "AGENT"

(OR "EMPLOYEE") OF

THE SINGAPORE GOVERNMENT --

BUT ONLY ON PAPER !

ADVICE TO THOSE WHO ARE INVOLVED :

NOW IS THE MOMENT FOR YOU ALL

SURVEILLANCE OFFICERS

TO ACT, THINK, DECIDE AND DO --

AS I SAY AND PLEASE ! WHY?

THESE ARE MY REASONS :

(1) I've Had Enough (Of Such Scenario-Thinking and Story-Telling);

(2) It's Time For Me To Be Real, Realistic and Tough !

(3) IT'S TIME FOR THE MILITARY TOP BRASS,

WORKING IN SAFTI IN 1972, TO ADMIT, CONFESS, APOLOGIZE

AND BE CONTRITE NOW -- IF

THEY STILL HAVE ANY SEMBLANCE OF HONOUR, SELF-

RESPECT AND DECENCY !!!

Readers of my entire series of postings in my 3 blogs : especially http://thenon-romanticloverandwriter.blogspot.com/ -- which is the most currently active and constantly updated blog now -- and also the more familiar and bitter articles in : http://afighterandalovertoo.blogspot.com/ , will now be the first to know the TRUTH about why there are so many discrepancies, contradictions, inconsistencies and illogicalities in the many accounts which I've had given to readers of these blogs about myself and my life in the past 36 years or so.

I've had enough ! (as the title of this entry indicates) : announcing my entry into the world of "above-ground" or "on-the-ground" professional writing (and blogging), beginning from many months back (IN THE YEAR 2008), and which has given me so much power as a no-longer-underground thinking writer! It's time, yes, for me to be TOUGH -- and disclose, passionately and with a renewed sense of immediacy and urgency (for I am no longer still young), the reasons for my inexplicable and unjustifiable EMOTIONAL sufferings, HUMILIATION and INTELLECTUAL impoverishment THROUGHOUT MORE THAN 36 years now.

I have recounted then in my blog entries, including the latest ones -- my plight and predicament as a near-candidate for CONSIDERATION and, eventually, PUBLIC HIGHLIGHTING -- BY THE INTERNATIONAL HUMAN RIGHTS ORGANISATIONS -- OF MY BASIC HUMAN RIGHTS (PARTICULARLY THOSE OF MINE AS A MAN) BEING MORONICALLY AND IDIOTICALLY ABUSED BY THE FUCKING SINGAPORE GOVERNMENT! As someone WHO IS CLEARLY AND EVIDENTLY TARGETTED by the local INTELLIGENCE and SECURITY authorities (in a case of human rights abuses), and as one who indomitably and forcefully resists all attempts by the security and intelligence authorities to force one into a position of ZERO (so that one would have no other alternatives but to accept the sole and undivided leadership of the Singapore Government), I will forever insist on finding out the truth behind or underneath our highly compromised and, expectedly, very commercially successful print-media "writers"! Considering the quality, strength, range and standard of my, so far, electronically published writings, as reflected in my numerous blog articles or essays; and keeping in mind the psychological and emotional "long-sufferings" (and also physical loneliness, socially isolation, and love-starved and yet unmarried status and lifestyle -- but certainly not of a man who is totally sexually deprived or frustrated) of a man who has had plenty of long-time and varied experiences patronizing adult female prostitutes, especially those wonderful Chinese girls working in Geylang); and, lastly, viewing his less than "model citizen" status, and also considering the relentless and merciless pressure applied by the "good" and "able" (but certainly NOT caring) surveillance authorities, for far too long now, it is not difficult to understand now why I have sunk or descended into my lowest level of inhuman and pitiful existence -- even as a stubbornly thrifty consumer! That is why I have been seeking -- oh, goodness! gracious! -- public FINANCIAL assistance from the Singapore Government -- in such a humiliating way, at more than 55 years of age, and hence, as a thinking Senior Citizen who, no less than any other "highly qualified" professionals in the same trade, business, art, or activity, and probably encountering the same financial problems as mine, could have been so motivated enough by his own causes, principles, ideas, values, goals and beliefs, to go in search of ladies of the morning, afternoon and night, in order to satisfy his basic sexual needs, as a still-vigorous horny man, with the greatest of ease! So why has he become so poor?

The whole issue of my plight is centred around this question: Why am I -- or, why have I become -- so politically "untouchable", so financially unrewarded, and professionally unsuccessful as a WRITER? WHO are the people responsible for inducing in me such "untouchability", such "incapacity", such lack of intellectual excellence, such lack of assuredness in personal and professional achievements? Why have I become so unsuccessful -- as a writer of serious, quality essays, articles and books?

UNVEILLING THE PUBLIC MASQUERADE -- AND THE COVER-UP ( ADOPTED OR CONSTRUCTED BY THE EX-OFFICERS IN THE OLD MILITARY SECURITY DEPARTMENT (1976) -- AND THEIR SUPPORT OF, AND ASSISTANCE TO, THESE FUCKING SAFTI MILITARY OFFICERS (THE TOP BRASS) WHO MADE THE ERRONEOUS DECISION TO "IMPLANT" ME IN 1972, AFTER I HAD GONE AWOL AND LATER RETURNED TO "KILO" COMPANY (SAFTI), WHERE I WAS UNDERGOING SECTION LEADER TRAINING:

OF PAPER CERTIFICATES, PAPER DOCUMENTS,

AND OTHER PAPER "EVIDENCES" ON

MY SUPPOSED "INCAPABILITY"

TO WORK AS A PROFESSINAL WRITER :

MILITARY SECURITY DEPARTMENT (MINDEF), in 1976, is a partner in supporting and in covering up this crime of "implanting" me (COMMITTED in 1972 BY SAFTI MILITARY AUTHORITIES). I was directed to seek medical attention by my Officer Commanding, KILO COMPANY and was warded at the Medical Centre in SAFTI for clinical observation by military doctors. I have had disclosed my personal reasons for going AWOL in many of my previous blog entries. But I have yet, up until now, yes -- at this particular moment in time [readers, please be patient and calm : just read on, and hopefully if my mother is blessing me now, and while I am trying very hard to remember -- yes, to locate with accuracy and detail and honesty -- the nature of the missing pieces to this huge puzzling aspect of my troubled and disturbed life (resulting from the crucial life-changing "implantation" of my being, as an enlisted but reluctant and ill-adapted soldier who had gone AWOL in the year 1972); and also, its effects on, and implications for, my dull and boring and unhappy life in the last 36 years or so. What, and who, had influenced and even determined -- in mostly negative, destructive and undesired ways -- the course of my life so far -- including all the petty-minded and cruel violations of, and disrespect for, my human rights! Hence, it is not difficult now to understand all the bizarre outcomes, unexpected "loony" behaviour and dismal (and moronic and idiotic) consequences of almost all of my attempts to realizel my cherished goals and ambitions -- as a man, human being, citizen and, still, UNPUBLISHED (though not electronically, in the Internet) writer of PRINTED BOOKS)!

A SELF-RELIANT & SELF-EDUCATED WRITER AT WORK -- ASKING QUESTIONS & REFLECTING ON LIFE IN THE POSTMODERN AGE -- AS AN UNREPENTANT INDIVIDUALIST

2008-12-06T21:40:00.000-08:00

SIX KEY ISSUES FOR CONSIDERATION BY

THE CITIZENS OF THE BRAVE NEW WORLD

OF POSTMODERNISM, GLOBALIZATION,

BIOPOLITICS, AND THE USE OF SURVEILLANCE

TECHNOLOGIES BY CORPORATE AND

GOVERNMENT AGENCIES -- AND THE RESULTANT

AND DISTURBING LOSS OF PRIVACY

INTRODUCTION :

My professional aim as a writer in this postmodern age is to be an honest user of words, phrases and sentences -- with, hopefully, class, skill, style and distinction -- and expressed in an authorial voice of reason and passion, power and inspiration. (I would have wanted to be, also, a moderate and balanced writer -- except that, as a thinker on the world, national and personal issues that concern me, in one way or another, I am unable to maintain and to express what used to be expected from such an ideal or model thinker -- in other words, one of moderation and balance in his thinking! Why this has to be so must be studied and examined by those intelligent, careful and politically aware professionals and citizens among us -- with regard to what has happened in our modern world, through such developments as postmodernism, globalization, biopolitics and the employment of surveillance technologies and techniques by both national governments and large powerful corporations.)

CHAPTER ONE :

WITHOUT FINANCIAL ASSISTANCE FROM N.W.C.D.C. : FACING A TERRIBLE "DEATH"? (A "POLITICAL" CHALLENGE TO MY POWER AS A THINKING AND STUBBORN WRITER!)

You've been secretly provoking me all these past 36 years -- in public and and in private -- leading me to adopt questionable behavioural practices and to commit, repeatedly, destructive and self-destructive acts in my externally induced and prompted irrational responses to such deliberate provocations!

Will I, yes, "die" a terrible "death" -- now that you are provoking me in such non-secretive ways and manners? (In, perhaps, 3 months" time?)

CHAPTER TWO :

MY 36 YEARS OF LIFE AND TIMES AS AN UNDERGROUND SOCIO-POLITICAL WRITER (1972 - 2008)

Besides provoking me in a calculated and calculative manner, ex-MSD officers and now, also SAFTI's former top-ranking officers (in 1976 and 1972), have still NOT been DISCLOSING (OR REVEALING) the SCIENTIFIC nature and basis -- with the provision of vital FACTS and DETAILS -- concerning my "implantation" in 1972 by SAFTI's military authorities [with its resultant and detestable consequence or outcome : i.e., my UNDESIRED and UNWANTED ability, as an "implantee", to receive (or to "hear", in other words) voice communications (or simply, "voices") -- and also, conversely, to transmit my own voice (or voice communications) to those who are "controlling" or "monitoring" me as surveillance officers or agents (using modern surveillance technologies and techniques)]! SUCH AN UNDESIRABLE AND UNDESIRED ABILITY -- TO ME, AT LEAST, PERSONALLY -- HAS THUS RENDERED ME AS SHOWING ONE OF THE MOST PROMINENT CLINICAL OR MEDICAL SYMPTOMS -- i.e., AUDITORY HALLUCINATIONS -- SUFFERED BY THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN STRICKEN BY THIS MODERN-DAY SCIENTIFIC AND TECHNOLOGICAL "MENTAL DISEASE" -- NAMELY, "SCHIZOPHRENIA"!

Yes, a full, genuine and proper account of such a technological and scientific (and "schizophrenic") way of human communication -- and its relation to modern reality -- will enable me, as a "victim" myself of such technological and scientific "schizophrenia", to seek a proper and full compensation from the authorities -- for such an act of "implantation", which was never consented to willingly by me more than 36 years ago -- in 1972!

CHAPTER THREE :

OPEN LETTER OF APPEAL TO MY HOST OF SUPPORTERS, HELPERS, SYMPATHIZERS, FRIENDS, ADMIRERS AND DEFENDERS

Do you care enough about my -- especially FINANCIAL -- plight and predicament?

Do you wish to share your your wealth with me?

Do you wish to bond with me -- as a fellow man, human being, citizen and professional?

This is a good case -- as good as it can get -- to see how caring, dynamic and cohesive our community leaders and representatives really are!

Do you treat me as a partner in the community?

Do you build a community for ALL -- or only for some?

How do you propose to enhance the quality of my life if you can only offer 3 months' supply of Food Vouchers to me -- each month's allotment to worth only S$30.00 (for buying only essential groceries)? Dear Sirs, I need cash -- SIMPLY!

CHAPTER FOUR :

MY NEED FOR (ENOUGH) MONEY AND PENETRATIVE SEXUAL INTERCOURSE (WITH, OBVIOUSLY, WOMEN AND GIRLS -- PHYSICALLY DESIRABLE ONES, THAT IS!)

I need, at least, an amount of $600.oo in my monthly income now -- AS RENT given to me monthly by my loyal tenants -- in order to be able to live meaningfully and productively and also to be able to satisfy my sexual needs as a man, with the help of prostitutes!

Am I being irresponsible and morally contemptible -- and financially unsound? But, dear readers, I only need to have enough money to pay for the sexual services of a Chinese prostitute from Geylang at least once a month! (How more brutally frank and natural -- and normal -- do you want me to be, girls?)

I will always, truly and humbly, remain as an AMOROUS self-trained and self-educated writer and intellectual -- till I am physically incapable of being so!

CHAPTER FIVE :

MY POLITICAL AWAKENING AT AGE 55 (IN THE YEAR 2008)

I'm turning in a new direction now -- politically -- in response to my own current plight and predicament. All through the past 36 years, I've been trying to be MODERATE and BALANCED in my thinking on politics.

Now, I'm changing -- because my own circumstances have been changing! I'm turning more towards the left -- and thus becoming a 21st century libertarian and a liberal -- with a penetrative, imaginative, observant, perspicuous and coherent mind!

It is no small measure of success on my part, as a reluctant and unhappy "implantee", with my highest educational level at pre-university 2, to say humbly and respectfully, in acknowledgment of my sincere gratitude towards the N.W.C.D.C. officers, who had been attending attentively to my urgent request and prompt application for FINANCIAL assistance, "Thank you very much!"

They have the power to solve my FINANCIAL predicament (with all its causes and consequences -- personal and public, private and official, bizarre and normal -- that I, as a discerning thinker, know how to separate those who have been responsible, as my detractors, enemies and agent provocateurs, for my plight and predicament -- yes, from those who, as my helpers, supporters, admirers, friends and defenders, have been reading, eagerly and productively, all my explanations of, and explorations into important current issues and events that are affecting my life -- in my numerous, regularly updated and very active postings in my 3 well-established and influential blogs.

Yes, I'll continue to confirm, daily, that my more than 36-year-old private and public struggles -- including my POLITICAL struggle [as reflected in my more than 45 posted comments in the SDP website -- http://www.yoursdp.org/ ] -- against being reduced to a mere robotic SUBJECT by the governmental authorities (through their proxies, the surveillance agents or officers) -- and in facing all problems of food and cash insufficiency; and further, in confronting all kinds of relentless official mental and emotional pressures applied on me -- have NOT all been in vain!

I will persist in my writer's endeavour; I will insist on my right to write --and to express myself as freely as I please; and I will strive to write as fully, clearly, rationally (but with my self-determined liberty to defend myself against mean, unjustified and nasty -- not to mention pompous --remarks or criticisms by my resorting, skillfully, to sarcastic retorts). Yes, I will attempt to write powerfully, passionately and courageously --without contradicting my own thinking and behaviour!

CHAPTER SIX :

MY FUTURE AND POSITION IN THE INTERNATIONAL COMMUNITY OF WRITERS AND BLOGGERS

I'll turn this very moment (on a perfectly ordinary weekday night like this -- 0n 29.04.2009, Wednesday, 9.13 pm) into one that will decide my future as a writer. All I need now is a braver, more assertive, bolder and more emphatic on-line or internet presence -- namely, a LOUD, DISTINCT, CLEAR AND LOGICAL establishment of my undeniable authorial voice -- and a constant striving to ensure that my voice -- a careful and intelligent one -- will be a voice that would be listened to by those who matter!

Yes, it will be a heart-felt, honest, and diligently practised voice; and one that is constantly speaking up on issues that matter!

I won't, for the present moment, be that particularly bothered about having my writings published in PRINTED formats. As long as my essays or articles are NOT COLLECTED and PUBLISHED via THE PRINTED MEDIA or INDUSTRY, I will remain intellectually and professionally unfulfilled and dissatisfied. I will still be an unhappily committed writer of socio-psychological-cultural-political essays!

This is WHAT I REALLY AM, with all my powers and strengths and abilities -- as well as my undeniable blemishes, ugliness, defects, and weaknesses. I WANT TO BE ACCEPTED, RECOGNISED, ACKNOWLEDGED AND REGARDED -- internationally, by intelligent, careful, diligent, and creative members of such a writers', readers' and intellectuals' community -- as a writer who matters!

I want to be eventually applauded and acclaimed for being able to achieve my goals and ambitions as precisely such a writer (yes, a writer who matters!) -- unapologetically!

AN HONEST VOICE IN POSTMODERN SINGAPORE (AT THIS CRUCIAL MOMENT IN HIS "LOONY" TIME AND LIFE AS AN UNHAPPY AND RELUCTANT "IMPLANTEE" SINCE 1972

2008-12-05T19:08:00.000-08:00

ON A SICK GOVERNMENT DEPARTMENT

(MILITARY SECURITY DEPARTMENT),

COVERING UP FOR THE GRAVE, SEVERE

AND INEXCUSABLE MISDEEDS

OF SOME COMPLETELY SICK TOP-RANKING

MILITARY OFFICERS,

WORKING IN SINGAPORE ARMED FORCES

TRAINING INSTITUTE (SAFTI)

IN THAT PIVOTAL -- TO THE AUTHOR

OF THIS ESSAY -- YEAR : 1972

CONTENTS:

CHAPTER ONE : TELECOMMUNICATION EQUIPMENT AND DEVICES : AS USED CONSTANTLY BY OFFICERS FROM INTELLIGENCE AND SECURITY GOVERNMENT DEPARTMENTS, IN THEIR CONSTANT USE OF SURVEILLANCE TECHNOLOGIES AND TECHNIQUES, WITH THE AVOWED "DEFENSIBLE" PURPOSE OF CONTROLLING "IMPLANTEES" FOR, PURPORTEDLY OR PRESUMABLY, NATIONAL PURPOSES

CHAPTER TWO : THE USE OF CREATIVE DEFENCES -- SUCH AS THE USE OF RADIO AMPLIFICATION DEVICES -- BY SUFFERING, PRESSURIZED AND VICTIMIZED "IMPLANTEES", IN THEIR ATTEMPTS TO WARD OFF SUCH RELENTLESS PERSONAL ATTACKS OR INVASIONS OR VIOLATIONS OF THEIR HUMAN RIGHTS -- INCLUDING THE RIGHT TO ONE'S OWN PRIVATE MOMENTS -- TO DESTABILIZE AND TO "DESTROY" THE UNWELCOME, INSULTING AND DISRESPECTFUL EFFORTS BY GOVERNMENTAL SURVEILLANCE OFFICERS, WHO WANT TO CONTROL THESE ALMOST HELPLESS AND UNFORTUNATE "IMPLANTEES" -- AGAINST THEIR OWN INDIVIDUAL INTENTIONS, NEEDS, PRINCIPLES, BELIEFS AND AIMS (AS, YES!, ADMITTEDLY -- FOR MANY STILL !) PITIFULLY INNOCENT, UNKNOWING AND UNINFORMED CITIZENS, HUMAN BEINGS, MEN AND WOMEN, AND PROFESSIONALS (OR WORKERS)

MY STUNNING, CHARMING, BEAUTIFUL, DYNAMIC, LOVELY AND ANGELIC WOMEN -- NEEDING VERY FEW WORDS TO DESCRIBE THEM ..... OR MYSELF!

2008-12-02T20:17:00.000-08:00

EXTRACTS FROM

MY RANDOM NOTES,

TAKEN AS A "GAY" WRITER,

ON MY GAY COMPANY

OF WILLING WOMEN AND GIRLS --

EACH AND EVERY DAY

OF MY AMOROUSLY

"GAY" WRITER'S LIFE!

PRELUDE:

I NEED PLENTY OF REGULAR SEMINAL EMISSIONS (BY ENGAGING IN PENETRATIVE SEXUAL INTERCOURSE FREQUENTLY -- WITH WOMEN, OBVIOUSLY)!

MY FIRST PENETRATIVE SEXUAL INTERCOURSE WITH AN ENGLISH-SPEAKING AND WILLING WOMAN HAPPENED ONE EVENING SOMETIME IN THE 1980s, WHEN I BOOKED THE SEXUAL SERVICES OF A THAI MASSEUSE AT A HEALTH CENTRE IN THAILAND. THE VOLUPTUOUS, INTERESTING AND PRETTY GIRL (OF ABOUT 23 YEARS), WHOSE NAME SHALL REMAIN UNKNOWN TO READERS, GAVE ME THE BEST INTRODUCTION TO MY SUBSEQUENT LIFE AS AN AMOROUS, LONG-HAIRED, LIBERATED, LIBERAL AND LIBERTARIAN WRITER-INTELLECTUUAL!

AN ABBREVIATED LIST OF MY PENETRATIVE SEXUAL ENCOUNTERS (NOT IN PROGRESSIVE ORDER OF DATES OF OCCASION) :

24.11.2008 (MON). -- An afternoon to remember, at Long John Silver, Golden Village in Yishun. I saw this stunning and genial Eurasian girl (about 26) sitting with her boyfriend (an Indian) and 2 other female friends. This young woman, whom I'll call Ms Cock Sucker, is sexy, attractive and utterly desirable! I'd like to continue my fucking sessions with girls and women by using her as my standard or ideal model for a sexual partner! Ah, the more I look at her -- at her expressive face, her actions, her gestures, her non-spying demeanour, the more I want to possess her -- as my true love! Ooh, I forgot! I like her VOICE too! But I'm realistic: I can only HAVE her if she is willing to prostitute herself! I've come to regard female spies as unreliable allies -- not to mention lovers! [But I digress! To return to Ms Cock Sucker: She smiles so sexily (ah, those amazingly white teeth!) -- what else does a man want, except to see her girlfriend/lover smile sexily?] Incidentally, will Jessie be the FIRST English-speaking and English-educated girl that I'd fuck -- tonight?

5.11.2008 (Wed). -- Siow Yee, Chinese, 30, looks good to eat, and I did (between 5.25 pm and 6.25 pm) on that day at a Geylang Hotel. A total woman with a heart of gold!

3.6.2008 -- Met Michelle, a Thai masseuse at Monte Carlo Health Centre. I've fallen for her quite easily and perhaps rashly (!). I'll slowly let her into my heart, soul, mind and body. I'll no longer be lonely when I'm with this charming girl -- sweet and lovely! Michelle, I love you!

19.10.2008 (Sun). -- Met Yi Xuan ("Xuan Xuan"), 22 years old, pleasant-looking, responsive, interested. Spent more than one hour (between 11.30 am and 12.45 pm) with her in an air-conditioned room booked from a hotel in Geylang. Yes, she has now become my new-found girlfriend and lover! Terrific!

27.10.2008. -- Met Elizabeth, a young Singaporean girl at Borders, Orchard Road, at around 4.00 pm. She reads poetry -- and also Dante, Che Guevara, Fidel Castro! I gave her my name card!

12.10.2008 (Sun). -- Met Sheena Elloso, 23, Filipino, pretty, sexy, soft-spoken, smooth-skinned, friendly, warm-hearted, feminine, cheerful, shapely, petite, long-haired, and presently attached to her architect boyfriend. She is absoluterly wonderful to be with! I chatted intimately with Sheena; and we drank and shared, at a fast food outlet located at the basement of a shopping centre in Orchard Road, the warm coffee-with-milk which I had brought from my home. I kissed her and touched her body -- so smooth, finely toned and soft! I spent about 25 minutes with this wonderful Sheena Elloso.

17.11.2008. -- Met Siow Yee, Chinese, 23, whom I have been waiting for too long to be MY sexual partner. Yes, I finally did get to enter her, TO PENETRATE HER, to fuck her, to thrust into her cunt with my fully erect prick, and to ejaculate into her cunt, yes, finally, with great pleasure, enjoyment and satisfaction. Her cunt -- oh, her cunt that night! -- it was a beautiful, inventive, creative and warm cunt! My session with her (at a hotel in Geylang) lasted from 7.30 pm to 8.00 pm.

Letter To The Prime Minister of Singpore : On The Predictable Official Response To My Application For Financial Assistance

2008-11-29T17:10:00.000-08:00

URGENT ATTENTION NEEDED

FROM THE PRIME MINISTER

OF SINGAPORE

[BRIGADIER-GENERAL (BG) LEE HSIEN LOONG] :

The Prime Minister,
Prime Minister's Office,
Istana,
Orchard Road,
Singapore 238823.
(Attention: Mr Lee Hsien Loong)

c.c. to : Minister for Law; and the President of Singapore

Dear Prime Minister,

Re: Top Secret Project, Headed by Former MSD Officer, Mr Tan Hong Huat (with the rank of Captain in 1976; and now, of Retired Colonel, in 2009)

I'm a prisoner of the expectations of the former Military Security Department (MSD), where I once worked at, for about 10 months (between Dec. 1975 and Oct. 1976).

Do they not realize that I'm just as aware of the practical realities of their "scenario thinking" -- as they themselves are, controlling me, an ex-MSD clerical officer in its Registry -- from the time I left MSD all these past 36 years or so ago?

But I'm not prepared to accept any unfair outcome and consequence of having to conform to the requirements of their -- especially, political "scenario thinking" in practice. I'm not going to be a puppet, a pawn, or a figurehead! I'm also, neither a worshipper nor an idolizer!

Their "scenarios" are often contradictory and paradoxical, don't they realize?

Sir, I'm a realistic man (in spite of my basic idealism) : I, too, am aware of the dilemmas, realities, ambiguities, tensions and uncertainties that lie at the bottom of all our attempts at communicating with one another -- to find a good settlement to our problem --one which resulted from my unwilling implantation in 1972 (an unhappy event whose related details and involved decision-making by those military officers at SAFTI at that time in 1972 and whose decision to implant me have all yet to be EXPLAINED, in full and with clarity, to me in this significant year 2009. What exactly do you mean when you make me (or prompt me to) claim or say that I'm an "implantee"? What is an implantee?

Sir, my whole life from now onwards depends on whether or not I am going to receive detailed information concerning my implantation in 1972 -- which I had never consented to in the first place!

I am not a "both/and" thinker, please! I'm an "either/or" thinker, Sir! I don't accept that "both/and" thinking is the only way to make hard (political) decisions that will lead to the solution of my problem -- which is not merely financial in nature. Sir, you should know!

Please avail me of your insights and wisdom -- honed from years of political leadership. I'll be glad to learn from you.

I apologize for causing you much irritation, hurt, frustration, anger, and immense annoyance with my disparaging and disrespectful remarks and responses to your handling of State affairs and issues -- in my comments posted in my blogs and those in SDP website (namely, and respectively: http://afighterandalovertoo.blogspot.com/ and http://www.yoursdp.org/ ).

But I just don't like pomposity in a person -- especially in a person with an official position with so much unusually (or automatically) -- and speedily -- conferred autocratic POWER over all others -- be they subordinates or the commom people!

And I prefer to confront realities -- not illusions (yes, including "conspiracies", "scenarios" and "crises"), as manufactured and concocted by your hardworking former MSD officers and other related personnel from the Singapore Government! And aren't those just mere propaganda? Oh, the sordidness of opportunist politics -- with all its political maneuvering, harassment, manipulation and manhandling I'm too intelligent and too careful a thinker and observer to let myself be insulted and misled in this infantile manner. On the ground that my own destiny will be taken charge of by "madmen" and "madwomen" who use security and intelligence officers against me (a "barbarian")? It all goes back to the years of LKY, who ran a one-man show -- tooautocratic to allow Cabinet overnment to flourish! Well, LKY is very effective -- especially when it comes to matters of the economy! And he doesn't care about "popularity"!

Please, Sir, don't panic! We have a large mutual database -- your kind, officially, and that of my own version, based on my own intellectual framework and experiences.

Sir, please make use of our mutual knowledge, experiences. and even our imagination to serve as guides to the solution of my (and our) problem -- which requires and demands our collaboration.

We should try to ensure that the possible is not only probable but also achievable!

I WANT (as the lead singer in A ROCK GROUP CALLED "QUEEN" ONCE SANG) TO BE FREE! SIR, ARE YOU LISTENING WITH YOUR HEART, MIND, SOUL AND BODY TO MY HUMBLE AND EVEN DESPERATE PLEA to you for help -- for your intervention in my case, a TOP SECRET PROJECT THAT HAS INVOLVED SO MANY PEOPLE FOR THE LAST 36 YEARS AND INCURRED SO MUCH EXPENSES! (AND PRODUCED SO MUCH PAIN, ANGER, HURT AND SORROW IN SO MANY PEOPLE!)

Let us, Sir, put a FINAL and CONCLUSIVE cover to this open-ended issue, which has been leading me, especially, as a "victimized" and reluctant "government employee" or "agent", for the past 36 years, to a point, my lowest point!, where I could not survive even as a humble but, to put it simply, talented citizen and writer/blogger (a position and point in my life where I have to suffer the humiliation of seeking FINANCIAL assistance from the Singapore Government, who always insists on people being SELF-RELIANT, a quality that I myself subscribe to but which I am unable to practise in reality, for the majority of the past 36 years of my life as an unhappy and reluctant implantee of the OFTEN BARBARIC Singapore Government)!

Sir, please ask the Military Security Department officials and officers (the former ones, namely --with whom I was working between Dec 1975 and Oct 1976) for information and for their coooperation and initiative in our attempt to come to a final understanding/resolution/solution of this thorny problem!

Thank you, Sir!

Yours truly,

DAVID CHUA CHUAN SEAH
(An Orderly And Coherent Mind,
& A Humble One To Boot!)

BLOGS/WEBSITES: http://afighterandalovertoo.blogspot.com/
http://thenon-romanticloverandwriter.blogspot.com
http://trainofmypresence.blogspot.com
http://wholecity.blogspot.com

E-mail: chua.chuanseah4@gmail.com

ADDENDUM ONE

(TO THE EX-MSD OFFICERS) :

EVERYONE ENGAGED IN OUR COLLABORATIVE EFFORT OR VENTURE SHOULD HONESTLY MEAN EXACTLY WHAT HE OR SHE SAYS;
MY OWN PREDICAMENT IS, AFTER ALL, NOT GOING TO LEAD ME INTO A SITUATION WHERE I'D BE SENTENCED TO LIFE-IMPRISONMENT OR DEATH;
SINCE 1972, I'VE FACED THE MERETRICIOUS, THE MERCENARY, AND THE WISED-UP TRICKS AND HANDIWORKS OF PEOPLE WHO ARE OUT TO EXPLOIT MY WEAKNESSES;
I'LL DEFY SERIOUS AND BELIEVABLE THREATS TO MY LIFE IN ORDER TO KEEP MY FREE THINKING AND FREE EXPRESSING ALIVE;
TO ACCUSE ME, MOST AMAZINGLY OF ALL, OF WRITING FOR MONEY, IS TRULY INSULTING! WHAT NEXT?;
WILL YOU, SIR (HEAD OF TOP SECRET EX-MSD PROJECT), NOW RENEGE ON OUR MUTUAL (UNSPOKEN AND UNACKNOWLEDGED) AGREEMENT -- BASED ON OUR AIMS AND INTERESTS (ESPECIALLY ON OUR "CONTRACTUIAL OBLIGATIONS") TO HELP ME BRING OUT -- AT LEAST ONCE -- A PRINTED AND PUBLISHED (NOT ELECTRONICALLY VIA THE INTERNET) BOOK OF COLLECTED ESSAYS OF MINE, WRITTEN AS THEY SHOULD BE, BY A "SPY" (LIKE ME!) -- ACTING IN THE ROLE OF A WRITER?

PLEASE, I HAVE NEVER TRIED TO IMPRESS PEOPLE WITH MY USE OF IRONY. (I AM NOT EVEN SURE WHAT IT MEANS!) I AM, HOWEVER, AWARE THAT I'VE A LITERAL MENTALITY. (AND I'LL LIKE TO REMIND MILITARY SECURITY DEPARTMENT OFFICERS (BOTH CURRENT AND FORMER ONES) THAT I'M A LITERAL-MINDED MAN, HUMAN BEING, CITIZEN AND WRITER;

SO, PLEASE SIRS, DON'T ACCUSE ME OF SUPPORTING OR OF PROMOTING "WESTERN CULTURAL COLONIALISM" OR "WESTERN FORMS OF CONDESCENSION" TOWARDS OUR PEOPLE. NO, I'M NOT DOING ANYTHING OF THAT SORT!

LASTLY, I WANT TO DECLARE THAT, AS A WRITER, I'M JUST TRYING TO EXPRESS MY LEARNING AND EDUCATION -- WHICH, I AM CLAIMING, HAS BENEFITED MUCH FROM THE (SOMETIMES UNFAIRLY, SUPERFICIALLY, AND FLIPPANTLY DISMISSED) WESTERN INTELLECTUAL TRADITION.

Thank You!

From : David Chua Chuan Seah

(Blogger/Writer)

30.11.08 (10.50 am), Sunday

3.5.09 (12.48 pm), Sunday (Date, Time & Day of This Updated Document/Letter)

THE FUTURE IS OURS : AS DISSENTING VOICES OF CONSCIENCE

2008-11-20T20:43:00.000-08:00

Fighting Words of Wisdom

and Experience:

Internet Fighters At Work!

We can do what other (unaware and unknowing) activists and politicians can't do here -- specifically, by precisely NOT becoming political figureheads! We just want real, genuine, effective and substantial results -- not mere cosmetic, concocted, manufactured and "in-house" changes!
We stand back when we should have intervened, and we intervene when we should NOT! Why the "ineptitude"? (Or "dishonesty"?)
We have absolutely NO evidence of our so-called "continual", "continuing", "continuous", "continued", "contagious", "confining" and "comfortable" utilization (or, yes!, USAGE) of the VITAL Internet Services which are provided by STARHUB, the Internet Service Provider!
Logically, from one of our leading dissident blogger's (David Chua Chuan Seah's) viewpoint, what has STARHUB, the I.S.P., got to do with his present plight and predicament as a FINANCIALLY destitute writer/blogger?
Perhaps this is the truth: Had he been able -- intelligently, ardently, ingeniously, bravely, honestly, eloquently, confidently, learnedly, sensitively, critically and thoughtfully -- to use the I.S.P.'s useful and "vitalistic" services all these years, he might have become, probably, "terminally ill"! [Or, immensely happy, satisfied and very successful -- especially sexually -- as a man, human being, citizen and writer (of serious, quality essays and books)!]
On our way to our destination, we'll make many stop-overs and detours; yet, we'll still arrive there! That's how confident and resourceful we are!
We have many supporters and defenders, friends ands admirers, interested helpers and aggrieved, victimised citizens!
We, the dissident bloggers, oppositionist writers and individualists do NOT fear our detractors and enemies, yes! -- including the dishonest, inept and corrupted spies!
The line between success and failure for us is, at the very highest level, so thin that any mistake on our part -- or any miscalculation (as if we are based entirely on "calculation"!) on our part -- would be a total disaster for all our hard work, and a total defeat for all our hopes!
We'll always attempt to DISRUPT -- yes!, ABRUPTLY -- their (method of) operation and control, which is to influence our mind in every way possible (and in their favour!) -- by employing all kinds of effective gadgets, equioment, devices and inventions -- in order to suddenly shock, stun, surprise and alarm them!
Can the one and only great "loony" but high-spirited individualist Mr David Chua Chuan Seah take on -- with resourcefulness, practised confidence and diligence -- the immense challenge of successfully countering the ill-effects of attempts made by compromised members of the Surveillance Team (from both "in-house" loyalists and invited contributors) to impose threats on their victims (the suspected subversives of the Singapore Establishment)?
Yes, he can! He already did! So far! He promises our sympathizers, supporters, friends, admirers, interested readers and helpers, defenders, and aggrieved and victimized citizens: He will not disappoint you! After all, he neither claims to be, nor poses as the last civilised man in this postmodern Singapore! (Oh, Singapore!)

Why The Silence (From Those Surveillance Officers)? Stunned, Once Again!, By My Honesty, Truthfulness, Self-Awareness and Power -- and "Stubborness"

2008-11-18T21:20:00.000-08:00

The Predictable Official Response

To My Application

For Financial Assistance

To :

The Acting Deputy General Manager,
North West Community Development Council,
Singapore.

Dear Ms Crystal Teng,

Do You Really -- Truly and Sincerely -- CARE, SHARE AND BOND (With Those You Serve?)

PLEASE REFER TO YOUR REPLY, on 14.11.08 (Case Ref: 010657/03), to my humble application for FINANCIAL assistance from the Singapore Government -- through your highly esteemed social welfare agency.

Your response to my need for FINANCIAL assistance is to offer me, yes!, Food Vouchers for 3 months (worth S$30.00 per month)! How totally pathetic! What is your understanding of my situation? What compassion is shown by the authority? Let me tell you -- clearly, loudly, distinctly and logically : I WILL collect my entitlement of Food Vouchers from your NWCDC -- and still remain fully aggrieved and angered by your refusal to help me FINANCIALLY -- but instead, to give me such a miserable token "gift" from your immense wealth and high salary?

Are these Singapore Government officers trying to placate me with such token small gestures of "assistance" and "support" -- knowing all-too-well about my FEW needs and their easily-satisfied nature? Are they trying, for the satisfaction of witnessing my humiliating concession to the Singapore Government, to exchange such placation for, to wit, my willingness to concede my rights to live my own life in my own way?

Such a lame, odious and ultimately infantile -- not to mention insulting and deceiving -- response from the authorities will only serve to harm the PAP's next re-election campaign, when it will, once again, seek to win even more electoral votes from even more constituents in the next General Elections. It will be the most crucial and important GE among them all -- in our short national history! (Don't worry, the preparations of the Opposition Parties this time -- right from the very beginning, involving the selection and nomination of contesting candidates -- will NOT be like the kind of afore-said response which the PAP Government and its surveillance officers have given me so far -- in responding, precisely, to my attempt to seek FINANCIAL help to extend my ability to live a dignified and self-respecting and hopefully long life.

I'm a very lonely man and citizen (despite having numerous contacts, every day, with people from all walks of life -- regardless of age, sex, race, language, education, religion, and nationality -- in the course of my work as a writer).

And I'm being constantly harassed and derided by the Singapore Government's surveillance officers, who have driven me to a "loony" state of FINANCIAL destitution -- and blaming me for such a personal crisis by claiming that my regular patronization of prostitutes (yes, but how many a month, in the first place?) is the cause of my FINANCIAL problem! But do I have to apologize for my attempts, as a still healthy 55-year-old man -- in spite of suffering from diabetes, high blood pressure and high cholesterol (whose regular treatment by polyclinic doctors HAVE SO FAR absorbed a substantial amount of my limited FINANCIAL resources) -- to satisfy my sexual needs?

Honourable men and women, I am still a single, a man -- a physically strong bachelor -- at the age of 55 -- a Senior Citizen no less, and I have the right to patronize the services of prostitutes -- even with my limited FINANCIAL resources!

I've already withdrawn, upon reaching the age of 55 this July, a sum of more than S$3,000.00 from the Special Account of my CPF -- there is no more money left in my Ordinary Account . I've already used part of it to pay for my outstanding and current HDB loan instalment -- and about most of the remaining money to buy a Personal Computer (ACER Brand) on 5.8.08 -- to help me in my work as a writer. This PC, however, had already been sold recently, in order for me to pay my outstanding bills.

As I've sold my PC (at a really great loss!), I'd to terminate my internet service account, run by STARHUB, which then billed me an additional sum of $400.oo (for early termination of service -- agreed upon in our contract) -- to bring my current debt to STARHUB to more than $660.00! (And that for just a few weeks of usage of my PC!)

I've also sold the 2 Nokia handphones that I'd bought this year , on two separate occasions (0n 21.6.08 and on 30.9.08), to facilitate my communication with publishers. Both handphones had since been sold, again on two separate occasions (on 12.9.08 and on 18.11.08), unwillingly and desperately, to help me buy essential food items for my daily consumption.

My DEPENDANTS PROTECTION SCHEME policy will soon be terminated if I can't renew it by paying, in full, the annual premium of $260.00 to the insurer, NTUC Income.

I had to sell off my entire vast collection of my treasured CDs and DVDs -- in order to pay for my monthly bills.

I've even contemplated selling my only portable radio receiver left in my sparsely-furnished flat, which would truly deny me the opportunity to listen to my favourite BBC news and current affairs programmes (the only source of information about the world for me now, since I've long stopped buying the local dailies for both financial and political reasons).

As a Senior Citizen, I'm, however, unable even to enjoy the special movie-going concession of paying only $4.00 flor a ticket to watch a movie at the local cinema.

On another related but seemingly insignificant matter: Why can't I, a Senior Citizen at the official age of 55 (plus a few months) who, to at least the kind operators of local cinemas, can enjoy a cinema show for S$4.00, be also allowed to qualify for the similar use of concessionary tickets when travelling on our buses and MRT trains? Why can't the bus transport operators and the MRT auhorities follow the same age ruling or requirement for consideration as a Senior Citizen -- at age 55 instead 0f 60! -- to be allowed, yes, as an officially-declared Senior Citizen, to travel on our buses and MRT trains?

I've also considered selling off my 3-room HDB flat in an eventuality -- so as to solve all my FINANCIAL problems, caused primarily by my inability to service, fully and regularly, my monthly instalment payments (whose settlement every month is needed in order for me to repay, progressively, the entire loan given to me by the HDB, upon my purchase of my flat in 1997).

Publishers have also been rejecting my writings for publication as books, for fear of offending the authorities with their support, business-wise or commercially speaking, for my sensitive and provocative socio-political writings. How am I supposed to earn a living as a writer then?

My siblings have also stopped helping me FINANCIALLY. Without their monthly contributions to my monthly "income", I have only my loyal tenants to rely on, FINANCIALLY, for sustaining my livelihood. (My tenants pay me S$400.00 every month for renting my bedroom. And that is the only source of my monthly income now.)

I've already reached the lowest point of my FINANCIAL situation: I'm so destitute that I'm forced to sell off all my valuable personal items or properties in order to have enough money to buy food daily. (Don't even mention my need to pay all those troubling and unsettling household bills.) And I've been wearing mostly the same old clothes for more than 10 years now. I'm also unable to contribute to charitable and religious organizations -- although I'd like to.

I was so downright poor at one time -- reaching a point in my life when I' had to seriously persuade myself -- rationally (in others words, against my personal convictions) -- that I'd need to to sell, illegally, pirated VCDs and CDs, in order to have any money to buy food for myself at all! (Was it how I should have lived, worked and played -- all through the last 36 years -- as a "model" or "good" citizen?)

There are no more grey areas left in my life now. All personal items which are deemed worth selling at all, and which I consider dispensable, have mostly been sold. That is how desperate -- and how economical -- I have become, yes, you fucking bastards from MSD, ISD, SPF and the power-hungry and affluent members of the PAP leadership! (There are certain aspects in my being and in my life, let me remind them, that I will never try to convert into cash! Do you hear me?)

As a poor and helpless writer, my most important problem is still, to re-emphasize once more, to settle my outstanding and current HDB bills (amounting to S$1,577.25). With this in mind, on 13.11.08 (Thur.), I approached and met, in person, Mr Tan Wee Liat (Tel: 63985934), Estate Officer in HDB Yishun Branch Office, and spoke to him for about half-an-hour (between 2.30 pm and 3.05 pm) about my inability to pay my outstanding and current HDB bills. I asked him to help prevent the possibility of my being heavily indebted, in the long term, to the HDB. Even now, my seemingly insignificant debt to the HDB has been troubling and de-stabilizing me for a long time now -- affecting negatively my work and my ability as a writer. (Such tight FINANCIAL situation had even forced me to pawn my precious gold pendant and gold chain -- given to me for remembrance by my late mother -- so as to allow me to pay, partially, my household bills and also for the purchase of food items and other groceries.)

But what can Mr Tan Wee Liat do?

What will he, with due respect to his authoritative and responsible position, do?

Surely, the highest authority in the land can show him some initiative and cooperativeness -- as a problem-solver -- by letting Mr TAN WEE LIAT do what he can possibly do (from a sense of my truly difficult plight)? Perhaps, and I am speaking as an uninformed citizen, Mr Tan can grant me a TEMPORARY REPRIEVE FROM PAYMENT OF MY OUTSTANDING AND CURRENT HDB BILLS (lasting for an initial period of 6 months -- and involving an amount of money every month which, had I been compelled to use it for the payment of my HDB bills, would have prevented me from better utilizing it for the payment of all my essential household expenses and basic needs (such as food) -- in order to help me achieve a long-enough period of mental repose and, hence, of intellectual fertility and vibrancy, so as to ensure greater success for me as a serious, quality writer (a writer whose ability to satisfy his basic needs is presently undermined by the surveillance authorities)?

After all, to succeed as a writer, whose work is time-consuming and extremely demanding -- of the utmost effort, application, concentration and mental energy, one needs to be more than hardworking and merely capable of writing grammatically and interestingly.

I used to maintain 2 different bank accounts and had several Fixed Deposits and also yearly subscriptions to savings and insurance schemes in my "better-off" adult working years, when for financial reasons, I had to, as an unsuccessful writer not earning any money at all, I was forced, reluctantly and unhappily, to work in other unrelated non-writing (and quite boring, unchallenging and even menial) occupations and jobs in order to survive -- in jobs such as factory production work; clerical work; sales work; cleaning work; contract renovation work; shop assistance work; security (guard) work; delivery work; and waiter's work.

But now, I've just about slightly more than one Singapore dollar left in my only (POSB) bank account. I also have many outstanding household bills to settle with the various authorities. With almost no cash -- yes, no MONEY -- in my possession, how am I going to even try budgeting my spending activities and plans? I don't have the economic freedom to pursue my own money-making opportunities -- in my own way as a "stubborn" and "loony" writer! (Stopping me from eating chickens regularly is not the solution to my problems, dear!)

Surely, our "good" and "able" Singapore Government is not totally heartless? Surely, it can't ignore my calls and pleas for FINANCIAL assistance -- as mounted by my personal presence at the NWCDC (located at Woodlands Civic Centre) on 2 occasions now [the first on 12.7.08, which turned into an official rejection of my application, as confirmed to me by Ms Chin Tong Mui, Deputy General Manager, in a letter on 7.8.08 (Case Ref: 10657/03); and the second (and latest occasion) on 28.10.08, when I duly presented many of my important personal and "public" documents, including printed copies of my relevant blog posts (http://afighterandalovertoo.blogspot.com/), to my interviewing officer -- a Malay woman by the name of Mazlaina -- for her own report and presentation to the higher authorities, so that they can refer to them and, of course, take urgent action or apply effective solution (after giving them their utmost attention)!

Unlike the first occasion, when I was interviewed by a seemingly concerned (and admittedly utterly charming) "socially working" executive officer -- with seemingly impeccable academic credentials and a listening ear, I was very emotionally charged and intellectually focused this time -- on my second appearance inside the NWCDC Interview Room -- where I pleaded for FINANCIAL assistance from the government by giving the equally attentive and genuinely concerned Senior Manager (a woman called Mazlaina), a comprehensive and honest account of my troubling plight and unsettling predicament as an oppositionist writer, working unsuccessfully to write and to publish my writings as books of collected essays. Mazlaina, after listening to my call for help, promised to refer my case to the senior authorities for further consideration and approval. I had, presumably then, managed to impress upon Mazlaina the SEVERITY and GRAVITY of my unenviable and de-stabilizing predicament.

I expect the highest authorities at the Ministry of Community Development, Youth and Sports (MCYS) to show more initiative and co-operativeness -- and not merely a "careful" assessment of my situation (by just following the ministry's policy guidelines)! After all, there is indeed A CHANGE IN MY CIRCUMSTANCES AT THE PRESENT MOMENT -- VASTLY DIFFERENT FROM THOSE IN EXISTENCE AT THE TIME OF MY FIRST APPLICATION FOR FINANCIAL ASSISTANCE!

Please do undertake genuine actions -- and thereby show serious, high-level and high-standard CONCERN for my plight and predicament as an unsuccessful writer who is unable to earn a living -- yes, to earn any income at all! -- in his role and capacity as a professionally serious and quality writer. It is a situation caused, in no small or insignificant manner, by the efforts and activities of the very same government surveillance officers who are spying and snooping on me, with their aim of controlling me and turning me into an obedient, uncritical, unthinking, apathetic and even cynical SUBJECT -- without any soul, heart, mind and (unviolated) body of his own -- without, yes, any INDIVIDUALITY of MY own!

To conclude, I demand a genuine -- not a cosmetic and temporary -- solution to my FINANCIAL predicament at the highest level -- from the highest authorities in the country -- and certainly not from some sorry pathetic, miserable and low-level "problem-solvers" like you, sorry Ms Teng -- a mere government functionary!

I want the Singapore Government to show more genuine understanding of the GRAVITY andf SEVERITY of my FINANCIAL situation -- as a poor, helpless and unfortunate writer under immense, constant and relentless pressure from the very same heartless government -- yes, from which I am trying, perhaps foolishly?, to seek FINANCIAL assistance (in order to alleviate, or better still, to resolve my FINANCIAL problems once and for all)!

Don't you realize the sheer IRONY -- is THAT the correct word? (you see? I have been suffering, and am still suffering, from 36 years of continuing interruptions, disruptions and corruptions of my language-using ability!) -- of IT all? I rest my case!

Addendum:

But I'm a man of rectitude. I'm a fearless individualist who believes I can make a difference to the world. To those who are on the right (and bright) side of history, I want them to realize this:

Historical truth will out!

And:

Principles are potent!

Through my incessant efforts as an uncompromising oppositionist (and now so-called "loony") writer, I'll light up the world; I'll lighten the load of those oppressed and victimized by the authorites; I'll light up their lives; I'll enlighten them; I'll be the light of their life; and, when lightning strikes (as it always will -- often unexpectedly too), I'll tell them not to take it lightly!

Let me now tell you more about my sacrifices as an oppositionist writer and individualist living and working in a postmodernist globalized and surveillance society like ours.

Firstly, I've not been to any foreign countries for the past 10 years -- until recently, that is (on a short trip to Malaysia) -- with the aim of expanding my intellectual horizons as a curious writer.

I had to terminate my Internet Account with the National Library Board just recently (because I was unable to pay for my usage of its services) -- although, as an industrious writer, I need to use the public library's PC daily in the course of my work.

VITAL NOTES (NUMBER ONE):

INDICATING PRECISELY

WHAT I MEAN -- AT AGE 55

YOUR ERRORS OR MISTAKES INDICATE THAT THEY ARE NOT ACCIDENTALLY COMMITTED BUT THE RESULT OF A CALCULATED DECISION-MAKING BY THE PARTY LEADERS;
THE CONSTANT CALCULATIVENESS OF THEIR ACTIONS INDICATE THAT THEY ARE BASED ON LONG-TERM PLANNING AND GOALS -- AND NOT ON SHORT-TERM AIMS AND GAINS;
MY INDEPENDENT MEMORY INDICATES TO ME THAT THOSE "ABLE" AND "GOOD" LEADERS ARE NOT TO BE TRUSTED;
MY FUNCTION AS A COMMANDER AND MASTER (OF MY OWN RESOURCES) IS TO OPPOSE MY ENEMIES -- INDICATING THAT I AM AWARE THAT THEY ARE JUST OUT TO EXERT THEIR AUTHORITY AND POWER AND TO IMPOSE THEIR CONTROL OVER ME;
MY PRESENT RESIDENCE (AND ITS OFFICIAL ADDRESS) IS NOW MY BASE FOR BOTH MY LONG-TERM PLANNING AND MY CURRENT DAY-TO-DAY OPERATIONS -- AS A "RECLUSIVE" WRITER, COMMANDEERING MY UNIQUE AND ORIGINAL RESOURCES -- AND ATTEMPTING TO MASTER MY OPPONENTS;
I'M NOW THE "RECLUSIVE" COMMANDANT -- OF MY OWN VALUES AND PRINCIPLES; OF MY IDEAS AND BELIEFS; OF MY ATTITUDES AND IDEALS -- AS A FULL-FLEDGED, FULL -TIME, AND PROFESSIONAL "STUBBORN" AND "LOONY" WRITER -- IN OUR POSTMODERNIST SURVEILLANCE SOCIETY!

VITAL NOTES (NUMBER TWO) :

INDICATING PRECISELY

WHAT I WANT OUT OF LIFE --

AT THE AGE OF 55

THIS WILL BE MY LAST -- PROVISIONALLY, TEMPORARILY AND TENTATIVELY --ATTEMPT TO PUBLICLY HEIGHTEN MY IMPACT ON MY FELLOW READERS AND CITIZENS (NOW AND IN THE FUTURE); TO STRENGTHEN MYSELF IN ALL ASPECTS OF MY BEING; AND TO HAVE MAXIMUM PUBLICITY FOR MY EFFORTS IN REVEALING THE INEPTITUDE (OR DISHONESTY?) OF THE SINGAPORE GOVERNMENT -- AND ITS SURVEILLANCE OFFICERS -- IN THEIR DAILY DEALINGS WITH ME.

THERE OUGHT TO BE SOME PROGRESS IN MY LIFE -- NO? ALL I NEED TO CONTINUE LIVING AND WORKING, AS A WRITER -- POSITIVELY, FRUITFULLY, AND FULLY -- IS THE CONSTANT POSSESSION AND AVAILABILITY OF THE FOLLOWING 5 BASIC (PERSONAL) PROPERTIES:

A HIGH-QUALITY DICTIONARY;
A HIGH-QUALITY THESAURUS;
A HIGH-QUALITY ENCYCLOPEDIA;
A HIGH-QUALITY REFERENCE "TEXTBOOK" ON POLITICS AND GOVERNMENT; AND, LASTLY,
ENOUGH CASH (IN SINGAPORE DOLLARS, DEFINITELY!) -- AFTER ALL MY MONTHLY HOUSEHOLD BILLS ARE SETTLED AND AFTER ALL MY BASIC NEEDS (SUCH AS, YES INDEED!, SEXUAL INTERCOURSE WITH PROSTITUTES) ARE SATISFIED -- TO ENABLE ME TO CONCENTRATE AND FOCUS ON MY WRITING.

To conclude, I'd like to repeat here some of the important messages sent out by a fellow writer from the West -- so as to inform; to enlighten; and to educate us all who would care to listen:

History to the defeated can still make some amends.
The masses are not fashioned for manipulation or drudgery but are made up of autonomous individuals.
Justice is ordinary, though not quite in the way that an unrepentant Western thought culture to be, because it is NOT latent or innate but needs to be decided by struggle and by irony too.

Cornered, cheated, exhausted and despondent -- under the relentless pressure mounted by the surveillance authorities, I have actually even considered emigrating, permanently, to the U.S. (the Mother of Democracy!) -- to, at last, set my proferssional ambition and aims, as a serious, quality writer, on a hopeful, rightful, meaningful and productive path!

Yes, We Still Need Modern(ist) Heroes (and Heroines)

2008-11-17T18:01:00.000-08:00

MODERN HEROES AND HEROINES

NEED TO BE STUBBORN --

IF THEY WANT TO SUCCEED IN LIFE

There were few FAMOUS heroines in the world's long history. Philosphers, writers, poets, painters, architects, scientists, political leaders, industrialists, landowners, and a host of innumerable other professionals -- except probably the world's oldest (namely, prostitutes) -- were mostly men. Male heroes in the past could easily express themselves, with no social or political restrictions -- the strengths and uniqueness of their personalites and character, and the depth of their values, convictions and principles (including their loyalty to them) -- in significant and, on many occasions, influential works, efforts and endeavours. They had helped mankind to build -- and thus to travel along -- the necessary and vital roads to our common destination as human beings, living and working, as civilized men and women in more and more developed societies and polities: in other words, human progress and achievement.

In the 21st century, women have had come a long way indeed. There are now female intellectuals, politicians, engineers, technicians, scientists, managers, sports personalities, professors, academics, scholars, economists, computer analysts, computer programmers, investors, bankers, financiers, property agents, manufacturers, professional photographers, and many others who represent the undeniable progresses made by females in modern times -- through, especially, the availability 0f, and accessibility to, formal education in the schools, colleges, universities and other institutions of learning.

Such progresses in female accomplishments and efforts are achieved by those fortunate women in societies which believe in the freedom and in the rights of their citizens to pursue their education -- up to the highest possible level. So now, in addition to those occupations, fields of endeavour and professions which, traditionally, were already open to the presence and practice of (then still unemancipated) women in their ranks, back in the stupid old days -- yes, long before female emancipation and the women's liberation movement (and what has been called feminism), there are numerous examples of both women and men who are able to benefit from their many years of formal and institutional education and training -- with highly lucrative results and attractive material returns -- and also, yes, with the enviable experience of feeling a great or strong sense of personal achievement, advancement and immense satisfaction. Also, and perhaps most importantly, these women and men are able to feel proud about their contributions to the betterment of society -- and of the world, and of mankind at large.

These are our modern-day heroes and heroines -- and we need them, even in this era of postmodernism, globalization, biopolitics and the advent of modern electronic/electrical surveillance techniques, technologies and activities.

My Own Personal Misgivings, Doubts and Apprehensions --

Concerning The Path of Modern Societies and Governments:

Readers of my blog posts so far have already learnt how I view and regard such key and significant developments in human history. To put it simply, I view and regard them with repugnance and deep horror. I cannot reconcile the world I grew up in -- a world in which there were no deliberate attempts by important leaders of society and politics and industry to celebrate the so-called "virtues" of ambiguities, inconsistencies, illogicallities, ambivalences, contradictions, relativism and anti-idealism as the dominant "realities" of our modern time.

I have questioned and challenged their versions of what philosophers, throughout history, had always been in single-minded pursuit of -- namely, the TRUTH. And this is what is troubling and disturbing me: in each and every discipline that men (and now women) have been studying --be it philosphy, history, psychology, political philosophy (or political science, as it has come to be studied as nowadays), literature, the arts, public administration, sports and games, government, etc. -- there is a drastic transformation in the nature and methods in which such disciplines used to be associated and identified with. It has really turned my intellectual life -- and my world -- upside down (initially, for the majority of the past 36years , when I almost knew nothing in an effective and vital sense, and only recently, during the past few months, when I, finally and gradually, was allowed by the surveillance authorities to discover and to realise the enormity and magnitude of the not-quite-beneficial changes in my life -- as a man, human being, citizen and writer -- an unpleasant and totally unacceptable situation caused by my being unreluctantly and illegally "implanted" by the MINDEF authorities in SAFTI in the year 1972, more than 36 years ago).

What exactly are my grievances and so-called "complaints"? And what are my priorities now? It is very basic. To put it simply, I cannot remain fully and positively and fruitfully alive and still believe that my countless intellectual mentors from the West -- the great thinkers and writers who had produced innumerable timeless classics of so many diverse intellectual, moral and artistic persuasions and contents -- yes, I cannot simply and unquestioningly believe -- let alone accept -- that these great mentors of mine (my all-time HEROES and, yes, occasionally, HEROINES ) are now totally redundant, effete, irrelevant and hopelessly out-of-tune with, and out-of-place in, the so-called "realities" -- political, economic, social, cultural and scientific -- in these contemporary times, in a world that has vastly changed, almost beyond my recognition, from the world I grew up, back in the 1960s!

Unfortunately, I stand almost alone (and this long-held belief in my own isolation -- as practically demonstrated in my solitary life-style and "anti-social" behaviour during the past 36 years and more! -- as well as my publicly witnessed "weirdness" and "bizarreness" -- is itself an indication of the plight and predicament I was put in (and still am in now) -- as a result of having my intellectual faculties, especially, undermined and tampered with by the ubiquitous surveillance authorities in Singapore, since the year 1972!

So, I have to conclude (and this is my main concern now -- yes, my priority!): We still need heroes and heroines -- but they must include those men and women who, in this era of postmodernism, globalization, biopolitics and governmental mass surveillance, nevertheless still believe in the values, principles and insights provided by those heroic and unique authors in the Western intellectual and humanistic traditions.

Unless there are enough women and men who share and hold such traditional, timeless and classic modernist and even pre-modernist attitudes and ideas, there will be no place for oppositionists and individualists like me, not even to hide myself -- let alone earn a living as a professional writer! Yes, perhaps then, I should go up to the high mountains and live out the rest of my life as a recluse!

On Mass Surveillance In Singapore

2008-11-17T00:17:00.000-08:00

On Why I Travel On

A "Normal" Route

To Counter

Governmental &

Corporate Snooping

Those of us who are harshly and reluctantly entrapped in the system of political control undertaken by our elected government -- through its employment of modern surveillance techniques and technologies --often try to escape from its ensnaring and suffocating restrictions by thinking in terms of fighting the authorities through legal means -- namely, by employing, certainly foolishly, the official services of our compromised and beholden Members of Parliament (elected lawmakers), and by making use of the professional services of our timid and equally compromised lawyers (trained specifically to understand the intricacies -- and also vulnerabilities -- of governmental actions responding to, and confronting the challenges and criticisms posed by opponents and critics of the government, with reference to universal principles of human rights and to international laws and regulations guiding precisely such governmental actions and behaviour).

Such official methods of legal recourse, admittedly, may prevent some of the worst excesses of a surveillance society, but such solutions also DO NOT WORK if THE POLITICAL WILL TO IMPLEMENT SUCH SOLUTIONS -- EFFECTIVELY AND NOT JUST COSMETICALLY -- IS NOT PRESENT.

Without detailed public knowledge of surveillance techniques and technologies, and of the EXTENT to which they are being deployed, the groundswell of public opinion necessary to drive a DEMAND for such solutions will remain lacking.

The main concern of dissident bloggers like me, who write outside of the intellectual and political (and "systematic") confines set by mainstream snoopers and manipulators of targetted victims in our surveillance society here, is to learn as much as we can about (and to reveal bravely and publicly about the results of such learning) the AMOUNT and EXTENT of data (not data collection itself) that are being collected by the authorities and their COLLATION within ever-more-massive databases!

Question: What are the safeguards (will they be observed and followed in the first place?), should our society ever demand them, to ensure privacy principles are respected and to allay other important privacy concerns? Thus, citizens who are dissident bloggers like me, have a real concern, and it is about widespread INSTITUTIONAL surveillance of individuals and/or groups in a society!

Such massive surveillance efforts by the government is the result of The Party's desire to collate and form national databases -- and this is extremely disturbing.

The system of "due process of law" is long embodied in the laws of the United Kingdom, the United States of America and Canada (and in the systems of jurisprudence derived from them). Such a system is relied upon by most citizen-victims of governmental surveillance to protest against such humiliating and oppressive forms of control over their lives -- including their moments of privacy.

That is the reason why non-mainstream bloggers and political critics resort to other (shall we say, un-systematic?) forms or methods of countering the restrictive or constraining influences from the ubiquitous surveillance officers who, normally, with an unknowing, unknowledgeable and unaware -- and hence supine and acquiescent -- citizenry at their feet, will exploit their advantages (in terms of logistics, finances, and knowledge and information -- based precisely on the formation of national databases, etc.) and also their awesome, comprehensive legal and juridical powers, to subjugate and suppress the controlled population (although they would never admit to doing so openly!).

Dissident bloggers like me have this part of a bigger picture of covert control over the population by stealthy and manipulative surveillance officers in mind when we blog or write about corporate or governmental snooping and manipulation (which are never discussed or covered here -- and also never denied either -- by journalists, editors and commentators in the obsequious local mass media).

As Mark Weiser, Chief Technologist at Xerox Palo Alto Research Centre (PARC), said (in 1991), on the danger of an ubiquitous technological environment:

"The most profound technologies are those that disappear. They weave themselves into the fabric of everyday life until they are indistinguishable from it."

Fellow citizens and attentive readers, you have now been duly informed and fore-warned.

Please do take care!

Invasion Of Privacy: Latest (Revised and Updated) Report On The Human Rights Situation In Singapore: A Case Study (of David Chua Chuan Seah)

2008-11-15T16:13:00.000-08:00

What Actually Happened in the

Year 1972 :

The Moment Of Self-Discovery By

An "Implantee"

-- With A Little Help From My

"Friends"

(MSD/ISD/PAP/SPF/SG

Members and Officers)

Why I Have Suffered 36 Years Of

Manipulated Life,

Of Puzzling History, And Of

Purposeless Behaviour

(Both Private And Public)

QUOTE NO. ONE:

I never submitted the whole system of my opinions to the creed of any one party of men whatever, in religion, in philosophy, in politics or in anything else, where I was capable of thinking for myself .... such an "addiction" is the last degradation of a free and moral agent.

THOMAS JEFFERSON (1743 - 1826)
AMERICAN STATESMAN, 3RD PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED TATES, AND PRINCIPAL AUTHOR OF THE DECLARATION OF INDEPENDENCE

QUOTE NO. TWO:

You cannot talk to a power politician as if he were a wise man.

THOMAS MERTON, "Symphony For A Sea Bird",
THE WAY OF CHUANG TZU (Boston & London: Shambhala, 1965)

I had foolishly gone AWOL from my company, based at Singapore Armed Forces Training Institute, where I was undergoing three months of infantry Section Leader training, sometime in early 1972. After a few days of wandering about, I returned to camp eventually and was quickly warded at the Medical Centre in SAFTI for observation.

I was an unobtrusive and quiet patient in the ward, while undergoing daily medical examination by the medical doctors there and also by the psychiatrists at a Government clinic at Maxwell Road, where I was referred to for specialist observation.

During the time I was resting as a patient in the Medical Centre, something serious and grave -- oh, Heavens! -- happened to me, which was to set the course of my future from then onwards. But what exactly did take place there and then?

This is a question of major importance to my life now and it has serious implications for my future as a writer. I've been waiting, since 1972, for this moment of truth-telling! This revelation of my actual status as a man, human being, citizen and writer -- with its purported role of an "implantee" (or agent or employee of the Singapore Government) will illuminate the rest of my life -- and allow me to see clearly ahead, on my road to professional success as a writer -- in Singapore, no less!

I will launch attack after attack -- against the Singapore Government for damaging my life -- with, especially, regard to my sexual needs -- and I will hold them responsible for any failure of mine now as a man trying to live out a normal life for the rest of my existence on this earth.

All I know is that I can remember many events, episodes and activities that I have had experienced during the last 36 years of my life -- as a "schizophrenic", a "molester", a "thief", a "violent" or "aggressive" man, a "PAP agent", a production worker, a low-level and humble clerk, a "mole", a "spy" -- yes, in other words, as a "government employee" acting in all these roles, guises and capacities which are all totally unsuited to my character, my personality, my values and principles, and my goals and real interests as a man, human being, citizen and aspiring writer!

The time for continuing to launch my anti-government sarcastic responses remains! My memory tells me if I am to embark on a serious and purposeful future course of action, I must attack the Singapore Government from now onwards. And I have been trying my best to do so -- except, on certain occasions, when, for some clear reasons -- moments of idiocy and imbecility -- under uninvited provocation!

I want to stress the gravity of the Singapore Government's mistake in "implanting" me, unofficially and without my consent or permission, in 1972 -- an act which was to result, for many years now, in its constant and conscious attempt and and effort -- by using the instruments of ministerial and state powers (the government,law, the police, etc.) to undermine my eventual (contemplated) success as a serious, quality writer unde (of published books -- and essays in important magazines)!

Today is the day for the Singapore Government to recognize and acknowledge, as the lawfully but unfairly elected rulers of Singapore, the upmost severity of my problematic situation. I have to regard myself as a case of Human Rights Abuses by the Singapore Government -- should this elected Democratic Government in Singapore fail to grant me my right to work as a professional writer.

I am not out to fix the government of Singapore -- no, not in any sense of the word. I am honestly trying to resolve my extremely difficult problem and my complicated present situation. Nobody up to now understands my problem, my situation, my predicament, my plight -- including my own cherished family members!

The choice is clear: Either the Singapore Government acts decisively on this vital matter of mine or it will have to answer to History.

Addendum:

All my revelations and exposure about surveillance officers and their activities are not aimed at undermining the Singapore Government's clear understanding of the issue at hand. I just want to EXPRESS myself -- my awareness, my knowledge, my knowingness -- after, especially, being for so long almost totally ignorant of what is crucially going on or taking place -- as a life-changing and life-affecting vital issue -- in this small country of my own and in the larger world too!

Let me declare that I regard the Singapore Government as entirely responsible for any failure of mine to work as a published professional writer (and to live with dignity and self-respect) -- and for any supposedly accummulated "debt" (of whatever kind) which it owed me (and for whose payment it has yet to make concretely and practically, in no uncertain or miniscule terms)! Does it still insist that it does not have any debt -- of whatever kind -- which it still owes me? [Had I not lost, missed, wasted and sacrificed so much? And had I not earned anything at all -- not even some monetary remuneration and even compensation, yes! -- for all my intellectual, moral, artistic and even physical efforts during these past 36 years of living as a reluctant and, sometimes, unhappy "implantee"? I just don't want to work, whether officially or unofficially, secretly or otherwise (except for a brief period at MSD in the days of long ago!), as a member of the governmental surveillance authorities -- be it as an intelligence or security officer or in any capacity or role. I am just INCOMPATIBLE with Government service!]

This is what is TROUBLING and PUZZLING to me -- as a rational man with some compassion of no small measure: How could anyone force me to work in any capacity or role or guise that I have absolutely neither the interest nor the qualities or the abilities to perform in -- to my own satisfaction and self-respect?

And I'm not going to join a political party just to reward the loyalty of activists -- former or current ones! I do want to serve the people, but only as a writer and not a a practising politician! But firstly, I must, after all these hopeless and miserable years, serve myself -- yes!, my own needs and goals!

I believe a great number of Singa0poreans are suffering from a disaffected relationship with and attitude towards the Singapore government! Andf they mustbe, this coming General Election, allowed tom express such disaffection at the ballot box. This is a cornerstone of true and genuine -- not cosmetic -- democracy! (And certainly, I am not going to be in politics to enrich myself or to exercise autocratic powers!) And I don't believe in Western conspiracies! Some leaders aremore interested in, or concerned with, Western bullying -- in the form of conspiracies, for instance, which they claim these Western powers are (or which they accuse them of) trying to use to undermine their positions in the political and social order (or themselves!) -- than in how they TREAT their OWN PEOPLE!

That grave mistake in "implanting" me was not accidental. I am very sure of that! It was a deliberate and calculated attempt to exploit my weaknesses and defects in order to serve an outcome which all members of the top brass in SAFTI at that time were keen to establish in their lives and which was based on a decision undertaken by the military top brass with such unforgivable lightness of consideration and with such unbearable lack of awareness of its severe implications to my own life and future -- should the outcome ever turn into a disastrous mishandling of my case and an unpardonable mistreatment of myself as a medical patient warded at a medical centre for simple medical observation and perhaps even professional treatment by qualified medical practitioners -- yes, for an admittedly rash and foolish act which, nonetheless, merely expressed my youthful idealism and naivete in those days.

But why, oh why? And why the cover-up all these years?

Was there ever such an example of total INEPTITUDE by members of what is publicly promoted and claimed as a supposedly "good" and "able" government? And are they really and truly interested in a GENUINE transfer of power -- and not in a cosmetic one? Is it going to be an admirable exercise in statesmanship? OR IS IT JUST A MATTER OF SIMPLY LOSING TOTAL CONTROL? WILL THE TRANSFER RESULT IN INCESTUOUS PARTITIONS OR DIVISIONS --AND THEN IN SHAMBLES? TRULY, IT WILL BE AN IGNOMINOUS END TO SO MANY YEARS OF "HIGHLY SUCCESSFUL" RULE -- ALBEIT A RULE BASED MOSTLY ON BLUFF! -- AND ALSO DAMN INSULTING THREATS AND TYPICALLY ABUSIVE AND CRUEL ACTIONS!

WOULD IT BE -- ASSUMING IT IS GOING TO BE A REALITY! -- A TIMELY (AND HENCE ORDERLY) TRANSFER OF POWER? OR WILL IT DEPEND ON EXTREMISTS FROM BOTH (OR MANY) SIDES OF THE POLITICAL DIVIDE: PLANNING, SCHEMING AND ORGANIZING -- FOR AN EVENTUAL FATAL END (OR JUST A BLOW) TO SUCH "OPENING-UP OF THE POLITICAL PROCESS", TO BE KICKED OFF INITIALLY BY A "GENUINE" -- AND NOT COSMETIC -- "TRANSFER OF POWER"?

THE POSSIBILITY OF THIS SO-CALLED "TRANSFER OF POWER" BECOMING, OR RESULTING IN, PHONY "LIBERATION" -- WITH INTENDED AND EXPECTED (BECAUSE PLANNED, CONCOCTED, MANUFACTURED AND INSTIGATED) BRUTISH AND IRRATIONAL CONSEQUENCES -- IS THERE FOR ALL TO SEE (IN ADVANCE) -- ESPECIALLY TO, AND FOR, THOSE IN-THE-KNOW: TO WITNESS, REMEMBER AND BE ON GUARD AGAINST!

I WOULD COUNSEL ALL THOSE WHO ARE TEMPTED, ENTICED, PROMPTED AND ENCOURAGED -- WHO, IN OTHER WORDS, ARE LIKELY TO BE CONCERNED WITH, OR BE INVOLVED IN, TO REGARD SUCH A "TRANSFER OF POWER" WITH CAUTION! THEY SHOULD ACT WISELY AND HONESTLY, AND, TO REPEAT, SHOW THE UTMOST CAUTION!

LEE KUAN YEW HIMSELF IS NOT THE UNIFYING PRINCIPLE IN THE LIVES OF MOST OF US! LET ME TELL YOU THIS: HIS DEATH ITSELF WILL NOT RESULT IN THE FATAL -- OR OTHERWISE -- END OF (OR BLOW FOR) THE PAP REGIME. IT IS, AFTER ALL AND ACTUALLY, NOT THE REMOVAL OF BIG, BIG, FUCKINGLY BIG EGOs THAT WILL CREATE PROBLEMS FOR THE ERSTWHILE SUCCESSFUL GOVERNMENT OF SINGAPORE.

WHAT THEN IS THE SOLUTION? WELL, MY HUMBLE AND UNPROFESSIONAL REPLY: REAL DIFFICULTIES MUST NOT BE LEFT TO RESOLVE THEMSELVES! SOME PEOPLE WITH INSIGHT, WISDOM AND UNDERSTANDING (AND NOT MERE KNOWLEDGE, INFORMATION AND INTELLIGENCE) -- PRESUMABLY THE CURRENT LEADERS -- HAVE TO BELIEVE IN -- AND TO PRACTISE WHAT THEY BELIEVE IN AND SAY (WHETHER PUBLICLY OR NOT) -- THE POLITICS OF RETREAT!

AND YOU DON'T NEED ALL THOSE FUCKING SWEET-TALKING PUBLIC RELATIONS OFFICERS TO HELP PREPARE THE GROUND FOR THAT -- OR TO KEEP UP BRAVE FRONTS FOR THEMSELVES IN ORDER TO DO THAT! (IT IS, I'M SURE, PRETTY HUMBLING -- EVEN HUMILIATING --FOR THEM TO ADOPT SUCH RETRACTION OR RETREAT FROM THEIR WORLD-FAMOUS BRAND OF POLITICS AND GOVERNMENT!) THAT IS ALL!

Surveillance Officers: We Don't Express Ourselves -- We Only React and Respond!

2008-11-14T18:22:00.000-08:00

Intrusive, Disrespectful and

Upsetting

Surveillance and Control

by Intelligence and Security

Officers

of the PAP Government

Personal Testimony of A Citizen and Witness :

My Private and Public Life Has Been Turned Upside Down by the PAP Government. It Uses Images and Voices From People I Know Closely (Or Am Familiar or Acquainted With -- Such As Family Members, Friends, Ex-colleagues and Ex-classmates and Relatives) -- In Order To Control and Turn Me Into, By Turns An Enforcement/Security Agent and By Others An Obedient Subject. I Have Become One, After More Than 36 Years As A Reluctant, Poor, Unfortunate and Helpless (and Sexually Frustrated and Deprived -- Not to Mention Socially Unhappy and Love-starved) Victim of Governmental Manipulation and Control. These Surveillance Officers All Try To Exert Maximum Control Over My Own Mind, Heart, Soul and Body -- With the Practised Cunning, Determined Intention and Long-term Plan (For Such Implementation of the Deliberate Use of Often Illogical and Misleading Words, Images, Messages, Suggestions, Hints and Many Other Tricks and Methods of Communication -- Including, Quite Often, Downright Abusive Verbal Communication Techniques)!

Yes, instead of presenting and identifying themselves -- seriously, openly and clearly -- in order to respectfully and honestly make their own intentions known, and to express their own needs and desires, these surveillance officers (both male and female, whether separately and individually or as a combined unit), just contribute to my perturbation as a man, human being, citizen and writer!

Yes, these human monitors, censors, spies, agents, snoopers and controllers -- with the help of the latest and the most advanced scientific equipment and technological inventions and electronic/electrical products -- have been, day-in and day-out, second-after-second, minute-after-minute, hour-after-hour, day-after-day, week-after-week, month-after-month, year-afer-year, WORKING (real hard indeed!) to disturb me!

They have been insulting me -- my intelligence and my respect for myself; they have been controlling me -- to hide their own inadequacies and hang-ups. They have been expressing their grievances and complaints; they have been humiliating me -- while I am taking a shower, changing clothes, urinating, shitting, masturbating, and fucking women (and there were, and will still be, plenty of such women in my life as a resistant and dissident citizen)! They have been issuing "challenges" to me, knowingly or not; they have been pretending to be what they are not (and never will be!); they want to impress upon me that they are likely "winners", that they can achieve victories (moral?, intellectual?, what else?), that they can obtain "permanent" (sexual, especially) satisfasction, enjoyment, pleasure and success!

These surveillance officers (men and women) want to please themselves (in so many different ways that are -- secretively or not -- best known only to themselves); they want to react or to respond (to my expressions and self-expressions); yes, they want to ejaculate (how many times per week?); to avenge their "sufferings" (caused by me?) -- by making me suffer in turn. They want to avenge Lee Kuan Yew's humiliation under my deliberate, insulting and provocative verbal dismissiveness; and to avenge themselves on me -- their long-time (but long-suffering) nemesis! They want to punish me for daring to insult their modesty, saintliness, prudery, prudishness, holiness, religiousity, purity, perfection, infallibility, uprightness, goodness, ability and everything worth their while to mention (in support of their "feel-good" factor: yes, to feel "good", "able", etc., etc., etc.).

But, dear fellow citizens and readers, these surveillance officers NEVER want to admit to their own mistakes; they NEVER want to -- thus and accordingly -- CORRECT or REMEDY their own grave mistakes!

Instead, they choose to EXPLOIT such mistakes of theirs -- committed from the highest level of governmental authority to the lowest level of official subordination -- and turn them to their own advantage (and to gain farther advantages of whatever kinds) -- ALL IN THEIR OWN FAVOUR!

Finally, a word of reminder to these conformists who lack (STRONG) minds of their own: How can they continue to insult me, repeatedly -- and to "take me on" in things or subjects which I CAN commandeer? (and, further, in areas where I am the absolute and undeniable MASTER and COMMANDER -- the COMMANDANT, in effect?)!

I am a self-confident blogger, dissident, writer, manly lover, and, unarguably, a unique and original human being. I, namely: David Chua Chuan Seah, can never be "helped" to "enjoy" myself by these surveillance officers when their only motive for such "help" is to APPEASE their own guilt-ridden complex! For, as a writer, I must be asked (and be FULLY respected for my sincere and honest reply) : What are my own intentions? Are they noble and magnanimous? Or debased, degrading and abusive?

AND THIS IS MY REPLY : It is time for these surveillance officers to find out whether or not I am a liar (a pathological one?), a "mental defective", a "psychopath", or ... (what else?, you idiots!).

ADDENDUM:

This is my request: Do not exploit my weaknesses (e.g. for women and girls), including my soft-heartedness, my obsession with good hygiene, comfort, my meticulousness, my confidence, my resourcefulness, my urge to get close to women and girls (again!, but why not? : what, really or exactly, can I do, Sir?).

Please do not take advantage of my ignorance about many scientific facts, matters, inventions and technological advances -- whose knowledge or awareness of many people simply take for granted.

Please do not exploit my "stubborness"; please do not abuse my humility. Please do not corrupt and contaminate my precious thoughts (which are many indeed!) and also my few, perhaps too few indeed -- but nonetheless sensitive (sometimes very much so !) feelings!

That is all.

NOTES ON THE SINGAPORE GOVERNMENT'S WORLD OF SURVEILLANCE ACTIVITIES

2008-11-11T16:48:00.000-08:00

WHAT IS WRONG WITH

THESE SURVEILLANCE

OFFICERS AND AGENTS?

(ARE THEY NUMSKULLS

OR DIRTY-MINDED NUTS?)

In Singapore, massive surveillance efforts, practices, planning and activities carried out by the MSD/ISD officers have replaced almost all forms of police enforcement work!

A man surely needs a WILLING maid -- for the satisfaction of his sexual NEEDS and social WANTS. Why, then, are the MSD/ISD officers preventing me from satisfying my sexual NEEDS and social WANTS by stopping me from meeting AND PHYSICALLY CONTACTING women who are NOT prostitutes?

Do MSD/ISD officers hold that a man is guilty until proven innocent? Why do they, for instance, assume that I am guilty of "immoral" behaviour (MOSTLY by patronizing prostitutes?!) without having ever proved that I am indeed so? AND on what grounds, may I ask precisely, am I "immoral"?

MSD and ISD officers have breached principles of privacy which are lawfully protected elsewhere in the world.

What is "surveillance" but another name for spying? To watch individuals covertly, to film them, to listen in to their conversations or communications, to know where they are at any given moment, to amass data on every aspect of their lifestyles -- this, surely, is precisely what a spy is paid to do! And this is exactly what our government and large corporations are doing, and attempting to do, to every individual in this nation!

However, it is worth contemplating a single question: What is the difference between "surveillance" and "spying"?

In Singapore, all Internet Service Providers are operated by government-controlled or related organizations;

Article 17, U.N. International Covenant On Civil and Political Rights, Ratified by the General Assembly (and the U.S.) in 1984:

No one shall be subjected to arbitrary or unlawful interference with his privacy, family, home, or correspondence, nor to unlawful attacks on his honor and reputation. Everyone has the right to the protection of the law against such interference or attacks.

Brad Jansen, Deputy Director for Technology Policy at the Free Congress Foundation:

Massive surveillance is a poor substitute for real law-enforcement and intelligenvce work. It is an after-the-fact method of crime-fighting. It is not designed to to prevent crime.

MASSIVE WIRETAPPING DOES NOT EQUAL SECURITY. INSTEAD, WE HAVE ELECTED TO JEOPARDIZING OUR NATIONAL SECURITY in exchange for poor law enforcement.

Dollars and Sense

Not American should blindly accept
reduction of his liberty simply because a government official says so.
The choice is a nation of laws or a nation of whims. No liberty is possible
with the latter, no matter how important the cause.

-- Tom Deweees (Commentator)

Computer/Phone Privacy

Congressman Ron Paul:

In the last few decades, much of our
privacy has been lost. And it's not only computers that deserve the blame. They
have only been useful magnifiers of what the prying eyes of Big Brother have wanted to see all along.

On U.S. President-Elect Barack Obama and the New Changing World

2008-11-05T20:12:00.000-08:00

Hope of Every Citizen of the World:

Progressive U.S. Domestic and Foreign Policies

U.S. President George Bush is, by common consent, the worst president in the history of the American Presidency. And his presidency has, to me at least, lasted too long. It had been a long campaign for both the two major political parties in the Unites States. U.S. Senator John McCain had tried hard to win the American voters over to his side. But now, there is a new begining, at this early stage in the 21st Century, for the United States and the world : racism, class-based politics and unilateralism have been happily defeated in the U.S. for the first time!

It was a momentous occasion in the U.S. for many proud, loyal and confident Americans of diverse political beliefs. With their different respective definitions and, understandably, often mutually opposing concepts, of "democracy", Americans are totally free to cast their votes, absolutely unhindered, for any candidate that they choose to support. On Election Day (4.11.2008), the glory and magnificence of American democracy was eagerly observed by leaders and citizens from all over the world. Not unexpectedly, there was to be no surprise for the carefully and intelligently observing followers of the latest news reports provided by the media on the General Election -- based on results of initial polls.

It turned into a historical victory for democracy -- and for Senator Barack Obama -- on the next day (5.11.2008), when the final results were known and announced to the whole world. Yes, Mr Obama is the first Afro-American Democrat to be voted by millions and millions of Americans (from both sides of the political divide) into power in the U.S.! (Thanks, Americans! God bless America!)

As the most important and influential new/next man in the White House, President-elect Barack Obama, a progressive/liberal political leader, will be gracefully and peacefully inaugurated at noon on a bright day on 20.1.09 -- as the 44th President of the United States of America!

People, not only in America, but also all over the world, are full of positive feelings and high expectations after Mr Obama's break-through victory -- and also, just as important, after the high gains made by the Democrats in the U.S. Senate.

President-elect Barack Obama is wise, charismatic, strong, thoughtful and -- for the first time in a long, long while -- genuinely full of goodwill towards all men and women, regardless of nationality, race, language, religion, gender and other related or key differences among humankind.
In particular, Mr. Barack Obama's working-class-hero background inspires many people. All it takes is for someone like Obama -- a leader whom many Americans has placed their trust in -- to enhance their life and to improve their lives.

But after the euphoria is over, a sharp sense of reality will set in: the U.S. economy is still in a mess -- a sad conservative legacy from the current leader George Bush. The date 5.11.2008 may be a time for U.S. citizens to remember -- as a time for substantial and real change (especially in the continuing struggle for human rights) -- but no political system (not even the well-established and highly-influential one in the U.S.) can change and improve the life and lifestyle of the voters (both inside the U.S. and in the entire world) in an effective, innovative and creative way -- unless there are leaders who inspire hope with their progressive policies, domestically and in foreign relations.

There will first be a transition period of 77 days (11 weeks) for U.S. President George Bush to graciously and smoothly (and perhaps gratefully?) hand over the American leadership to his new/next successor Barack Obama -- a period in which many fine points of political contentions and contentiousness will be expectedly thrashed out and discussed seriously at the highest level of political discourse. For instance, they should help each other to find a hopefully conclusive and, perhaps, possibly -- idealistically? -- non-violent solution to the difficult problem of getting out of Iraq and, instead, of staying on in Afghanistan -- in the continuing fight against genuine and real -- and not manufactured or concocted -- terrorism (conducted by, especially, religious extremists)!

And when President-elect Barack Obama eventually assumes the official role as the leader, not only of the U.S. but also of the world, he would still have to face the problems posed by threats to fundamental freedoms and rights belonging to citizens in the U.S. and to all those helpless victimized people all over the world. Mr Obama, with all his undeniable qualities, skills, experiences and knowledge, will still need a lot of luck to prove his ability as an effective, responsible and competent (especially economically) leader of the U.S. -- the Mother of Democracy.

Mr Obama, from my personal perspective and understanding of current political and economic issues, must be emphatically pro-freedom, pro-equality, pro-creativity, pro-inspiration and, most important of all, decidedly and decisively anti-dishonesty!

In foreign policies, as an Afro-American, he would be expectedly pro-Africa. And Africans need such a man, human being and American political leader like him!

Martin Luther King, Jr., the great Afro-American leader and intense champion of human and civil rights, was a perseverant political activist who dared to dream openly and publicly -- of freedom, equality and peace for all mankind. But he was not the only one then -- and he inspired the only one among Afro-Americans now who can effect political change, creatively and innovatively, in the U.S. (and in other democracies of the world).

May future President Obama intelligently and carefully delegate his authority and power to those among his subordinates and supporters -- the senators and congressmen, the appointed officials and paid civil servants, and other lower-ranking officers who are inspired and motivated enough by Obama's leadership qualities -- so that they can serve as strong bridges to link up strongly all the people of the world, beyond the constraints of blood ties, racial origins, country of residence, political or religious beliefs -- and be they winners or losers in the game of life -- and allow them, freely, autonomously and independently, to journey, each and everyone of them, in his or her own way, on his or her respective path, to the common destination of FREEDOM, GROWTH and PEACE for ALL!

There are many amongst us in this world who cry out -- openly and actively, or silently and privately (in this conflict-laden world of postmodernism and globalization, and of human greed and ineptitude displayed by covert surveillance authorities in governments all over the world) -- and this is not a secret at all! -- against the oppression, suppression and repression by many so-called realistic, pragmatic, Machiavellian and, surprisingly (!), "democratic" governments and regimes in the world.

Let us then dare to change -- by first dreaming! Now!

A Thinking Senior Citizen In A New World

2008-11-04T18:45:00.000-08:00

Of Electronic Surveillance, Postmodernism and Globalization -- In The Life of Singaporeans

I'm getting poorer and poorer in my finances. But I'm becoming richer and richer in my mind. As my recent and latest blog entries/posts have shown, I'm also acquiring more and more power in my writing! In my love/sex/social life, I've achieved greater potency in my fucking of women. Yes, I'm more and more in almost complete control of my own life -- as a man, human being, citizen and writer/blogger! I'm in ascendancy!

And why am I in such a glorious state of mind, heart, soul and body? Well, it is simple: I'm becoming more and more well-informed and knowledgeable -- about the new world of electronic surveillance (especially in regard to politics, sports and education), postmodernism (especially in regard to literature and the arts), and globalization (in regard to trade, finance and commerce) -- with a clear and wide-ranging intellectual framework and reference to authoritarian and autocratic governments (like Singapore's)!

I now know more and more about postmodernist use of surveillance technologies -- and its application to, and influence on, the latest developments in the study of history, philosophy, literature; and in academic scholarship, scientific research, psychological studies, political practices, sexual relations, parenting, and yes, the writing (or authorship) of BOOKS!

Yes, the whole population of Singapore -- a global city -- is under electronic surveillance by the authorities (corporate and governmental)! We are all interconnected with one another -- poor, rich, not-too-poor and not-too-rich -- by the PAP Government's use of electronic surveillance technologies and techniques!

This is not a flippant, trivial, superficial and inconsequential article to put the Singapore Government in a bad light by offering supposedly "unobjective" comments and "twisted" or "distorted" facts! The PAP Government has to prove such an intentiion on my part in the first place. Facts are free -- if you seek them out conscientiously and intelligently; but my opinions and reflections are sacred. And I'm not just trying to promote serious, quality reading!

As an individualistic oppositionist and writer, who finds many aspects of our cosmopolitan city -- with its world-class companies and the best talents around, engaging in postmodernist, globalized and electronic surveillance activities, practices, methods, behaviour and lifestyles -- very unacceptable. I'm unapologetically defiant and totally "unorthodox" in my persistent exposure and scrutiny of such disturbing manifestations of UNEQUAL POWER RELATIONSHIPS between corporations and the government on the one side and the helpless, poor and unfortunate citizen-victims on the other side. I'm certainly justified in having such anti-PAP and anti-LKY (and hence, pro-opposition) attitudes! I'm, after all, a progressive VOICE of REASON! And I will scrutinize and expose in the name of FREEDOM -- man's most important and perhaps greatest idea!

I cannot remain silent and neutral. I know too much already. I must speak up and out -- and even scream and shout, if necessary! I'll pilot my little airplane, from now on, with a unified, well-rounded and well-balanced vision of the more benign and humane new world that is to come in the future -- if we keep believing in, and fight for, the TRUTH!

The Fearless and Ingenious Individualistic Oppositionist in A Surveillance Society

2008-11-02T20:11:00.000-08:00

We Don't Have To Fear

Surveillance Officers:

Truth Is On Our Side

I can readily reveal ALL the facts and particulars about myself, my past and my life so far! When you have no privacy left, as we all are under electronic surveillance by the authorities, you have nothing to hide! I, for one, have absolutely nothing to hide! That's why I'm not afraid of these greedy, inept, rich and powerful censors, monitors, spies and controllers working in the faceless, nameless, unidentified and unknown surveillance groups, departments or teams that owe their allegiance and authority -- and rich salaries, of course! -- to the autocratic and authoritarian PAP Government of Singapore! Their agents, double agents, moles and spies are ubiquitous. But they don't have a public voice -- collectively or individually (except under disguises and in anonymity)!

Will these surveillance officers still tempt my fierce and merciless responses if they know EVERYTHING about my identity -- yes, about the person known as "me"? I am prepared to put my life on the line! Take it, if you can, Big Brother!

So here they are -- these attributes, facts, particulars and personal information that form my personal profile -- on yours truly and humbly, as a male heterosexual consumer, masculine citizen, manly worker, and brave human being, which, considered together as a whole personality and character, can be easily identified as the blogging individualistic oppositionist called David Chua Chuan Seah:

Shopping preferences: stationeries, books, magazines, groceries,
Health condition: in perfect health
Marital status: Single
Financial situation: Getting poorer and poorer
Date of birth: 30th July 1953
Sex/gender: male
Age: 55
Monthly/annual income: S$600.00 per month
Race /ethnicity: Chinese
Residential address: Block 264, Yishun Street 22, #10-145, Singapore 760264
Physical characteristics: 1.73 metres (height); 67 kilogram (weight); still good-looking
Family size: Bachelor (lives alone)
Siblings: 7 others (4 brothers; 3 sisters)
Handphone number: 82654077
Utilities consumption: electricity (S$100.oo per month); water (S$16.00 per month)
Magazine/newspaper preferences: Serious, quality opinion-pieces or commentaries
Occupation: Writer
Level of education: Pre-university 2 (Science)
Response to "money-making" opportunities: Any terms and conditions that require more discussions?
Constituency/ electoral district: Nee Soon East
Size (& type/brand) of clothes worn: XXL T-shirts (any comfortable type/brand); long pants measuring 38 inches at the waist (any comfortable and smart-looking type/brand)
Habits: All good ones
Arrest records: Twice jailed for stealing books; once for molest; and once for stealing foods
Lifestyle preferences: Modernist, casual, independent, multi-varied and multi-faceted
Hobbies: None
Religious affiliation: None
Homeownership: Owner of purchased 3-room HDB flat
Characteristics of residence: Not important (seriously!)
Mode of transport: Mass Rapid Transit and Buses
Type of car/vehicle owned: None
Characteristics of car/vehicle owned: Not applicable
Response to direct mail/email solicitations: None
Monetary contributions to political parties: None
Monetary contributions to religious and charitable groups: None
Membership in book, VCD, DVD and CD clubs: None
Mail/email order purchases and type: None
Product ownership: Electronic/electrical (refridgerator, portable CD player-cum-radio, electric fan, water-heaters; vacuum cleaner, electric rice-cooker, hair-dryer and electric kettle)
Pet ownership & type: None
Interests: Reading; writing; thinking; drumming; listening to music; meeting and chatting with girls and women (and fucking them, if they're willing)
Book preferences: Philosophy, History, Humanistic Psychology, Literature, Politics, & Popular Culture
Music/song preferences: Songs from the late Sixties (especially those by The Beatles, Neil Young and Bob Dylan) and Seventies
Membership of upper-class, elitist social circles/groups: None
Sexual preferences: Penetrative heterosexual intercourse (preferably adopting man-above and male-dominant penetrative sexual intercourse positions)
Political views and beliefs: libertarianism and liberalism
NRIC No.: S0028486F
Name/nickname/alias: Chua Chuan Seah/David/Nikos
Language/dialect understood: Mandarin and English/Hokkien and Cantonese
Email address: chua.chuanseah4@gmail.com; cschua57@yahoo.com.sg
Website address: http://afighterandalovertoo.blogspot.com/; http://thenon-romanticloverandwriter.blogspot.com/ ; http://trainofmypresence.blogspot.com/; http://wholecity.blogspot.com/
Employment history: Serious full-time writer of quality essays/articles and sometimes not-so-serious part-time and temporary worker (1976 -- 2008)
National service records: Completed two-and-a-half years (1971 -- 1974) in the SAF; reservist rank: Senior Corporal (civil defence)
Countries visited: Taiwan, Malaysia, Indonesia and Thailand
Countries I intend to visit: England, U.S., Switzerland, Sweden, South Korea, New Zealand, Norway, Philippines, Holland, Japan, Italy, China, Germany, France, Canada and Australia

PERSONAL NOTES ON THE LOCATION

OF THE HEADQUARTERS OF

MILITARY SECURITY DEPARTMENT (MSD)

IN MINDEF

AND ON OTHER RELATED PARTICULARS :

(1) LOCATION OF MILITARY SECURITY

DEPARTMENT (MSD) :

MINISTRY OF DEFENCE,

GOMBAK BASE,

MINDEF BUILDING,

GOMBAK DRIVE,

SINGAPORE.

TEL. NO.: 67683128

WEBSITE : www.mindef.gov.sg

(2) WITH MY UNINTENDED MINIMAL EXPOSURE OF THEIR IDENTITIES, THE NAMES (AND THEIR OFFICIAL POSITIONS) OF THE FOLLOWING GOVERNMENT OFFICERS AND SUBORDINATE PERSONNEL, WHO WERE KNOWN TO ME AS MY FELLOW COLLEAGUES WHEN I WAS EMPLOYED AT MILITARY SECURITY DEPARTMENT (BETWEEN DECEMBER 1975 AND OCTOBER 1976) ARE TRUE, CORRECT, ACCURATE AND APPLICABLE ONLY WITH REFERENCE TO THAT PARTICULAR PERIOD OF TIME. CURRENTLY, I HAVE NO ACCESS WHATSOEVER TO, OR CLEAR KNOWLEDGE OF, THE ACTUAL OR CURRENT STATUS OR POSITIONS OF THESE (FORMER?) MSD OFFICERS AND PERSONNEL -- IN TERMS OF ACCURACY, CORRECTNESS AND ACCOUNTABILITY.

The ABOVE-MENTIONED names are some of the ubiquitous "Voices" that belong to those "able" and "good" men and women whose "work" daily consists of bombarding me (and "disruptive", "unruly", "insubordinate" and "ill-disciplined" people like us) with their irritating, "loving" and intrusive remarks, comments and chatterings from their base at their TOP SECRET remote and far-away long-distance location at Bukit Gombak in Bukit Timah, Singapore -- exercising their continuous so-called "self-defence routine" of propagating PAP ideology and of ensuring and perpetuating the PAP's hold onto power over us, the poor, helpless, and unfortunate victimised citizens (even though we have, in the past, NEVER given them our unreserved consent or permission to be put under such close minute-by-minute, day-by-day and life-long electronic long-distance "authoritative" group surveillance) :

DAVID KOH TEE HIAN (BRIGADIER- GENERAL) -- THE CURRENT DIRECTOR, MSD;

Phyllis Balakrishnan -- CLERICAL OFFICER (1976);
Melinda Chew -- CLERICAL OFFICER (1976);
Nancy Lim -- PERSONAL ASSISTANT TO DEPUTY HEAD (1976);
Ms Lum -- CLERK (1976);
Ms Oh -- CLERK (1976);
Ms Catherine -- CLERK (1976);
Ms Irene Fong -- HEAD, MSD REGISTRY (1976);
David Ong -- INVESTIGATION OFFICER (1976);
Lta. Ang -- INVESTIGATION OFFICER (1976);
(Name Yet To Be Recalled) -- HEAD, VETTING SECTION (1976);
S. Arumugam -- DEPUTY HEAD, MSD (1976);
Mr Wang Ah Shih -- HEAD, MSD (1976);
CAPTAIN (1976) Tan Hong Huat -- RETIRED COLONEL AND CURRENT DIRECTOR OF TOP SECRET PROJECT THAT TARGETTED ME AS A VICTIM OF IMPLANTATION;
Mr Lee -- INVESTIGATION OFFICER (1976).

MY DEPARTING COMMENT:

I'm going to be -- yes, I'll continue to be -- a confident and resourceful (and long-haired) liberated, liberal and libertarian writer-intellectual. And that's fine by me!

These cunning and manipulative surveillance officers, pretending to "help" me, finally (after 36 years of victimization and manipulation by them?), achieve my much-desired success as a writer of published (i.e. printed) books (of collected essays) -- and also as a lover of the females among them in the TOP SECRET control room, are now working on -- well, they keep trying to learn -- how to finally turn me into an absolutely isolated, controlled and brainwashed subject -- as opposed to my current status as an unrepentant critic of the PAP Government (and especially, of LKY)!

Their "productive" efforts, time spent and resources used will all be in vain! I am sure of that!

My Recent Times And Experiences With Various Asian Beauties -- As An Oppositionist and Critic of the Surveillance Authorities

2008-11-01T19:21:00.000-07:00

My Overdue "Sexual" Contacts

(Countless!), Social Relations

(Countless!) and Penetrative Sexual

Intercourse Sessions --

With Good (!) Women and Girls

( From 28th June 2008

To 29th October 2008) :

28.6.08 (Sat.) -- With "Fei Fei" (young, cheerful & lovely); satisfaction: 100% !;
20.7.08 (Sun.) -- With "Yeh" (attractive); satisfaction: 80% !;
30.7.08 (Wed.) -- With "Fung Fung" (mischievous but loving); satisfaction: 50% !;
13.9.08 (Sat.) -- With "Yan" (25, cheerful, pretty, Indonesian); satisfaction: 90% !;
19.9.08 (Fri.) -- With "Huey Bin" (young, cheerful & beautiful); satisfaction: 90% !;
20.9.08 (Sat.) -- With "Jenny" (mercenary but totally obliging); satisfaction: 70% !;
21.9.08 (Sun.) -- With "Xiao Fung" (simply, adorably lovely); satisfaction: 100% !!!;
27.9.08 (Sat.) -- With "Xiao Chang" (loving & lovely); satisfaction: 100% !;
29.9.08 (Mon.) -- With "Linda" (pretty); 90% !;
1.10.08 (Wed.) -- With "Hantu" (pretty, sexy and, yes!, money-minded!); satisfaction: 55% !;
19.10.08 (Sun.) -- With "Xuan Xuan" (22, attractive, charming, loving, irrepressible, responsive, interested, sexy, amiable, companionable, considerate, sociable, friendly, genial,helpful, kind, obliging and solicitous; terrific!); satisfaction: 100% !;
22.10.08 (Wed.) -- With "Xuan Xuan" (again! -- still charming, loving, irrepressible and passionate; lots of foreplay; wonderful!); satisfaction: 100% !;
29.10.08 (Wed.) -- With "Xuan Xuan" (yes, once again! -- my darling lover, new-found girlfriend, honey and babe! I love her with all my heart, soul, mind and body! My major success in my love, sex and social life after 36 years of being under governmental surveillance and manipulation! Rock on, Sweetie!); satisfaction: 160% !!!!!!!

COMMENTARY:

The PAP bastards think I can't stop THEM from undermining and spoiling my love, sex and social life -- probably due to the fact that I can't see them in person! But really, I don't give them a fucking recognition or acknowledgement!

So I don't bother about these surveillance officers. I know the PAP's TOP SECRET! Openly and publicly! It is: Domination Over Its Subjects! I just do what I please! All it takes is for someone I trust to enhance my life -- sexually and hence intellectually. Yes, this is how I live my life on my own terms and conditions -- as a reluctant "implantee", an "agent", a critic, a writer, a "schizophrenic", a "pervert", a lover, a "molester", a "prisoner", a blogger and a socio-political commentator and essayist. And I just need the perfect accompaniment -- a nice, pretty girl whom I love with all my heart, soul, mind, and body -- for such a multi-various life. And do you know who that lucky girl might be? Well, she is my latest girlfriend and lover, Kelly. I, an individualist, feel lucky to have met Kelly. Say good luck to me -- for I am under surveillance by the authorities and my rights as a man, writer, citizen and human being are being infringed upon and cruelly violated by these ubiquitous authorities. I, too, am an ordinary human being after all: I need conveniences, accessibilities, accommodation, advantages, amenities, appliances, appropriateness, availability, benefits, chances, comfort, ease, enjoyment, facilities, fitness, handiness, help, leisure, opportuneness, opportunities, satisfaction, services, serviceability, suitability, timeliness, uses, usefulness and utilities!

Nowadays, I'm in greater control of my life and personal being and my career as a writer is in ascendancy! (Yes! Yes!)

I'm loving, responsible, liberated, natural, versatile, provocative, sensual, quiet, commanding, attentive, modern, notable, intriguing, ingenious, captivating, deep, mysterious, daring, confident, friendly (except to the MSD/PAP officers), honest, wild (sometimes!), resourceful, cultivated, well-read, high-brow (most of the time), low-brow (sometimes), handsome (still!), individualistic, sexy, manly, notorious, sincere, bold, assertive, independent, sharp-minded, intelligent, thoughtful, intuitive, forceful, self-educated (mostly) and, yes, FREE (determinedly, insistently, persistently and potently!). I am the star in my own blogs -- for I write not as a team of group-thinking composite bloggers but only (and only) as myself, an independent authorial voice (of reason and compassion).

I'm getting poorer and poorer in my finances; but I'm becoming richer and richer in my mind. I'm more powerful now as a writer, citizen-leader and critic. The PAP bastards can torture me in any way they want. But as long as I am alive, I will always be an oppositionist (in this post-modernist, globalized world), a writer and critic who loves women and girls (especially when they are pretty and shapely)!

If there is only one idea of freedom, and only one, then the PAP will win! But the PAP has not won, not yet! If it has, then it would not repeat this word "freedom" over and over, again and again! It wants to, with such repetition, change not only people's minds but also their very BRAINS!

If the PAP has succeeded in getting its own version or idea of "freedom" into the BRAIN of every Singapore citizen, then it could simply have taken freedom -- as it has defined it -- for granted! Did it? Does the PAP still? Even today?

QUOTES FOR THE TIMES:

Deprivation and impotence sanctify the "mindless", the most humble!
-- George Steiner, ERRATA: AN EXAMINED LIFE (London: Weidenfeld & Nicolson, 1997)
Untold personal destitution, ridicule, isolation, obscurity, not to speak of persecution on ideological-political grounds, has attended on the production of great art, literature or philosophic investigation....the evidences of suffering and solitude remain overwhelming. In the midst of the inhumanity and indifference of history; a handful of men and women have been creatively possessed by the compelling splendour of the "useless"! This constitutes the eminent dignity, the "princeliness" of our "brutal" kind.
-- George Steiner, ibid
None are more enslaved than those who falsely believe they are free.
-- Goethe
But who will guard the guardians themselves?
-- Juvenal (c. 60 -- 130 AD)
The true danger is when liberty is nibbled away, for expedience, and by parts.
-- Edmund Burke (1729 -- 1797)

Book Publishers and Governmental Surveillance

2008-10-30T20:46:00.000-07:00

The PAP Government's Denial of

My Rights -- As A Citizen and

Writer --

To Publish Serious and Quality

Essays

(to be Collected in Printed Books)

Due To

the Timid and Subservient

Local Publishers

Readers of my previous blog entry will be surprised by this latest new post, as I have last indicated that it might be quite sometime before I will resume active blogging activities in this particular website. Well, I am back too soon! -- unfortunately for the chief reason that I'm suffering from state interventions into my attempt to write, and to have my writings published in book form by hopefully brave publishers in the local print media industry.

Indeed, I have failed miserably! The surveillance web, spun by the PAP authorities, has ensured that I will never be successful as a writer in the print media (which is easier for the PAP to control by intimidation and harassment and threats than the electronic media).

I have already come to terms with the reality that we are all under constant surveillance. But I can't get used to the idea that I am somehow a PRIME SUSPECT for subversion in the oppositionist camp of critics and dissidents! Am I still required to demonstrate my political innocence? My identity is known to the authorities: they know, to enlighten my readers, my shopping preferences, health status, marital status, financial situation, date of birth, gender, age, monthly income, race, the locations of my many (past and present) residences, physical characteristics, family background, handphone number, level of education, profession, magazine preferences, utility consumption, responsiveness to money-making opportunities, constituency, size and brand of clothes worn, habits, lifestyle preferences, hobbies, religious affiliations, home-ownership, mortgate payments, mode of transport, responsiveness to direct female solicitations, contributions to political, religious and charitable groups, electronic products ownership, pet ownership, interests, book preferences, music preferences, and, lastly, heterosexual orientation/preference.

The PAP Government's determination to build a surveillance state behind the backs of singaporeans is becoming increasingly sinister! It is a measure of ministerial arrogance! The PAP Government is trying to end the presumption of innocence. What am I guilty of? Political subversion? What kind of major changes is the government clearly determined to enforce -- in the relationship between the citizen and the state?

Is this an example of twisted priorities? (Or are we looking at something far more worrying?) Do they not realise that heightened and sustained surveillance increases mistrust in any society? It places the delicate social contract between individuals and the state under the pressures, intrusions and disapprovals of our government's surveillance systems.

What are the costs of all these surveillance schemes, efforts, techniques, technologies, methods, systems, measures, plans, etc.? Will I be correctly, accurately and fairly identified, as a writer with a liberated, liberal and libertarian outlook? If not, will such wrong, inaccurate and unfair identification lead to my loss of RIGHTS as a man, human being, citizen and writer? Or even, to Fraudulent and False Arrest by the police enforcers of the "just" laws?

There will be a huge disruption in the day-to-day running of my life -- until this matter concerning my attempt to write on socio-political issues in Singapore and to have such writings published locally -- is resolved conclusively by the (surveillance) authorities!

Temporary Cessation Of My Blog Entries/Postings (Updated Version)

2008-10-15T19:10:00.000-07:00

On The Road To Find Out--About How Good I Really Am

I am sorry to announce to all my faithful and enthusiastic readers and fellow netizens who have been following these postings of mine in the present blog that I shall discontinue my posting activities in this blog indefinitely.

The reason? I am now working on a book of collected essays, which I am hoping to publish sometime next year. To continue posting blog articles, comments and excerpts (from books that I have read)--as I have been doing since April 2008--would divert much of my limited energy and attention from this major and ambitious effort of mine--which has been my life-long goal as a writer. (I am not satisfied with being an electronically published writer--as a blogger and commentator in the SDP website: http://www.yoursdp.org/; I have to aim for my ultimate objective, which is to be a published writer of PRINTED books.)

Please understand that I would resume my posting activities in this blog after the conclusion (and hopefully, success) of my said writing project. (Please support me by looking out for this first published book of mine when it appears in bookstores next year!)

Only a man like me -- an unrepentant INDIVIDUALIST -- can exercise my own private/personal regulating of my own behaviour! It has proven to be far better for me to constrain excessive risk-taking on my part -- in this exclusively personal, individualistic way of mine --than to let the manipulative and intrusive government regulate my own personal life and behaviour!

The government must take responsibility for my past failure as a man, human being, writer and citizen. My self-damaging lifestyle has involuntarily been a fact of my life. And my reputation has been tarnished -- without any responsibility on my part for such a happening!

Does the PAP Government not feel CONTRITE yet -- NOW? It is a flawed government -- despite what it publicly, openly and shamelessly claimed to be a "good" and "able" government! It is, in fact, full of greedy, inept, power-mad, corrupt, dishonest and unprincipled officers and officials!

They cannot compare me -- with the behaviour, lifestyle, preferences, values, qualities, and actions of an individualist, an theoretical anarchist, an oppositionist, and a modernist -- with the state of the Singapore economy! How can they? Both parties (oh, parties? I am just one single solo person! -- and they?) are as different and opposed to each other as would a masculine heterosexual man be when contrasted to an effeminate arse-hole loving homosexual!

The PAP Government is not infallible! It is NOT omniscient! My FUTURE cannot be forecast or predicted with 100% accuracy by this bunch of lunatic, nutty officials and officers! Such forecasts and predictions by them on other major matters or issues in the past have been shown, revealed and exposed as unscientific!

I may be becoming poorer and poorer in my finances: my debts are going up; my financial difficulties abound constantly -- without any genuine prospect of being solved; my attempt to service my housing loan from the Singapore government only gives me a headache! I want to ask, for instance, why Singapore Power (no doubt a privatised utilities company) is using tactics of harassment and intimidation in order to recover my debt? (Surely, the Singapore government should look into such matters and advise Singapore Power to give consumers like me a grace period -- yes, sufficient time -- to repay their debts without suffering mental anguish and emotional distress, not to mention financial pressure? And how, indeed, should I effectively and successfully reduce or restructure my debts -- as one wise financial counsellor advises? I call upon the Singapore Goverrnment to spped up the implementation of a DEBT REPAYMENT SCHEME -- to give low-wage earners or workers and the unemployed -- as well as oppositionist-dissidents like me, who are under perpetual surveillance by none other than officers and officials from the Singapore government itself! -- an alternative to destitution and homelessness!)

But, on the other hand -- and I'm happy to say so! -- I am becoming richer and richer in my mind. Even as I am being constantly regarded and treated as a criminal, or as a subversive, I'm getting, at the same time, more and more powerful in my writing. I want to build up my knowledge of human rights violations, government abuses, judicial injustices and maltreatment of dissidents (like me, for instance) by the ubiquitous officers, agents, operatives and officials of the surveillance groups or teams who are working for the PAP Government! Yes, I'm definitely going to be a major or key informant and inspiration for the foreign media and intellectuals in general. Yes, as former NMP Chia Shi Teck says, those intellectuals who know must speak up and scream!

I am in greater control of my life now as a writer and lover. Yes, I'm now in moral, intellectual and physical ascendancy! (Truly!)

Until my next posting, goodbye!

On State Spying and the Death of Privacy In The Postmodern World

2008-10-12T19:57:00.000-07:00

The Truth About My Past "Schizophrenia" (Part Two)

Why did I behave, think and express myself the way I did--often irrationally and so fruitlessly--throughout the last 36 years? And why was there a point of reference in the year 1972? What actually did take place in my life in that year?

I want to establish what certain events did occur to me during that year and subsequently. I'm not interested, as biased postmodern officials of the PAP Government would be, in 'proving' to the public that these certain events meant what prejudiced official representatives of the PAP Government wanted them to mean--in other words, in support of, or favouring, their loaded interpretations of those events!

What were those past attempts, based on my remembrances or memories, by the intelligence and security personnel of the PAP Government, to manufacture and concoct so-called recorded "evidences" (of incidents, escapades and happenings in the course of the last 36 years of my life) that would seem, yes!, to 'prove' my alleged "unsound" or "schizophrenic" mind, and, yes!, to discredit me as a man, human being, and citizen with long-held moral and political principles, convictions, beliefs, ideals, and values?--and, yes, finally, to nullify any cherished ambition and aspiration of mine to be a serious published writer (of quality books and essays) with honest motives and intentions?

Why would the PAP Government, since 1972, want to treat me--yes, to regard me, officially or otherwise--as a spy working covertly or overtly, for the PAP Government? What were its motives, its intentions--in manipulating and turning me into such as unproductive and inefficient spy--in those planned different roles, capacities, guises and ways adopted or undertaken, over the past 36 years, by an aspiring and single-minded writer like me?

I'm trying to reconstruct, as accurately and as completely as possible, the key momemts of my last 36 years in my mind now--probably not in the exact sequences in which they have occurred--and then using such a reconstructed picture or understanding, to provide a definitive selection of such events in my life (which I would eventually reveal in future essays of mine but which I would now use, as the basis of my present attempt to give to the public a rational--in other words, a questioning and probing--account of my life) as a so-called "spy", writer, lover and dissident!

This essay is by an oppositionist--one who rejects postmodernism--like me! And I will not entertain the public by telling stories or interpreting events in a way that contains so much ambiguities, contradictions, inconsistencies and illogicalities. I'm going to give the public a conventional or traditional historical account of my life. It will be based on a self-chosen series of aesthetic and moral choices. It is not going to give readers a multiplicity of viewpoints or interpretations, which the biased PAP Government will hold and interweave into a number of different and conflicting narratives.

I want now to reveal the multiplicity of VOICES purporting to represent the official Party, which has been maintaining lines and tricks of communication with those citizens they have focussed their attention on (from their enclosed base of operation up in the Top Secret location in Singapore)--and concentrating their efforts and energy, second-by-second, minute-by-minute, day-by-day, in their close control and surveillance of such (knowing and unknowing) citizens by telling bizarre stories, sometimes as raving lunatics, sometimes as vulgar, cruel and unmannerly critics, and sometimes in a cunningly and sexually tempting manner!, in their feverish and nightmarish work as official postmodernists, for such a long time now, yes, from mid 20th century to the present moment, early in the 21st century!

And who were -- and still are (!) -- these VOICES? They are from the following (both male and female) members of The Special Top Secret Project (under the Project Director, Military Security Department, MINDEF) a covert operation known to the CORE GROUP of leading power-players in the PEOPLE'S ACTION PARTY, namely: Tan Hong Huat, Ang, David Ong, Phyllis Balakrishnan, Melinda, Nancy, Wendy, Ms Oh, Ms Lum, Ms Heng, Catherine, Irene Fong, (and a host of other masturbating pricks and cunts, unknown to me, yet!).

But for how long can they sustain such "imprisonment" of me--and of each and every one of the other controlled (especially unknowingly) citizens? Till each and every one of them die?

This is my advice to these Party officers or officials: Improve your mind! Cultivate a taste for fine reading! There are certain qualities in a man's being that money and other temptations cannot buy. You know you can't win by reasoned arguments and persuasion. So you people used, instead, threats, force or other cunning (especially linguistic) trickeries in your long-distance communications with us -- the victims of governmental surveillance and control -- to make your points or to achieve your goals. Why? Are you so insecure, so weak, and so deficient?

As often-disrespectful voices from the ministries, you are simply not respecting human rights!

You're abusing your ministerial powers and privileges! If you Party representatives, fucking bastards!, force me into displaying bizarre and purposeless behaviour, don't complain later that I disrespect you! Don't try to dirty, corrupt or contaminate my world--or I'll continue to resist you (the "people" or government of Singapore?) with all my resources -- especially intellectual -- and with all my potency, as a human being, man citizen and writer! Surely, you can't help me--assuming that THAT is indeed your aim! no? --to live a good, productive and satisfying life--by precisely interfering with my life!?

I have rejected -- not completely though --postmodernism and unthinking subordination to those who are out to reduce me to a mere abject subject -- without any compelling individuality of my own! I'd rather be, and die, like a poor man -- if I can't compell you, Party officers and officials, to respect me, on my own conditions and terms !

I'll never give up fighting against the Party and insisting on asserting my rights as a man, human being, citizen and writer! I want to have a say in running and leading my own life. Is that too much to ask for in a democratic society?

Are the Party officers' and officials' motives (and intentions) beyond reproach? Why must I be controlled and regarded as a subversive "government agent"--as implied by their usage of the term "implantee" when refering to me (as in: "A man has been implanted as an agent--thus, "implantee"!--in a targetted organization to spy on its personnel?")?

What did I mean by claiming that I'd been put under such close surveillance by the PAP Government? Well, the answer is simple: The People's Action Party -- through its lackeys and toadies working in the Singapore Government -- have been "implanting" its authoritarian and autocratic ideology, beliefs and attitudes -- subtly, cleverly, incrementally, stealthily, and diligently -- since those early days in 1972, into the BRAIN of a helpless, poor, and unfortunate citizen (namely: yours truly, David Chua Chuan Seah) whose own rights, personal beliefs and attitudes had been patiently, dutifully, cunningly and cruelly put under "observation", "examination" and "judgment" by the surveillance authorities in the wards of the Medical Centre at SAFTI, after he had returned from a few days out as an AWOL offender in 1972.

Who (in Singapore or elsewhere) can help me resolve my conflict -- both personal and public -- with these fucking PAP lackeys and toadies -- mostly nameless and faceless "voices", whose identities have been the subject of my investigations and which I've had some inkling of, intermittently, throughout the past 36 years, during which I, by forcing these PAP toadies to "expose" themselves as unprincipled, inept, greedy, power-mad and lazy governmental "controllers" with annoying, irritating, insulting and disrespectful methods and techniques of communications, finally earn my "respect" at last! For they have come to terms, finally, with my insistent determination and persistent efforts to set things right -- yes, to clean up the messiness, dirtiness and sinfulness (like my "schizophrenia", my "subversiveness", my "criminality", my "perversions", and my "immorality") that "I" had created or caused in my life during the past 36 years!

To emphasize, I'm not interested in the PAP Government's viewpoints and interpretations on those certain events in my life during the past 36 years. I want, instead, to establish the historical facts -- the actual events or occurrences in my controlled life, based on my memories (and from documentary "evidences" or official records of such events which have come into my knowledge)!

It matters a lot to my self-respect--that my personal life-history can be understood, examined and accurately, if not comprehensively, recorded with honesty, seriousness and graciousness. I want my leaders NOT to insult my dignity and intelligence any more--from now onwards!

FOREVER IN MY HEART: Postmodernist PAP Female Neo-Conservative Censors and Monitors Over The Last 36 Years

2008-10-12T03:38:00.000-07:00

Dedicated To The Loves of

My Lifetime:

Those "Feminine",

"Truthful", "Magnanimous",

"Broad-minded", "Open-minded",

"Liberated" and "Honest"

Women!

(Which I Have Been "Meeting" --

Yes! Oh Dear! --

Through Electronic

Inter-Connections

and Telecommunications

With Them Over The Past

36 Years In Our

Postmodern Surveillance Society)

Of Women's Ugliness, Stupidity, and Sadness:
The Ageing Cunts, Drooping Tits, and Misshapen Bodies of "The Loves of My Lifetime"!

Introduction:

Not many postmodernist PAP female censors, spies and monitors -- working for the Singapore government as surveillance agents -- can qualify as femme fatales! Not even in those early youthful years! How many postmodernist PAP female censors, spies and monitors can be charmers, enchantresses, seductresses, sirens, temptresses or vamps? How do they look -- in terms of facial and physical appearance? Even when they were young, they were hardly beautiful, happy or intelligent! Physically, and facially, they were not even attractive! Now that they are already old, do they still look stupid, ugly, and sad -- as when they ere young?

Questions For These Romantic Women:

Are they still really THAT old-fashioned, still THAT prudish, still THAT overmodest, still THAT narrow-minded, still THAT old-maidish, still THAT priggish, still THAT puritanical, still THAT stuffy, still THAT ultra-virtuous, still THATprim, still THAT prissy, still THAT proper, still THAT squeamish, still THAT square, still THAT strait-laced, still THAT Victorian? And, yet, still so utterly lacking in basic humanity, honesty, feminity, and truthfulness -- not to mention basic human courtesy!

Commentary:

Postmodernist PAP women -- as censors, monitors and spies -- have been, and are still, all expressing themselves in an affected, feigned, hypocritical, hypercritical, hysterical, artificial, assumed, counterfeit, fabricated, fake, false, imitative, insincere, opinionated, pseudo, sham, simulated and spurious manner!

Are they, perhaps, now really "schizophrenic" themselves? (After all these years spent working in a MADHOUSE -- manipulating, humiliating and controlling (scientific and technological) "schizophrenics"?)

Conclusion:

I have absolutely no interest -- especially in a sexual (and certainly not in any romantic sense) --in associating with such misleading, self-interested and dishonest (not to mention ugly, sad and stupid) story-telling postmodernist PAP female spies, monitors and censors! What else is there for a knowing, knowledgeable and self-aware writer like me -- truthful, articulate and honest(not to mention still happy, intelligent and good-looking) who, as also a law-abiding citizen and human being, faces conflicts and pressures generated by his attempt to come to terms with his discovery of a world which has now become totally different from what he has always known, or thought he knew (even after his "implantation" in that significant year 1972) -- to say?

Decision:

It's your decision!

-- Ms HO CHING
(Prominent Member of The Government and The
Establishment; Wife of PM Lee Hsien Loong;
and, Arguably, The Most Powerful Woman in Singapore!)

They -- all these surveillance officers (male or female) -- all know my important name and flat number; but there will be no more extension of their "telecommunication lines" to my assertive, resurgent and bold being -- as a man, human, and citizen! And also even more as a writer, I might -- just might -- "HAVE" them! That's how I'd solved the long-standing and outstanding problem of trying to have "REAL" sexual relations with these ugly, sad and stupid female members of the most powerful and highest authority of this country -- as a presently FINANCIALLY destitute and dissident writer (who is despersately seeking FINANCIAL assistance from the great welfare agency)!

They will always be women to me! (But are they -- these moral and religious fanatics -- AHEAD of -- or BEHIND -- the time?)

PERSONAL REMINDER:

From now onwards, as these PAP/SGwomen don't -- and can't -- respond positively and respectfully to my higher intellectual and moral level of discourse, debate, discussion and conversation, I'll just have to hit their soft, sensitive, insecure, vulnerable and weak spots or areas -- in other words, their sense or image of their own facial and physical appearances! Yes, it's a matter of tit-for-tat! And an eye for an eye! But didn't they ask for it? Serve them right!

Finally, I'm trying to avoid being affected by the TOXIC atmosphere existing in their Control Room -- on their side! Or to put it differently: I want to avoid being infected by the viruses from their side!

Telling Stories (Part Two)

2008-10-09T01:35:00.000-07:00

THE TRUTH ABOUT

MY STORY-TELLING:

PART TWO OF MY LIFE (2009 -- )

On Postmodernism, Relativism,

Nonsense and Frivolities

To postmodernists, truths exist only in relation to specific discourses. There are no absolute or universal facts--only stories that "work" at particular times for their particular "speakers". Pragmatism in philosophy puts forward a similar argument. Structuralists, poststructuralists and new historicists argue that it is impossible to access reality except through texts.

Discourse theorists suggests that it is NOT truth that counts, but who defines it, and what uses they put it to; KNOWLEDGE IS USED IN THE EXERCISE OF POWER:

Observers are never neutral or disinterested. Truth-claims serve specific interests;
You can only look at an object of enquiry from a particular viewpoint, and through a specific set of expectations and requirements;
No account of historical reality is free of narrative--because you can't reconstruct the past as it "really" happened, you can only tell stories about it.

This can be seen as a relativist outlook. It can lead to a critical engagement with history. It enables new histories to be written that reveal the significance of previously neglected groups, or which challenge dominant but biased accounts; feminist histories or Marxist histories would be two examples of this. [But is there any guarantee such re-writing of history will not be subjected to biased outlook and misleading interpretations of their own -- reflecting considerable vested interests invested into such "histories"-- rendering such "histories" totally unacceptable to traditional historians (and to someone like me?)].

Since all histories are stories, historians needn't worry about evidence, accuracy or validation--as they can be all simulated or manufactured! Does all this not open the door to irresponsible, even dangerous, revisions of history? And give itself no grounds on which to dispute them? Are there not clear boundaries between history and fiction? Do we not need to believe that there are such things as undeniable, objective facts? If we don't tell it like it is, we'll all be mad!

Postmodernists can defend their position by claiming that it is not about choosing between pure facts and fantasy. (You can tell that one account is truer than another--without assuming that your knowledge is perfect or that new facts won't come to light.)

Postmodernist relativism makes us aware of the rules and conventions under which claims are made--i.e., we must "play" by the agreed rules--applying, in other words, the standards of the historical community. We must be "in" the history language game; we must be historians! (Yes, but what kind of historians?)

The Challenging Practices of Everyday Life

2008-10-09T01:20:00.000-07:00

THOSE "LITTLE" ACTS OF

ANTI-ESTABLISHMENT DISOBEDIENCE --

AS PRACTISED BY INDIVIDUALISTS

IN THEIR EVERYDAY LIFE

In order to understand the present way of life, you should attend less to a total picture of society as a whole and more to the seemingly insignificant details of how people go about living their lives.

By doing so, you'll find in contemporary life not some falsely unified spirit of the age, but a complex mass of interweaving and contradictory desires, concerns and stories.

Everyday life is creative. Everyday life is full of such acts of "poaching, tricking, speaking, strolling, desiring". We are not passive victims of consumer society. We make our material conditions bearable and make sense of the world we live in. Every day, we engage in the creative production of our own power struggles, pleasures, and acts of disobedience -- AS INDIVIDUALISTS (YES, AND CERTAINLY, SORRY, NOT AS SUBJECTS, WHO ARE ALL ALREADY DEFEATED, COMPROMISED AND SUBMISSIVE AGENTS OF THE SYSTEM, NO LESS!).

In doing so, we CREATE IMPORTANT CRACKS IN THE MONOLITH OF THE DOMINANT ECONOMIC ORDER!

We may not be able to change the world, but at least, we can migrate across the cultural environment, taking bits we need from whatever products and experiences are available. (Hey, hey, hey!) In short, day-to-day life is about making do against the system!

Postmodern Politics

2008-10-09T01:07:00.000-07:00

Postmodernists maintain that society is incoherent and that no single perspective can grasp the complexity and fluidity of current conditions.

Society, to them, has fragmented into so many conflicting knowledges, identities, needs, and views--it is not possible or desirable to see the human race as "one big fmily"!

This situation arises out of the fact that socieites arebecoming multi-cultural and our lifestyles are becoming cosmopolitan. It also means that there is no agreement about what is worth believing (or knowing) any more! That social conditions are in a frightening state of disrepair! Postmodernists--some of them--see it as far more constructive to push the fragmentation as far as it will go--and use it to your advantage!

diversity and disagreement are part of political discourse. To generate new ideas and experiences, postmodernists--many of them, yes!--propose that we should activitate the differences between people and between the cultural spaces they inhabit.

Possibilities for creativity are contained in this activation. (It also contains the potential for violent conflict; some postmodern thinkers would rather see violence than flabby tolerance. But it is our responsibility to ensure that the activation will only encourage possibilities for creativity--and nothing violent, conflicting, flabby or tolerant!)

Individual Identity and Society in the Postmodern Capitalist System

2008-10-09T00:51:00.000-07:00

Subjects, Totalitarianism, Mass Culture,

Capitalism and Modern Societies

The postmodern position on individual identity and society (as an early statement): the world is fragmented and in a flux--in which individuals are liberated from any "repressive" notions about the rationality, unity, or stability of the self.

The modernity's capitalist system, in which repression and dominance are lived by the people, shows up the power relationship between modern society and individual desire!

Subjects and their pleasures are defined and controlled by the institutions of the modern state (unless or except if you're still individualists!). Capitalism has infiltrated all of existence. It has taken away from people -- except and excluding all those who are still individualists -- the possibility of experiencing genuine freedom, expression and satisfasction. All desires under capitalism are "fake", "mediated" desires. (For those who are still NOT yet SUBJECTS in the system, this is not necessarily true!)

Modernity has expanded communication technologies and consumerism into our lives--which are central to an insidious kind of totalitarianism. Thus totalitarianism produces "false needs" and seeks to penetrate consciousness itself--neutralizing all voices of dissent, and turning us all into interchangeable components of the capitalist machine -- except yours truly, whose voice of conscience and dissent remains clear, strong, vibrant, loud and still uncompromised -- after all these years -- by the Capitalist system!

Even in democratic societies, mass culture acts as an authoritarian force which reduces people to passive social conformity. It injects the capitalist status quo into people's unconscious--making its victims lose their individuality, and persuades them (its victims) to willingly accept mass culture's values!